Or
A Futile Attempt at Expanding Minds
Lol. Well, when people ask, "what's your type?" in regards to what sort of physical features attract me--I don't usually know what to tell them. I don't usually think about a persons' looks. But that doesn't mean I like looking at just any and everything on the exterior anatomy of someone. I guess the best way to explain it would be to list and break down as many things as I can think of that I would (or at some point could) see on a person and say if I like it or not. So that's what I shall now do. You can expect some things that would equate to "too much information" on this list, if you're sensitive about those things, I apologize for ruffling your feathers.
visible, external things/qualities on any person that I find...
Attractive or Interesting: (basically stuff that I like)
breasts/pectorals
derriere (the butt)
eyes
facial stubble
lips
people shorter than (or equal to) 5'11"
short hair (the hair on your scalp)
small tattoos (~9 inches or less in diameter)
thighs
Neither Attractive nor Unattractive: (stuff I generally don't mind nor give excess thought to)
arms
ears
facial piercings (anything above the chin)
fat/overweight
hands
large tattoos
neck
muscle tone
mustaches
people taller than (or equal to) 6'
shoulders and back of torso
scrotum (the ballsack)
thin/average weight
Generally Unattractive or Uninteresting: (stuff I don't really like or usually won't ask to see)
beards
body hair
considerably overweight
excess tattoos (more than 7 small ones or 2 large ones)
feet
legs
long hair (the hair on your scalp)
nails (fingers/toes)
non-facial piercings
nipples
penis
underweight
vagina
I probably expect most of those things to be unsurprising to people who've thoroughly inspected this journal-ish blog of mine. And some may raise further questions. OH WELL!!! I can't please everyone, hurr.
I can say that hair color is probably the last thing I care about, except maybe gray-ing hair. If you're below age 48 and most of your hair has lost color, I'm sorry for you and would probably find you a bit unattractive (just being honest). It does happen eventually though. I'd rather be bald than have a full head of mostly gray/white hair when I'm age 45 or so, lol. Baldness doesn't bug me as long as your scalp is generally healthy *nod*.
Skin color... well, in earnest, I LIKE darker tones just more by default. On other people. On myself?? Well I'm white but I guess I wouldn't be that much different if I had been born black, tan, brown or w/e. In fact at times I wish I weren't (white) so I could be excused from my grandfather's exceptionally biased views and just overall maybe have fewer headaches during a day. That's a pretty steep maybe though. If my family was the same but black, then grandfather would probably just hate all white people and use racial slurs I've never even heard of (in the present reality). The grass is never greener on the other side, it's just either more wet or dry, hah!
Later, losers~. (I'll show you! *shot*) xD
SH2
Sunday, June 30, 2013
Wednesday, June 19, 2013
Log of Thoughts and Delusions
Log Date: June, Almost Summer, 2013
(Not Entirely) Random List of Things I WILL NOT Do
-state something false on purpose
-(profusely) curse
-eat string beans, beets, lima beans, nor the stalks of broccoli (among other foods I purely dislike)
-tolerate cigarette smoke, tobacco, nor any non-prescription
-tolerate breaches of security including but not limited to eavesdropping, rummaging through others' property, extraneous invasions of personal space under any circumstances, etc.; nor will I be privy to such activities
-tolerate unsafe vehicle driving practices
-tolerate criticism on anyone's appearance without constructive, earnest advice on how to improve the points so criticized
-negotiate on any of the above terms, lest I choose to discuss one willingly
There are more things, probably, but eh, those are among my biggest deal-breakers, if you will. I very likely mentioned some of those points before (because they all rather irritate me) but some things are worth repeating. If anything, at least I won't forget about these if they should ever come up and I need any convincing of things (y'know, concerning private matters only; I'd never let my biases interfere with impartial scenarios like jury duty or similar venues).
I'm okay otherwise, I guess... lately I seem to be getting more random attention from newer people. I really don't care for being complimented as the first thing from someone. At least, not on superficial things like looks... because seriously, seriously--how am I supposed to know if you're judging by me by my appearance OR if you've actually bothered to read the spiel I post on my pages (of which are public but never heavily advertised) and find me attractive by my personality, if all you're saying is, "you're cute(sexy/beautiful/some-empty-overused-word-here)". I mean, you haven't even talked to me yet... at least show some interest in me as a person BEYOND what you can see. What I care about is what you feel in your heart... blagh, but try telling that to anyone nowadays and they'll assume you're mental. I don't hate the attention but some guys... really bug me with it. Others not at much, at least not those who actively respond when I talk, and I do at least offer thanks for the compliments, in general. Just sayin'.
That's all for now, I suppose. Farewell.
(Not Entirely) Random List of Things I WILL NOT Do
-state something false on purpose
-(profusely) curse
-eat string beans, beets, lima beans, nor the stalks of broccoli (among other foods I purely dislike)
-tolerate cigarette smoke, tobacco, nor any non-prescription
-tolerate breaches of security including but not limited to eavesdropping, rummaging through others' property, extraneous invasions of personal space under any circumstances, etc.; nor will I be privy to such activities
-tolerate unsafe vehicle driving practices
-tolerate criticism on anyone's appearance without constructive, earnest advice on how to improve the points so criticized
-negotiate on any of the above terms, lest I choose to discuss one willingly
There are more things, probably, but eh, those are among my biggest deal-breakers, if you will. I very likely mentioned some of those points before (because they all rather irritate me) but some things are worth repeating. If anything, at least I won't forget about these if they should ever come up and I need any convincing of things (y'know, concerning private matters only; I'd never let my biases interfere with impartial scenarios like jury duty or similar venues).
I'm okay otherwise, I guess... lately I seem to be getting more random attention from newer people. I really don't care for being complimented as the first thing from someone. At least, not on superficial things like looks... because seriously, seriously--how am I supposed to know if you're judging by me by my appearance OR if you've actually bothered to read the spiel I post on my pages (of which are public but never heavily advertised) and find me attractive by my personality, if all you're saying is, "you're cute(sexy/beautiful/some-empty-overused-word-here)". I mean, you haven't even talked to me yet... at least show some interest in me as a person BEYOND what you can see. What I care about is what you feel in your heart... blagh, but try telling that to anyone nowadays and they'll assume you're mental. I don't hate the attention but some guys... really bug me with it. Others not at much, at least not those who actively respond when I talk, and I do at least offer thanks for the compliments, in general. Just sayin'.
That's all for now, I suppose. Farewell.
Wednesday, April 10, 2013
Uhh... Stuff~
That does happen to be a pretty common reply of my own when acquaintances or friends ask me of what I'm doing at the time of conversation. That question does annoy me a little. Seriously, why do you need to know? If you don't wish to know, then why are you asking? Surely you have something better to ask about... I guess it's supposed to be polite or something, so I too ask it at times, usually near the start or after a significant period of time (approximately 90 minutes or more) passes between the last notable exchange of words between us. No, I'm not really trying to sound especially smart when I'm typing this. But, I do expect whoever reads this to at least appreciate my partial attempts at sounding educated... being too informal can be kinda annoying. Like this one person published a book which basically was a very realistic if not downright true diary of a 30 year old, hetero American male and MY GOD was it full of stuff I'd never say. Seriously, the guy thinks about sex at least 10 times a day, has a girlfriend, hardly connects with her at all emotionally beyond trying to listen what he implies is the equivalent of mindless rabble from her. It's just... the person narrating, though at least honest, is a total stereotype. And comes off downright bastardly as a result. (Apparently, "bastardly" is not a word; and I do not care the slightest).
But you know what bugs me most? Stubborn people who refuse to admit they're wrong or have wronged other people. Nothing to do with that prior tangent; this refers to... well I guess friend is appropriate, I don't dislike them that much and we talk on a frequent enough basis. More than what I'd consider an acquaintance to be. This guy is a total piece of work. He's honest and well-meaning, but a total clingy dog of a person. And I don't mean "dog" as an insult either... he's really that friendly most of the time if he likes someone. Oh, but don't get me started on the people he likes. Because it makes me embarrassed that he chose to associate me with a certain "stereotype" as well. Which by the way, is more society's fault than any other. They had to come up with words to show disapproval for other people's body types. Anyway, this person has wronged me. In the sense that they have dishonored me with their asinine level of ignorance, and that's not the only strike against them. But I am a very patient person and, with the best of intentions, do not hesitate to tell them of how foolish they behave. As I've told them, "I may have to be mean, but I do only because I truly care about you." I do earnestly mean that, as well.
The way they wronged me was, well... we were talking and when I bring up my own wishes and regards for well, intimacy, this imbecile has the unmitigated gall to tell me to go sleep with a woman. It's just... wrong. Because they theirself are quickly offended if someone so much as tries to pass of their own sexuality (he's gay) as a "choice". SO! How dare he act like I can just choose to sleep with a female because I first and foremost want to be the giving partner in the terms of intimacy and have very limited desires to receive?! I am still entirely flummoxed as to how he can think its okay to even joke about it when he knows of my aversion to the appearance of female genitalia (no offense intended). THEN, oh how very foolish he is, he follows up at a later point, trying to clarify, that oh, there's men who may want to be women and it's just... I am entirely at a loss. Whenever I think back on these facts, I just feel conflicted. Should I really be so mad at him for being a dunce as he clearly is? Y'know, besides other reasons I have to be upset with him. Is it really his fault? I don't believe so, personally, but it still makes me just... feel more empty when people refuse to accept that some people are different and just aren't able to want to be more flexible (in multiple facets of the word) when they haven't experienced what they truly want at first.
As a guy who has not had sex, I just... feel distanced from other people who exhibit such closed-minded thoughts or ideals. Let us be serious for a moment. Do you need to have sex to want to ask someone out, and not only that, but hope that, maybe in your future you would reach a level of intimacy with them? Well I personally say no, sex does not determine a person's sexuality nor their preferences in other people. It can persuade them but hey, if you, as a male, never have been intimate with a woman, even on just an emotional level, then how can you say with complete confidence that you are not "straight"? Unlike my friend, I have been intimate with women, emotionally, not physically and I can say that I'm not really a physical-seeking person. I can also say that as far as physical context and anatomical gender are concerned, I prefer men. I know this because when I engage in personal activities... without meaning to sound crude, I orgasm more completely when my mind, which is receiving physical and mental stimulation, places myself with another male. That is why I know I'm gay. Not because I ever needed someone else to confirm this with their body. Of course if you want to offer me your body and you are a man, more power to you! Hah, have to end on a brighter note.
Other positive things to note of late are:
-several video games I would like to purchase are receiving localizations in my country soon
-thanks to the dunce's meddling, I did meet a new person to talk to who I do like, and that is all (for now)
-I found a diet soda that I actually like to drink; thing is, I abhor Splenda because for me, it gives me this really unsettling aftertaste whenever I consume something it's in; the soda I discovered now uses "good ol'" aspartame as one of its components
-I finally got around to finishing a full playthrough of Magna Carta 2; its a good game, despite its flaws I find a number of things I liked in it (voice acting was also loaded with big names in the US department)
I'll be seeing you, anonymous reader.
But you know what bugs me most? Stubborn people who refuse to admit they're wrong or have wronged other people. Nothing to do with that prior tangent; this refers to... well I guess friend is appropriate, I don't dislike them that much and we talk on a frequent enough basis. More than what I'd consider an acquaintance to be. This guy is a total piece of work. He's honest and well-meaning, but a total clingy dog of a person. And I don't mean "dog" as an insult either... he's really that friendly most of the time if he likes someone. Oh, but don't get me started on the people he likes. Because it makes me embarrassed that he chose to associate me with a certain "stereotype" as well. Which by the way, is more society's fault than any other. They had to come up with words to show disapproval for other people's body types. Anyway, this person has wronged me. In the sense that they have dishonored me with their asinine level of ignorance, and that's not the only strike against them. But I am a very patient person and, with the best of intentions, do not hesitate to tell them of how foolish they behave. As I've told them, "I may have to be mean, but I do only because I truly care about you." I do earnestly mean that, as well.
The way they wronged me was, well... we were talking and when I bring up my own wishes and regards for well, intimacy, this imbecile has the unmitigated gall to tell me to go sleep with a woman. It's just... wrong. Because they theirself are quickly offended if someone so much as tries to pass of their own sexuality (he's gay) as a "choice". SO! How dare he act like I can just choose to sleep with a female because I first and foremost want to be the giving partner in the terms of intimacy and have very limited desires to receive?! I am still entirely flummoxed as to how he can think its okay to even joke about it when he knows of my aversion to the appearance of female genitalia (no offense intended). THEN, oh how very foolish he is, he follows up at a later point, trying to clarify, that oh, there's men who may want to be women and it's just... I am entirely at a loss. Whenever I think back on these facts, I just feel conflicted. Should I really be so mad at him for being a dunce as he clearly is? Y'know, besides other reasons I have to be upset with him. Is it really his fault? I don't believe so, personally, but it still makes me just... feel more empty when people refuse to accept that some people are different and just aren't able to want to be more flexible (in multiple facets of the word) when they haven't experienced what they truly want at first.
As a guy who has not had sex, I just... feel distanced from other people who exhibit such closed-minded thoughts or ideals. Let us be serious for a moment. Do you need to have sex to want to ask someone out, and not only that, but hope that, maybe in your future you would reach a level of intimacy with them? Well I personally say no, sex does not determine a person's sexuality nor their preferences in other people. It can persuade them but hey, if you, as a male, never have been intimate with a woman, even on just an emotional level, then how can you say with complete confidence that you are not "straight"? Unlike my friend, I have been intimate with women, emotionally, not physically and I can say that I'm not really a physical-seeking person. I can also say that as far as physical context and anatomical gender are concerned, I prefer men. I know this because when I engage in personal activities... without meaning to sound crude, I orgasm more completely when my mind, which is receiving physical and mental stimulation, places myself with another male. That is why I know I'm gay. Not because I ever needed someone else to confirm this with their body. Of course if you want to offer me your body and you are a man, more power to you! Hah, have to end on a brighter note.
Other positive things to note of late are:
-several video games I would like to purchase are receiving localizations in my country soon
-thanks to the dunce's meddling, I did meet a new person to talk to who I do like, and that is all (for now)
-I found a diet soda that I actually like to drink; thing is, I abhor Splenda because for me, it gives me this really unsettling aftertaste whenever I consume something it's in; the soda I discovered now uses "good ol'" aspartame as one of its components
-I finally got around to finishing a full playthrough of Magna Carta 2; its a good game, despite its flaws I find a number of things I liked in it (voice acting was also loaded with big names in the US department)
I'll be seeing you, anonymous reader.
Tuesday, February 19, 2013
In which I offer rebuttal to various (but valid) criticisms on FE13
Fire Emblem: Awakening is the latest entry in the Fire Emblem franchise, as many people likely have heard of by now. Heck, it's one of the few Fire Emblem titles to receive televised commercial advertisements in America (a very rare phenomena for non SquareEnix RPGs, in comparison to the genre in general). So, I was reading a more-or-less rant by some tool who was displeased with the game, so much as to label the game bad. But, how bad is or isn't it? With only my general knowledge of the game, I will offer counterpoints on all of their incessant whining.
(any spoiler-ish content will be omitted as much as possible)
1. "The story. ... The charming simplicity of past games' stories has been replaced by a wonky Sci-Fi/fantasy hybrid that aims for epic and ends up cluttered, confused, and strangely uninteresting."
If one reads the articles pertaining to the game developers' thoughts and original drafts for this entry, this is actually what we nearly ended up with -- "Fire Emblem IN SPACE!". Obviously IS wanted a new spin on their old formula and they went with it which is why you'll find elements of science-fiction in the plot of FE13. If this really unnerves you, play Radiant Dawn and tell me which game feels more "confused and uninteresting". Also, does the fanbase really want a title that ONCE AGAIN deals strictly with political conflicts that only stem from social hiccups? Oh yes, Awakening has that but at least they're daring enough to add more, which seems to one as me as the entire focal point of this title--it's Fire Emblem... and more.
--their second complaint was entirely a spoiler element, skipping--
3. "Support conversations. ... While there's plenty of character development, the characterization is never particularly good. There's a more nuanced conversation to be had here, but a quick example should explain what I mean: compare Erk, from FE7, to Ricken. Erk is a young mage like Ricken, but also ambitious and fiercely intelligent, often to a fault; he's got a quick wit, a sharp tongue, and a short temper. He's bad with women. Despite his cool outer appearance, he fatigues easily and obsesses over his master. He feels like a believable and complex human being despite his limited screen time. Ricken feels like a generic anime stereotype with a bit of backstory."
The fault here is the characterization is entirely the choice of the original developers who are based in Japan and thus, cater essentially to themes of escapism that appeal to the audience in the east. A lot of the so-called personality the plaintiff claims to be present in Erk (who btw is only 15 years old and sounds like he has the persona of a 25 year old easily) is entirely the result of the localization team grasping at straws. In the case of FE13, the characters ARE anime stereotypes and whether or not one can feel endeared by this is solely up to the player's discretion. Personally, Erk is way too developed for an individual who hasn't even finished puberty--and there is beauty to be found in simplicity. If you want a believable ~13 year old boy, who actually shows profound maturity (if still naivety) at occasional moments (especially his introductory chapter), Ricken is your man. You will also find a few characters who were polished up a little for the western audience though; Olivia can be a bit too "soft" in the source material (intentional, her trope is "moe") and clearly shows a more proactive mindset in her support conversations with the Avatar/My Unit.
4. "Balance. Or more specifically, the lack of balance. Nosferatu is broken. MU is broken. Frederick is broken. SpotPass content, DLC, and Renown items can trivialize any difficulty mode. You can elect not to take advantage of this imbalance, as I've tried to do recently, but this leads to two sub-problems..."
4a. "Children characters. The children acquire the growths and skills of their parents, making them exceptionally good units. To compensate, they're hidden in difficulty-curve-botching Paralogue maps, which means recruiting most of them on any mode above Normal a practical impossibility. When a typical non-grinding run sees only one or two children characters recruited, you know you've implemented a feature poorly."
4b. "Challenge runs. I remained optimistic as long as I could, but this Lunatic run I've been trying out proves that the game is not designed around challenge runs. If you don't take advantage of broken options, you're left with an under-leveled and outmatched team that demands favorable RNG rolls on the later maps. This leads to an infuriating paradox: the higher difficulties can't be reasonably completed without broken options, but broken options (unsurprisingly) break the game completely. It is impossible to enjoy Lunatic for this reason, and cripples the game's replay ability."
Nosferatu has been nerfed from its first iterations in Western Fire Emblems to half-drain efficacy (originally was 1:1 damage to recovery ratio). The Avatar is hardly broken. Remove Veteran (possible as soon as the preparation menu shows up) and the Avatar levels at the same speed as every other unit. Remove Ignis and the Avatar's damage output goes from above average to below average as their strength and magic will always fall below more specialized classes. Don't want to reclass a bazillion times? Then don't. Frederick is entirely fair for difficulties above Normal and his internal level for starting promoted, in tandem with his crap bases is enough to hurt his longevity (while ensuring you don't explode in one turn on Lunatic/L+). Children paralogues are all optional and the reward of very potent characters certainly justifies the means. I wonder if the plaintiff understands the definition of the word "Lunatic". And are they perhaps aware that most of the development team do not personally advocate playing Lunatic (heck, one man found Hard too challenging for his self)? Lunatic is meant for the ultimate challenge and there are plenty of people who will enjoy it because it forces them to plan their moves many turns in advance (plenty of people love chess, this is a fact).
--their fifth complaint was further rants of "Lunatic+ is unfair!" and thus, skipping--
6. "Inconsistent tone. In places, this is a very dark game. People kill themselves. Thousands are lost in war. The game takes place on the backdrop of past cruelty and oppression. The future is condemned to death and fire. Yet there's plenty of goofy romance, fourth-wall breaking, fanservice, swimsuit scenes, and even awkward slapstick to take whatever serious tone exists and undermine it completely."
"A spoonful of sugar makes the medicine go down." This is clearly a sentiment the game presents to help keep its audience invested in "the very dark game," its developers created. If one has an honest problem with this, then maybe you should murder every light-hearted individual on the planet. Then you can have your constant grim-dark plots 24/7.
7. "Lacking map design. The open maps are devoid of interesting design, made worse by the lack of meaningful secondary objectives. The Paralogues are better, but still a mixed bag. Nothing says "bleh" like an escort mission with high-level, same-turn reinforcements. The map locations are nicely varied (mountains, plains, waterfalls, giant trees, even a dragon's back), but the design beneath the aesthetic is drab and samey. Awakening really could have used the multiple mission objectives of games like FE5 and FE7."
I do not completely disagree with this. But it would have likely been more trouble than it was worth to implement. They have to cut corners in places to compete with the speed of other games' developments nowadays and so I find the "lack" of variety here as moot since everything else in the game screams, "OMG! Choices!". Reclassing, children, scathes of supports returning to the beloved formula of FE6~9. Honestly I think some people are nigh impossible to please.
Well, that's how I feel. The plaintiff isn't truly wrong, nor without sympathies. But my god, they have a lot of free time to have typed all that spazz. Some people, I tell ya, too much free time!! Lol.
Ciao~.
(any spoiler-ish content will be omitted as much as possible)
1. "The story. ... The charming simplicity of past games' stories has been replaced by a wonky Sci-Fi/fantasy hybrid that aims for epic and ends up cluttered, confused, and strangely uninteresting."
If one reads the articles pertaining to the game developers' thoughts and original drafts for this entry, this is actually what we nearly ended up with -- "Fire Emblem IN SPACE!". Obviously IS wanted a new spin on their old formula and they went with it which is why you'll find elements of science-fiction in the plot of FE13. If this really unnerves you, play Radiant Dawn and tell me which game feels more "confused and uninteresting". Also, does the fanbase really want a title that ONCE AGAIN deals strictly with political conflicts that only stem from social hiccups? Oh yes, Awakening has that but at least they're daring enough to add more, which seems to one as me as the entire focal point of this title--it's Fire Emblem... and more.
--their second complaint was entirely a spoiler element, skipping--
3. "Support conversations. ... While there's plenty of character development, the characterization is never particularly good. There's a more nuanced conversation to be had here, but a quick example should explain what I mean: compare Erk, from FE7, to Ricken. Erk is a young mage like Ricken, but also ambitious and fiercely intelligent, often to a fault; he's got a quick wit, a sharp tongue, and a short temper. He's bad with women. Despite his cool outer appearance, he fatigues easily and obsesses over his master. He feels like a believable and complex human being despite his limited screen time. Ricken feels like a generic anime stereotype with a bit of backstory."
The fault here is the characterization is entirely the choice of the original developers who are based in Japan and thus, cater essentially to themes of escapism that appeal to the audience in the east. A lot of the so-called personality the plaintiff claims to be present in Erk (who btw is only 15 years old and sounds like he has the persona of a 25 year old easily) is entirely the result of the localization team grasping at straws. In the case of FE13, the characters ARE anime stereotypes and whether or not one can feel endeared by this is solely up to the player's discretion. Personally, Erk is way too developed for an individual who hasn't even finished puberty--and there is beauty to be found in simplicity. If you want a believable ~13 year old boy, who actually shows profound maturity (if still naivety) at occasional moments (especially his introductory chapter), Ricken is your man. You will also find a few characters who were polished up a little for the western audience though; Olivia can be a bit too "soft" in the source material (intentional, her trope is "moe") and clearly shows a more proactive mindset in her support conversations with the Avatar/My Unit.
4. "Balance. Or more specifically, the lack of balance. Nosferatu is broken. MU is broken. Frederick is broken. SpotPass content, DLC, and Renown items can trivialize any difficulty mode. You can elect not to take advantage of this imbalance, as I've tried to do recently, but this leads to two sub-problems..."
4a. "Children characters. The children acquire the growths and skills of their parents, making them exceptionally good units. To compensate, they're hidden in difficulty-curve-botching Paralogue maps, which means recruiting most of them on any mode above Normal a practical impossibility. When a typical non-grinding run sees only one or two children characters recruited, you know you've implemented a feature poorly."
4b. "Challenge runs. I remained optimistic as long as I could, but this Lunatic run I've been trying out proves that the game is not designed around challenge runs. If you don't take advantage of broken options, you're left with an under-leveled and outmatched team that demands favorable RNG rolls on the later maps. This leads to an infuriating paradox: the higher difficulties can't be reasonably completed without broken options, but broken options (unsurprisingly) break the game completely. It is impossible to enjoy Lunatic for this reason, and cripples the game's replay ability."
Nosferatu has been nerfed from its first iterations in Western Fire Emblems to half-drain efficacy (originally was 1:1 damage to recovery ratio). The Avatar is hardly broken. Remove Veteran (possible as soon as the preparation menu shows up) and the Avatar levels at the same speed as every other unit. Remove Ignis and the Avatar's damage output goes from above average to below average as their strength and magic will always fall below more specialized classes. Don't want to reclass a bazillion times? Then don't. Frederick is entirely fair for difficulties above Normal and his internal level for starting promoted, in tandem with his crap bases is enough to hurt his longevity (while ensuring you don't explode in one turn on Lunatic/L+). Children paralogues are all optional and the reward of very potent characters certainly justifies the means. I wonder if the plaintiff understands the definition of the word "Lunatic". And are they perhaps aware that most of the development team do not personally advocate playing Lunatic (heck, one man found Hard too challenging for his self)? Lunatic is meant for the ultimate challenge and there are plenty of people who will enjoy it because it forces them to plan their moves many turns in advance (plenty of people love chess, this is a fact).
--their fifth complaint was further rants of "Lunatic+ is unfair!" and thus, skipping--
6. "Inconsistent tone. In places, this is a very dark game. People kill themselves. Thousands are lost in war. The game takes place on the backdrop of past cruelty and oppression. The future is condemned to death and fire. Yet there's plenty of goofy romance, fourth-wall breaking, fanservice, swimsuit scenes, and even awkward slapstick to take whatever serious tone exists and undermine it completely."
"A spoonful of sugar makes the medicine go down." This is clearly a sentiment the game presents to help keep its audience invested in "the very dark game," its developers created. If one has an honest problem with this, then maybe you should murder every light-hearted individual on the planet. Then you can have your constant grim-dark plots 24/7.
7. "Lacking map design. The open maps are devoid of interesting design, made worse by the lack of meaningful secondary objectives. The Paralogues are better, but still a mixed bag. Nothing says "bleh" like an escort mission with high-level, same-turn reinforcements. The map locations are nicely varied (mountains, plains, waterfalls, giant trees, even a dragon's back), but the design beneath the aesthetic is drab and samey. Awakening really could have used the multiple mission objectives of games like FE5 and FE7."
I do not completely disagree with this. But it would have likely been more trouble than it was worth to implement. They have to cut corners in places to compete with the speed of other games' developments nowadays and so I find the "lack" of variety here as moot since everything else in the game screams, "OMG! Choices!". Reclassing, children, scathes of supports returning to the beloved formula of FE6~9. Honestly I think some people are nigh impossible to please.
Well, that's how I feel. The plaintiff isn't truly wrong, nor without sympathies. But my god, they have a lot of free time to have typed all that spazz. Some people, I tell ya, too much free time!! Lol.
Ciao~.
List of Current Peeves
Things about myself:
-I care way more than I should
-I really need to lose weight
-well, I don't like the way I look and it mostly coincides with--I need to lose weight
-I'm way too shy, and as a result, awkward
-I'm way too honest, and apparently can come off as a "creep" to some people
Things about other people:
-misogynists
-my mother's air-headedness
-my mother and grandfather's doormat-like behavior in regards to their peers
-my mother needs to tell ____ to get the hell out of her house so she CAN LIVE IN HER LEGALLY OWNED PROPERTY (no hate to ____, it's just the principal of the matter)
-my grandfather needs to tell people off when they say dumb/rude things instead of constantly confiding/taking out his hatred on me
-people that think average = undesirable
-promiscuity (I mean MY GOD, reading someone say they'd do their best friend if said friend swings their way is just SCARY)
-prudes (ok, so I want to be able to talk about sex openly)
-people who don't talk much (re: people who give too many single-word responses or take incessantly long to reply)
-people who say they "can't live" because "so and so..."
-anyone who gives me orders or tells me what to do in a commanding/demanding manner
-also, people who don't shut up (re: asking me "what are you up to?" 3 times in 3.5 hours is A BIT INVASIVE)
some of those I've likely shared already, and I don't care, they still annoy me, hah!
take care, randoms~
-I care way more than I should
-I really need to lose weight
-well, I don't like the way I look and it mostly coincides with--I need to lose weight
-I'm way too shy, and as a result, awkward
-I'm way too honest, and apparently can come off as a "creep" to some people
Things about other people:
-misogynists
-my mother's air-headedness
-my mother and grandfather's doormat-like behavior in regards to their peers
-my mother needs to tell ____ to get the hell out of her house so she CAN LIVE IN HER LEGALLY OWNED PROPERTY (no hate to ____, it's just the principal of the matter)
-my grandfather needs to tell people off when they say dumb/rude things instead of constantly confiding/taking out his hatred on me
-people that think average = undesirable
-promiscuity (I mean MY GOD, reading someone say they'd do their best friend if said friend swings their way is just SCARY)
-prudes (ok, so I want to be able to talk about sex openly)
-people who don't talk much (re: people who give too many single-word responses or take incessantly long to reply)
-people who say they "can't live" because "so and so..."
-anyone who gives me orders or tells me what to do in a commanding/demanding manner
-also, people who don't shut up (re: asking me "what are you up to?" 3 times in 3.5 hours is A BIT INVASIVE)
some of those I've likely shared already, and I don't care, they still annoy me, hah!
take care, randoms~
Monday, February 4, 2013
Words
They say actions speak louder than them; but what if you can't see the person's actions? Aren't those actions then rendered useless? And what about our thoughts? A lot of people think in words. No, not everyone but anyone who's ever read a book will in turn have been affected by words alone. Especially any book with no illustrations.
Lately I've been thinking about... well, let's not mince words here. Casey. ♥ Oh... lol. It's weird I guess. I mean, it's been 4 years since I last heard from him (or about that long). And still I miss him. I try to get over it. I try to welcome new people and possibilities, shifting as much energy and affection as I can to those things. But I still just want to see, well, talk with him again as the case may be. I never saw him directly. I found his Myspace page around the time the site was mostly dead anyway and I did try to contact him nonetheless. I'm *fairly* sure I got no reply. Oh well, that'd be too easy.
I guess I'm in love with him to a degree. I can go weeks without thinking much of him at all but he's always there. I guess I want someone that fits most of the things I liked about him--well, he was giving and open but never overtly so. We'd spend a lot of time spooning in cyberspace but we'd also talk just about our lives and the joy of being free to live together. It wasn't that we had any particular goals in anything, we just seemed more alive with one another. I don't know about you, whoever reads this, but that sounds like a rather positive thing to me.
I never really knew the him outside his words though as I more or less meant by "never saw". No real looks to go by. But I trusted him. I did get a glimpse of something physical and I'm fairly sure (though I don't have the image any longer--deleted for sanity's sake) that wasn't a lie. There'd be no point in that. Besides, I liked him too and though I mostly showed it by wanting to spend an hour or so with intimate exchange, I was pretty honest with him. It was my own fault for mistaking such displays as genuine attraction from people though. It led to our falling out if you want to call it. But we were able to talk a little after it and mostly I was just elated to have time with him again, though that turned out brief.
He was sensitive in some regards, kinda enjoyed humor, and needed me to a degree. I like those things in people... I don't like feeling unneeded or without being able to laugh. As it turns out I apparently laugh easily when I'm amused/feeling happy in general. It might be that since I cry easily, I also laugh easily? Not unsurprising, I suppose. I may just feel a bit lackluster since he felt he could leave so easily. It's positive I was able to show him that he could be loved (his words mostly) but I can't help but wish he was still around.
I think I'm able to love most people. Or, that I simply try to really know and appreciate people just for being there. Just for their words, as it appears. Oh sure, I could probably find some things to not like about him. I just wasn't quite given that chance, lol. I guess it feels incomplete, so I'm still in love with him, at least a little. Sometimes more than a little. But, I will earnestly try, when it's more than a little, to remember to love whoever is trying to love me. At least, when they truly want to. I'm at least, not out of love just yet.
And one more thing... he never made me choose. Oh sure we both hadn't had sex before and I still haven't as of this entry. But that was a big thing. He let me do as I wanted. Hell, he encouraged me to be the assertive/aggressive partner and for that I was thrilled. Sure my text implied I would be open to taking turns with him, but he didn't need that. There are few things hotter than the person you love (y'know, not to leave out you boring straight folk) asking you to go inside them. Pfft, I don't care if I ever did get to penetrate him or not, I'd even be content with my fingers. And there I go... bad me.
Later, randoms.
Lately I've been thinking about... well, let's not mince words here. Casey. ♥ Oh... lol. It's weird I guess. I mean, it's been 4 years since I last heard from him (or about that long). And still I miss him. I try to get over it. I try to welcome new people and possibilities, shifting as much energy and affection as I can to those things. But I still just want to see, well, talk with him again as the case may be. I never saw him directly. I found his Myspace page around the time the site was mostly dead anyway and I did try to contact him nonetheless. I'm *fairly* sure I got no reply. Oh well, that'd be too easy.
I guess I'm in love with him to a degree. I can go weeks without thinking much of him at all but he's always there. I guess I want someone that fits most of the things I liked about him--well, he was giving and open but never overtly so. We'd spend a lot of time spooning in cyberspace but we'd also talk just about our lives and the joy of being free to live together. It wasn't that we had any particular goals in anything, we just seemed more alive with one another. I don't know about you, whoever reads this, but that sounds like a rather positive thing to me.
I never really knew the him outside his words though as I more or less meant by "never saw". No real looks to go by. But I trusted him. I did get a glimpse of something physical and I'm fairly sure (though I don't have the image any longer--deleted for sanity's sake) that wasn't a lie. There'd be no point in that. Besides, I liked him too and though I mostly showed it by wanting to spend an hour or so with intimate exchange, I was pretty honest with him. It was my own fault for mistaking such displays as genuine attraction from people though. It led to our falling out if you want to call it. But we were able to talk a little after it and mostly I was just elated to have time with him again, though that turned out brief.
He was sensitive in some regards, kinda enjoyed humor, and needed me to a degree. I like those things in people... I don't like feeling unneeded or without being able to laugh. As it turns out I apparently laugh easily when I'm amused/feeling happy in general. It might be that since I cry easily, I also laugh easily? Not unsurprising, I suppose. I may just feel a bit lackluster since he felt he could leave so easily. It's positive I was able to show him that he could be loved (his words mostly) but I can't help but wish he was still around.
I think I'm able to love most people. Or, that I simply try to really know and appreciate people just for being there. Just for their words, as it appears. Oh sure, I could probably find some things to not like about him. I just wasn't quite given that chance, lol. I guess it feels incomplete, so I'm still in love with him, at least a little. Sometimes more than a little. But, I will earnestly try, when it's more than a little, to remember to love whoever is trying to love me. At least, when they truly want to. I'm at least, not out of love just yet.
And one more thing... he never made me choose. Oh sure we both hadn't had sex before and I still haven't as of this entry. But that was a big thing. He let me do as I wanted. Hell, he encouraged me to be the assertive/aggressive partner and for that I was thrilled. Sure my text implied I would be open to taking turns with him, but he didn't need that. There are few things hotter than the person you love (y'know, not to leave out you boring straight folk) asking you to go inside them. Pfft, I don't care if I ever did get to penetrate him or not, I'd even be content with my fingers. And there I go... bad me.
Later, randoms.
Thursday, January 10, 2013
This Post is all about... S-E-X (part 1)
I was inspired to fill out my own "yes-no-maybe" list after the "true end" of a webcomic series I love dearly was presented today. It's going to be very detailed, so let it be know that YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED. Anyway, some preface notes:
1). I am a virgin, so all my answers will be as close as I can accurately give based solely on what I want/don't want.
2). In all questions referring to a partner, I will be under the assumption that my partner is either:
A - a homosexual and biological male
or
B - a biological female who identifies as a homosexual male and prefers a homosexual male as his sex partner with the verbal agreement that no attention will be paid to the birth parts between his front legs
No offense to anyone, I just really don't feel comfortable thinking physical intimacy with women at all. And if it matters to anyone, I'd prefer my partner be no more than 4 years younger or 12 years older than me, regardless of how old I end up before truly having intercourse on a semi-regular basis.
All answers are for me, mind you. So, let it begin!
Body Boundaries
Q - Having a partner touch me affectionately without asking first
A - yes
Q - Touching a partner affectionately without asking first
A - yes; sometimes at least
Q - Having a partner touch me sexually without asking first
A - maybe; moreso if we already have had sex once already
Q - Touching a partner sexually without asking first
A - maybe; but I'd prefer to ask first, usually
Q - Having a partner touch me affectionately in public
A - yes (please)
Q - Touching a partner affectionately in public
A - yes; if they tell me so
Q - Having a partner touch me sexually in public
A - maybe; probably yes, though I hope its at least semi-discreet
Q - Touching a partner sexually in public
A - maybe; if they ask me to or heavily hint at it?
Q - Having my shirt/top off with a partner
Having a partner's shirt/top off
Having my pants/bottoms off with a partner
Having a partner's pants/bottoms off
A - yes to all
Q - Being completely naked with a partner with the lights off or low
Having a partner be completely naked with the lights off or low
Having a partner be completely naked with the lights on
A - yes to these, but...
Q - Being completely naked with a partner with the lights on
A - maybe~leaning no on this one
Q - Direct eye contact
A - yes; unless they tell me of a personal problem w/ it
Q - Being looked at directly, overall, when I am naked
A - maybe; I'm shy about my body
Q - Grooming or toileting in front of a partner
A - maybe; if they say they're ok w/ it
Q - Having a partner groom/use the toilet in front of me
A - no thanks
Q - Having my genitals looked at directly
A - yes
Q - Having a partner talk about my body
A - maybe; if they feel like it, though I don't prefer it
Q - Talking about a partner's body
A - no; unless they ask me to
Q - Having some or all of a disability, identity or difference I have be specifically made part of sex, sexualized or objectified
Having some or all of a disability, identity or difference a partner has be specifically made part of sex,
sexualized or objectified
A - no to both
Q - Seeing or being exposed to other kinds of body fluids
(like semen, sweat or urine)
A - maybe; yes on semen and sweat; NO to the third one
Q - Shaving/trimming/removing my own pubic hair
A - yes
Q - Shaving/trimming/removing a partner's pubic hair
A - maybe; though I wouldn't ask to sit in on it but if they need my help, I guess
Some parts of my body are just off-limits. Those are: I don't think there are any. But I'm Very, VERY ticklish in most places. (Like, can't-stop-kicking level of ticklish).
I am not comfortable looking at, touching or feeling some parts of another person's body. Those are: I pretty much mentioned this in my intro~.
What helps me feel most comfortable being naked with someone? What are ways a partner does or may talk about my body make or could make me feel uncomfortable? What do I "count" as sexual touching and what do I consider affectionate touching?
Um, when you (my partner) talk about things you like about me besides my body, like while we're naked. And then between your points, kiss me in various places. Like, show that you notice things most people probably take for granted (it's the little things, people!). Basically I don't ever like my weight or size of things ever being talked about by other people asides myself. Period. So just avoid that and we're cool. I like when people appreciate my ideas and overall effort I put into things--recognize how passionate I am and I could hardly be happier! Sexual touching is basically any touch of my backside, privates or upper chest around the nipples and I don't prefer that unless you are really in the mood. I'm pretty much as turned on as my partner is or isn't at the time. Take that as you want~.
Words & Terms
I prefer the following gender/sexual identity or role words (like man, woman, boi, femme, butch, top, etc.) to be used for me: Man, Sir
I prefer my chest or breasts be referred to as: Chest (maybe "moobs", in jokes only)
I prefer my genitals to be referred to as: Penis/Cock/Stick
I prefer my sexual orientation and/or identity to be referred to as: Homo/Queer/"Nine-Tenths Gay"
Some words I am not okay with to refer to me, my identity, my body, or which I am uncomfortable using or hearing about, with or during any kind of sex are: Fag; being called a girl or having any part of my body called by a part normally belonging to females (i.e. "pussy", "breasts", etc.)
Are certain words okay in some settings or situations but not in others? How flexible am I with what a partner might want to call something I like calling something else?
I will be flexible depending on how long I've known you and we've talked. In short, expect me to be very inflexible for the first month or two of knowing you, even if we've started on sex by then. I hope that's reasonable.
Stay tuned when next I cover subjects such as: relationship models, safe sex and sexual responses~!
Lol, as if anyone really reads my blog seriously. See ya, weirdos! xD
1). I am a virgin, so all my answers will be as close as I can accurately give based solely on what I want/don't want.
2). In all questions referring to a partner, I will be under the assumption that my partner is either:
A - a homosexual and biological male
or
B - a biological female who identifies as a homosexual male and prefers a homosexual male as his sex partner with the verbal agreement that no attention will be paid to the birth parts between his front legs
No offense to anyone, I just really don't feel comfortable thinking physical intimacy with women at all. And if it matters to anyone, I'd prefer my partner be no more than 4 years younger or 12 years older than me, regardless of how old I end up before truly having intercourse on a semi-regular basis.
All answers are for me, mind you. So, let it begin!
Body Boundaries
Q - Having a partner touch me affectionately without asking first
A - yes
Q - Touching a partner affectionately without asking first
A - yes; sometimes at least
Q - Having a partner touch me sexually without asking first
A - maybe; moreso if we already have had sex once already
Q - Touching a partner sexually without asking first
A - maybe; but I'd prefer to ask first, usually
Q - Having a partner touch me affectionately in public
A - yes (please)
Q - Touching a partner affectionately in public
A - yes; if they tell me so
Q - Having a partner touch me sexually in public
A - maybe; probably yes, though I hope its at least semi-discreet
Q - Touching a partner sexually in public
A - maybe; if they ask me to or heavily hint at it?
Q - Having my shirt/top off with a partner
Having a partner's shirt/top off
Having my pants/bottoms off with a partner
Having a partner's pants/bottoms off
A - yes to all
Q - Being completely naked with a partner with the lights off or low
Having a partner be completely naked with the lights off or low
Having a partner be completely naked with the lights on
A - yes to these, but...
Q - Being completely naked with a partner with the lights on
A - maybe~leaning no on this one
Q - Direct eye contact
A - yes; unless they tell me of a personal problem w/ it
Q - Being looked at directly, overall, when I am naked
A - maybe; I'm shy about my body
Q - Grooming or toileting in front of a partner
A - maybe; if they say they're ok w/ it
Q - Having a partner groom/use the toilet in front of me
A - no thanks
Q - Having my genitals looked at directly
A - yes
Q - Having a partner talk about my body
A - maybe; if they feel like it, though I don't prefer it
Q - Talking about a partner's body
A - no; unless they ask me to
Q - Having some or all of a disability, identity or difference I have be specifically made part of sex, sexualized or objectified
Having some or all of a disability, identity or difference a partner has be specifically made part of sex,
sexualized or objectified
A - no to both
Q - Seeing or being exposed to other kinds of body fluids
(like semen, sweat or urine)
A - maybe; yes on semen and sweat; NO to the third one
Q - Shaving/trimming/removing my own pubic hair
A - yes
Q - Shaving/trimming/removing a partner's pubic hair
A - maybe; though I wouldn't ask to sit in on it but if they need my help, I guess
Some parts of my body are just off-limits. Those are: I don't think there are any. But I'm Very, VERY ticklish in most places. (Like, can't-stop-kicking level of ticklish).
I am not comfortable looking at, touching or feeling some parts of another person's body. Those are: I pretty much mentioned this in my intro~.
What helps me feel most comfortable being naked with someone? What are ways a partner does or may talk about my body make or could make me feel uncomfortable? What do I "count" as sexual touching and what do I consider affectionate touching?
Um, when you (my partner) talk about things you like about me besides my body, like while we're naked. And then between your points, kiss me in various places. Like, show that you notice things most people probably take for granted (it's the little things, people!). Basically I don't ever like my weight or size of things ever being talked about by other people asides myself. Period. So just avoid that and we're cool. I like when people appreciate my ideas and overall effort I put into things--recognize how passionate I am and I could hardly be happier! Sexual touching is basically any touch of my backside, privates or upper chest around the nipples and I don't prefer that unless you are really in the mood. I'm pretty much as turned on as my partner is or isn't at the time. Take that as you want~.
Words & Terms
I prefer the following gender/sexual identity or role words (like man, woman, boi, femme, butch, top, etc.) to be used for me: Man, Sir
I prefer my chest or breasts be referred to as: Chest (maybe "moobs", in jokes only)
I prefer my genitals to be referred to as: Penis/Cock/Stick
I prefer my sexual orientation and/or identity to be referred to as: Homo/Queer/"Nine-Tenths Gay"
Some words I am not okay with to refer to me, my identity, my body, or which I am uncomfortable using or hearing about, with or during any kind of sex are: Fag; being called a girl or having any part of my body called by a part normally belonging to females (i.e. "pussy", "breasts", etc.)
Are certain words okay in some settings or situations but not in others? How flexible am I with what a partner might want to call something I like calling something else?
I will be flexible depending on how long I've known you and we've talked. In short, expect me to be very inflexible for the first month or two of knowing you, even if we've started on sex by then. I hope that's reasonable.
Stay tuned when next I cover subjects such as: relationship models, safe sex and sexual responses~!
Lol, as if anyone really reads my blog seriously. See ya, weirdos! xD
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