Punny title has puns. But it is fitting. Sort of. My thoughts are rarely that organized anyway. It should be obvious since most of this blog (collectively, not this post alone) is ranting and raving. Indubitably.
So for those who may be unaware, (okay, that is likely a vast majority of the world but the small collective of people who've read this blog are likely more aware) my Myers-Briggs personality typology classifies me as INFJ (the J portion is so gray that INFP also fits me just as much). That is to say...
I am introverted, meaning I am usually more interested in ideas than on what's going on around me ("I"). I learn in a more abstract manner than from concrete facts ("N"). I make decisions based on how I believe myself and others are affected personally rather than being supported by impersonal cause and effect ("F"). And I very slightly prefer order and planning when it comes to others than I do leaving things to spontaneity ("J"). (That last bit is undoubtedly true, especially when it comes to other people making decisions for me--which I truly loathe, I wish to be consulted with due notice on most accounts unless it is utterly urgent, like life-or-death).
The fact I am introverted does alienate me a lot in regards to my grandfather, who constantly expresses his want for me to "get out and socialize" which is just something that never was my interest. Honestly, I prefer to sit, indoors, reading most of the day, sometimes talking with friends and that is about it... it's enough to offer me a small degree of contentedness. Yet this is so foreign to him that he always berates me for my lack of desire to do much and often threatens to cut me off from doing so just to coerce me into seeking alternative outlets. I AM NOT YOU! (to grandfather) I don't like talking to every random person I happen to know when passing them in public, the way you do. I don't enjoy "get togethers", and I do not enjoy divulging my private life to anyone other than me and the persons involved. (this is a reference to his past history of eavesdropping on my phone conversations, even those with my mother, no less) I am not attending counseling to "change my ways", it's so someone can listen to me in the way you seem entirely incapable of doing. Unbiased, yet willing out of concern. Honest and fair if they need to be, never forceful. It's no wonder I find most aggression such a turn off because you yell at me so easily for the most minor of grievances. I don't hate you, but you make it very difficult for me to live in happiness to the point I can barely go through a holiday without crying over your STUPID, ASININE STUBBORNNESS.
... I really needed to vent that, my apologies to the readers.
A fair portion of my friends are introverted but it is not necessarily a precursor for my basis of relationships. Of the three people I have (up to the present) felt intimately attached to and wanted in a complete sense, the first was introverted, the second was borderline (more extroverted than me but similar in other aspects) and the third, current one is probably extroverted (he seems so). And I am fine with that. Because, in the present and any future case, I will do everything to make my partner feel like they are the most important thing in the world. I may not hit one over the head with it, (it's okay if we don't talk every day) but it is my desire. To me, they are (excluding my own life, not me personally, but I will not die for anyone, in simple words). I am able to exert a degree of dominance when I deem it necessary but honestly, as long as you don't give in to promiscuity nor do anything to harm yourself or others, you can do pretty much anything you would want in a relationship with me. Because I value freedom, especially emotional freedoms. To feel like your heart is free, to grow and continuously give love where it's due is really one of the few ideals that keeps me sane and mildly optimistic. I would like to think that's something my boyfriend likes about me, since he's said he does feel like I truly care about him (which is one of the best compliments one can receive, in my opinion). Yes.
SH2
Thursday, December 26, 2013
Thursday, October 24, 2013
Bored Now...
Yeah, really...
+2 respect points if you realized this post's title is a quote and +3 more if you correctly guess what it's from.
It's sorta half-true, though. Jerod returned to speak with me again. My inner reaction to this can be summarized as follows: "F*king Yes! YES!!!" Pretty much.
It was hard because I went well over a month without hearing from him and I just... love him so much. I tend to jinx myself everytime I say that about someone but each time I meant it, so ya know what? I don't care!
He's doing better it seems, he has a job. So, I'm happy about that. I should think about either applying more or *shudder* driving. It's hard to get behind the idea of the latter. Had a few close calls early on when I was riding with my mom early on in life, but nothing too serious, I think. I only vaguely remember the events anyway. It just bores me so (driving). I'm not much of an outgoing sort as well. But I would go most anywhere with Jerod. I want to spend as much time as I can in his company when I have the chances. ^^
So I know I mainly want to drive uh, in case of real emergency and to see him sooner. Despite that, I have limited income for now so that's a less tempting option. Work's always been slack in my immediate area, too. Hmm, well maybe I'll just keep an extra eye out for openings (mostly small store positions if anything).
I should preface that I don't like going out by myself. It really depends on who is with me (solo, yeah probably not going to anything). I enjoy being with friends but I haven't had many, even fewer that lived in my neighborhood. I try to reach out online though.
I saw this posted on someone's tumblr, but let's be real here.
Hmm, I think this is all I wish to say for now~.
+2 respect points if you realized this post's title is a quote and +3 more if you correctly guess what it's from.
It's sorta half-true, though. Jerod returned to speak with me again. My inner reaction to this can be summarized as follows: "F*king Yes! YES!!!" Pretty much.
It was hard because I went well over a month without hearing from him and I just... love him so much. I tend to jinx myself everytime I say that about someone but each time I meant it, so ya know what? I don't care!
He's doing better it seems, he has a job. So, I'm happy about that. I should think about either applying more or *shudder* driving. It's hard to get behind the idea of the latter. Had a few close calls early on when I was riding with my mom early on in life, but nothing too serious, I think. I only vaguely remember the events anyway. It just bores me so (driving). I'm not much of an outgoing sort as well. But I would go most anywhere with Jerod. I want to spend as much time as I can in his company when I have the chances. ^^
So I know I mainly want to drive uh, in case of real emergency and to see him sooner. Despite that, I have limited income for now so that's a less tempting option. Work's always been slack in my immediate area, too. Hmm, well maybe I'll just keep an extra eye out for openings (mostly small store positions if anything).
I should preface that I don't like going out by myself. It really depends on who is with me (solo, yeah probably not going to anything). I enjoy being with friends but I haven't had many, even fewer that lived in my neighborhood. I try to reach out online though.
I saw this posted on someone's tumblr, but let's be real here.
what girls think guys do at sleepovers:(what kinda guys are these? only the last one is even remotely realistic, ho!)
what guys really do at sleepovers:
- play xbox
- rate girls at their school
- smoke weed
- gay sex
- anal fisting
- make out sessions
what RB does at sleepovers:
- play xbox (or whatever videogames are available)
- gaze longingly at the boyfriend and more or less cuddle him into a coma ('cause no way I'm going to any sleepover otherwise)
- eat everyone's leftovers lest its things I don't like (lol, my childhood and early teens right there)
Hmm, I think this is all I wish to say for now~.
Thursday, September 26, 2013
I Answer Some Questions; and stuff~
Have to say, I always love answering questions. Well, particularly personal questions that don't offend me (most don't). And so I will. All of these particular ones are from Tab Kimpton's kickstarter project which ultimately will lead him to continuing the story of his popular(?) webcomic: Khaos. It's pretty good; centers around teenage/young adult gay, trans and people in general. 'Course they could all be straight and it'd hardly change anything, just how things turn out because you can't really change their personality and history without drastically altering the series as it is. Pretty much though, most of the characters aren't that... outspoken except perhaps Tom (who's honestly a jerk but frequently made aware of it, lol).
I haven't heard from Jer still; I do hope he's okay and I'm wondering--if he is around, why isn't he trying to really talk to me? Did I do something wrong? I don't have any reason to hate him, even if (heaven forbid) he was disloyal to me, so what? That doesn't mean I love him any less. I'm pretty much at the point where... yeah, if I'm sorta going with someone and they cheat on me, I'll hardly care. I'll be disappointed but so what? As long as I never hurt them, I don't really see why they should turn from me. What hurts is simply not knowing... not hearing from a person you're genuinely happy to be around. It's like a hug with no squeeze, a sandwich with no cheese, it's just... empty. I wish he would even try to call me or something... his voice was really nice, judging by what little I've heard of it, at least.
So anywhose... questionnes!
Are catboys hot? Y/N?
Who do you think you're talking to? Of course they are; cats are pretty cool irl and so men acting like cats--always rather adorable. Give or take some habits. I generally prefer them over catgirls just because catgirls tend to be done to death. But what bothers me are when people who really don't suit them play them anyway. Some people just suit other animals more and there's nothing more grating than pretending to be what you're not.
Food sex? Y/N?
Okay, it depends on what it is. Like pizza toppings, you could work them into foreplay. So my answer is, uh, sure--as long as I can clean up in between. And naturally he and I would need to pre-approve whatever's involved. (Never spring this on me or I will be livid).
What's the coolest outfit you imagine your favorite original character in? (this was limited to Khaos by the ask-er but I thought to expand it for my own sanity; all Khaos characters belong to Tab anyway)
This one will be a while... *now calculating... now calculating...*
Well I'll go with the OC closest to me (Ran) even though I don't truly treat them as a self-insert (even then, I pretty much pick at all my flaws regularly with them) soo... typically a Beret (the hat), some type of vest or sweater, simple pants (possibly leather) and some black leather boots so polished they shine... lol. Idk, I like simple designs, call me strange! What would I call it? Um... its kind of a cross between formal wear and street gang. High class punk? No clue~.
Who's your favorite (fictional or not) friend(s)? Strictly platonic.
Well, that would have to be Alexander (even if he never reads this; also that is not his real name). In fact, we don't always agree on much. But he's always there to listen to me. I'll admit, it hurts sometimes when he just doesn't get my opinion on things. But unlike many people, (as very few fit this) he's there, a lot. That really is pretty important. And unlike a few others who come close, I don't have to hold anything back. (just being able to share everything is a great boon and I can't with everyone because of making people uncomfortable with certain truths and things I like)
Ever had a crush on a friend's sibling?
Well that depends on what you define as "friend". If acquaintance counts, yes, seeing as I spoke to my first boyfriend's sister a bit before he and I truly were dating for a bit. So, only technically. (since I was going with her brother and not opposed to her as a person)
If your characters were fruit, what would they be?
God I don't like fruit as much as vegetables (which I actually did make a comparison, months ago).
But I'll try... (only going to go with my most common ones)
Ran - pineapple; tall, rather mellow, very sweet, has a starkly misleading exterior (ironically, I personally loathe pineapples!)
Boh - blueberry; bit of an acquired taste and only really speaks [to me] when baked into a dessert which speaks of his personality -- it has to grow on you and you either like it or don't and despite his "raw taste", he can surprise you (like blueberry muffins)
Alexander - lime; he can come off sour, but he compliments those he associates well (just as limes mingle well in savory and sweet dishes with other ingredients), he would be missed if he left just as you might miss the lime if taken out of anything that typically calls for it
Jeauno - grape; kinda fragile and has been known to be overextended, but even so, she comes off friendly and good company when you're down (this is a wine metaphor)
Mica - pumpkin; cute, but unpredictable just as there are many shapes and sizes of the pumpkin; his true self is just as playful and wholesome as his outside; pumpkins also make great sweet dishes (and he likes to bake, how fitting~)
If someone gives you flowers, what kind would they be?
Oh, I would love hyacinth, because they have a mythological story behind their name that I like (the story). And they're purple! But any flower would be fine. ^^
What's the best tea you ever tasted?
That would be "none" because the taste of tea, and hot drinks in general, is not something I like much at all. I don't really like iced tea either.
Have you ever had the 'fireworks' feeling in romance novels of old?
Well, not quite. Close, probably. But I hope to, eventually.
If you had a biographical profile written on you, what would be your "likes and dislikes"? Up to three of each.
Likes: jRPGs, shades of purple, open communication
Dislikes: hot drinks, "kinks", competing
Given no money constraints and pain receptions, what body modification would you have done?
You want an honest answer? Possibly liposuction. But really, just get rid of half my body fat and fit my skin to match and I would be pretty darn content. I'm not into tattoos or piercings enough to seriously consider any for myself. : |
What's your least favorite body part?
Quick answer--genitals. Otherwise... I don't believe I have anything I dislike or as easily repulsed by (man or woman).
Do you prefer Summer or Winter, and why?
Winter. I hate being hot and its easier for me to compensate if I do feel too cold. And its a much better time for cuddling... which I want~.
What's the sexiest national clothing to you?
Clothes... this is a hard question because I don't have much of an interest in fashion. I just don't care, truly.
What's the best present you ever received?
Computers are pretty darn important, so I'll say those, even if only my grandfather gave me the majority of presents I ever received.
Favorite sport? How about your least favorite?
I like to watch tennis a lot actually (not that I often do though). I really don't care for football or wrestling though. It's hard to think of which I dislike more.
Can you chill in just your underwear, even around other people?
Easily actually, I do so a lot. But I dress in a bit more around less personal company (usually I'm left to myself on most days and I've answered the door in just boxers before, I don't do this intentionally though, it depends how harried I am). I dislike being totally bare though.
What's your favorite color of underwear?
I don't have one. Not fond of most reds and pink though.
What's the nicest place for hair to be on the body?
Not counting the head? Eh, I don't really care as long as its not too thick (not fond of beards or shag in general)
Do you have an inner-self that says all the horrible/perverted things you can't?
I would say no; I'm pretty much the same offline as I type hear. I just won't talk that much unless I choose to/feel up to it. I can be as honest as I need to be and generally speaking, I'm not that perverted, not compared to many other people I'm aware of.
Bye for now, people!
I haven't heard from Jer still; I do hope he's okay and I'm wondering--if he is around, why isn't he trying to really talk to me? Did I do something wrong? I don't have any reason to hate him, even if (heaven forbid) he was disloyal to me, so what? That doesn't mean I love him any less. I'm pretty much at the point where... yeah, if I'm sorta going with someone and they cheat on me, I'll hardly care. I'll be disappointed but so what? As long as I never hurt them, I don't really see why they should turn from me. What hurts is simply not knowing... not hearing from a person you're genuinely happy to be around. It's like a hug with no squeeze, a sandwich with no cheese, it's just... empty. I wish he would even try to call me or something... his voice was really nice, judging by what little I've heard of it, at least.
So anywhose... questionnes!
Are catboys hot? Y/N?
Who do you think you're talking to? Of course they are; cats are pretty cool irl and so men acting like cats--always rather adorable. Give or take some habits. I generally prefer them over catgirls just because catgirls tend to be done to death. But what bothers me are when people who really don't suit them play them anyway. Some people just suit other animals more and there's nothing more grating than pretending to be what you're not.
Food sex? Y/N?
Okay, it depends on what it is. Like pizza toppings, you could work them into foreplay. So my answer is, uh, sure--as long as I can clean up in between. And naturally he and I would need to pre-approve whatever's involved. (Never spring this on me or I will be livid).
What's the coolest outfit you imagine your favorite original character in? (this was limited to Khaos by the ask-er but I thought to expand it for my own sanity; all Khaos characters belong to Tab anyway)
This one will be a while... *now calculating... now calculating...*
Well I'll go with the OC closest to me (Ran) even though I don't truly treat them as a self-insert (even then, I pretty much pick at all my flaws regularly with them) soo... typically a Beret (the hat), some type of vest or sweater, simple pants (possibly leather) and some black leather boots so polished they shine... lol. Idk, I like simple designs, call me strange! What would I call it? Um... its kind of a cross between formal wear and street gang. High class punk? No clue~.
Who's your favorite (fictional or not) friend(s)? Strictly platonic.
Well, that would have to be Alexander (even if he never reads this; also that is not his real name). In fact, we don't always agree on much. But he's always there to listen to me. I'll admit, it hurts sometimes when he just doesn't get my opinion on things. But unlike many people, (as very few fit this) he's there, a lot. That really is pretty important. And unlike a few others who come close, I don't have to hold anything back. (just being able to share everything is a great boon and I can't with everyone because of making people uncomfortable with certain truths and things I like)
Ever had a crush on a friend's sibling?
Well that depends on what you define as "friend". If acquaintance counts, yes, seeing as I spoke to my first boyfriend's sister a bit before he and I truly were dating for a bit. So, only technically. (since I was going with her brother and not opposed to her as a person)
If your characters were fruit, what would they be?
God I don't like fruit as much as vegetables (which I actually did make a comparison, months ago).
But I'll try... (only going to go with my most common ones)
Ran - pineapple; tall, rather mellow, very sweet, has a starkly misleading exterior (ironically, I personally loathe pineapples!)
Boh - blueberry; bit of an acquired taste and only really speaks [to me] when baked into a dessert which speaks of his personality -- it has to grow on you and you either like it or don't and despite his "raw taste", he can surprise you (like blueberry muffins)
Alexander - lime; he can come off sour, but he compliments those he associates well (just as limes mingle well in savory and sweet dishes with other ingredients), he would be missed if he left just as you might miss the lime if taken out of anything that typically calls for it
Jeauno - grape; kinda fragile and has been known to be overextended, but even so, she comes off friendly and good company when you're down (this is a wine metaphor)
Mica - pumpkin; cute, but unpredictable just as there are many shapes and sizes of the pumpkin; his true self is just as playful and wholesome as his outside; pumpkins also make great sweet dishes (and he likes to bake, how fitting~)
If someone gives you flowers, what kind would they be?
Oh, I would love hyacinth, because they have a mythological story behind their name that I like (the story). And they're purple! But any flower would be fine. ^^
What's the best tea you ever tasted?
That would be "none" because the taste of tea, and hot drinks in general, is not something I like much at all. I don't really like iced tea either.
Have you ever had the 'fireworks' feeling in romance novels of old?
Well, not quite. Close, probably. But I hope to, eventually.
If you had a biographical profile written on you, what would be your "likes and dislikes"? Up to three of each.
Likes: jRPGs, shades of purple, open communication
Dislikes: hot drinks, "kinks", competing
Given no money constraints and pain receptions, what body modification would you have done?
You want an honest answer? Possibly liposuction. But really, just get rid of half my body fat and fit my skin to match and I would be pretty darn content. I'm not into tattoos or piercings enough to seriously consider any for myself. : |
What's your least favorite body part?
Quick answer--genitals. Otherwise... I don't believe I have anything I dislike or as easily repulsed by (man or woman).
Do you prefer Summer or Winter, and why?
Winter. I hate being hot and its easier for me to compensate if I do feel too cold. And its a much better time for cuddling... which I want~.
What's the sexiest national clothing to you?
Clothes... this is a hard question because I don't have much of an interest in fashion. I just don't care, truly.
What's the best present you ever received?
Computers are pretty darn important, so I'll say those, even if only my grandfather gave me the majority of presents I ever received.
Favorite sport? How about your least favorite?
I like to watch tennis a lot actually (not that I often do though). I really don't care for football or wrestling though. It's hard to think of which I dislike more.
Can you chill in just your underwear, even around other people?
Easily actually, I do so a lot. But I dress in a bit more around less personal company (usually I'm left to myself on most days and I've answered the door in just boxers before, I don't do this intentionally though, it depends how harried I am). I dislike being totally bare though.
What's your favorite color of underwear?
I don't have one. Not fond of most reds and pink though.
What's the nicest place for hair to be on the body?
Not counting the head? Eh, I don't really care as long as its not too thick (not fond of beards or shag in general)
Do you have an inner-self that says all the horrible/perverted things you can't?
I would say no; I'm pretty much the same offline as I type hear. I just won't talk that much unless I choose to/feel up to it. I can be as honest as I need to be and generally speaking, I'm not that perverted, not compared to many other people I'm aware of.
Bye for now, people!
Thursday, September 12, 2013
Saccharine-Induced Headache
Maybe. It really hurts... okay its not the worst I've had but it won't... bloody... go... away; AAAAAGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Dammit I miss Jerod, like I miss him so much I wonder if that's part of why my head hurts. Possibly. The past few nights its hard to think of anything else because um, well I haven't heard from him in roughly 3 weeks now. Idk, it feels like ages. Y'know, when you get used to a daily habit and it just goes *poof*. No wonder people get so hooked on drugs, sort of. On one hand, I'm kind of glad he's not coming on to me right now... I am in no position to refuse, well, at least if the pain stops entirely first. And of course I'm not really looking for any replacements either... I can hold out a while for people, its one of my better qualities, I am patient. I also am a big procrastinator anyway, kinda need to be patient... with myself, lol.
I think I am way overstressed for a person who actually does so little. You could say its the fervor and depth of what little I do that is so draining on my physique and psyche that yeah, I do tire easily for a person not doing much. I have some stamina but boy does it get wracked on a daily basis. The emotional torment I have to endure every damn time my grandfather talks about my weight and appearance with utterly no tact, it could break a lesser man. I don't hate him, I hate how he chooses to express himself with such crass and biggotry. And do not talk to me about his personal health which seems to be failing him lately. Pot calling kettles black is what he's amounting to, pretty much.
It's not even him that's the sole cause of my stress. I was utterly livid when I read a comment on the aesthetic design of a fictional character where some Imbecile called out a character on having "nigger lips" (direct quote) and that being unappealing to that commentator. Oh my loving God, someone, SMITE this person. Please? Pretty please? I would be eternally grateful. You don't say such stupid things, AAAAAGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! *headdesk*
Small update: pain's a little less significant at the moment, venting might be helping pass the time of recovery.
In other news, I am having way too much enjoyment picking up Exit Fate and raising most of the army's levels to obscene numbers. I don't think you can feasibly hit lv99 without excessive grinding (to the simple point of tedious) but dang if it isn't fun getting everyone up to 85+ (which is all you need to finish everything including the completely optional content). I really like running theme parties based on the relation boosts (which is why Daniel works so well with Jovian and Angel) but its hard to get a diverse party with significant boosts as many mages favor other mages and you really don't need more than two (or one if their really solid like Midian, Myst or Mai) dedicated spell-slingers on your team; and warriors tend to enjoy each others' company; that said, a Matrech-themed group of Erin, Jasper, Carson, Merrick, Charles Ryan and Beau is very sound and balanced even if its hard to determine who to place up front with Erin (probably Merrick, second best physical defense of them which is all that matters for people in the vanguard). I wish the game had a few more female characters though, I don't like the ratio even if people are namby-pamby about women in combat, hey their are plenty of women in the armed forces nowdays, you're allowed to cast them in fictional combat, too! Stupid sexist imbeciles. Every straight male is such a spineless scrod around the concept of female dominance, and people wonder why I prefer homo/bisexual friends to converse with. They aren't following all your nonsensical rules. Rules that prevent people that love each other from being treated as humanely and justly (as in, with equal rights and privileges) as everyone else ARE ASININE. Now I don't mean you should be allowed to marry any little thing, but two consenting adults should be entitled as long as they are clearly in sound mind and intent.
Oh, right. IF you like a man or woman, then it does not matter what's going on downstairs. You either like men, women, both, or none at all. It's that simple. TRANS MEN ARE MEN. TRANS WOMEN ARE WOMEN. Never think you are suddenly straight, bi or pan because you, a primarily gay male, thought a trans man was hot. He's a MAN you IMBECILE! (obviously this was bugging me a lot because some loser dared suggest they were anything but gay when they found a guy they were attracted to wasn't always a guy on the outside; it's what's inside that matters! ugh, I hate shallow people, so, SO much!)
I'll share with you another sweet dream, next night.
(Vampire Knight 4 Lyfe; YUS!!!)
Dammit I miss Jerod, like I miss him so much I wonder if that's part of why my head hurts. Possibly. The past few nights its hard to think of anything else because um, well I haven't heard from him in roughly 3 weeks now. Idk, it feels like ages. Y'know, when you get used to a daily habit and it just goes *poof*. No wonder people get so hooked on drugs, sort of. On one hand, I'm kind of glad he's not coming on to me right now... I am in no position to refuse, well, at least if the pain stops entirely first. And of course I'm not really looking for any replacements either... I can hold out a while for people, its one of my better qualities, I am patient. I also am a big procrastinator anyway, kinda need to be patient... with myself, lol.
I think I am way overstressed for a person who actually does so little. You could say its the fervor and depth of what little I do that is so draining on my physique and psyche that yeah, I do tire easily for a person not doing much. I have some stamina but boy does it get wracked on a daily basis. The emotional torment I have to endure every damn time my grandfather talks about my weight and appearance with utterly no tact, it could break a lesser man. I don't hate him, I hate how he chooses to express himself with such crass and biggotry. And do not talk to me about his personal health which seems to be failing him lately. Pot calling kettles black is what he's amounting to, pretty much.
It's not even him that's the sole cause of my stress. I was utterly livid when I read a comment on the aesthetic design of a fictional character where some Imbecile called out a character on having "nigger lips" (direct quote) and that being unappealing to that commentator. Oh my loving God, someone, SMITE this person. Please? Pretty please? I would be eternally grateful. You don't say such stupid things, AAAAAGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! *headdesk*
Small update: pain's a little less significant at the moment, venting might be helping pass the time of recovery.
In other news, I am having way too much enjoyment picking up Exit Fate and raising most of the army's levels to obscene numbers. I don't think you can feasibly hit lv99 without excessive grinding (to the simple point of tedious) but dang if it isn't fun getting everyone up to 85+ (which is all you need to finish everything including the completely optional content). I really like running theme parties based on the relation boosts (which is why Daniel works so well with Jovian and Angel) but its hard to get a diverse party with significant boosts as many mages favor other mages and you really don't need more than two (or one if their really solid like Midian, Myst or Mai) dedicated spell-slingers on your team; and warriors tend to enjoy each others' company; that said, a Matrech-themed group of Erin, Jasper, Carson, Merrick, Charles Ryan and Beau is very sound and balanced even if its hard to determine who to place up front with Erin (probably Merrick, second best physical defense of them which is all that matters for people in the vanguard). I wish the game had a few more female characters though, I don't like the ratio even if people are namby-pamby about women in combat, hey their are plenty of women in the armed forces nowdays, you're allowed to cast them in fictional combat, too! Stupid sexist imbeciles. Every straight male is such a spineless scrod around the concept of female dominance, and people wonder why I prefer homo/bisexual friends to converse with. They aren't following all your nonsensical rules. Rules that prevent people that love each other from being treated as humanely and justly (as in, with equal rights and privileges) as everyone else ARE ASININE. Now I don't mean you should be allowed to marry any little thing, but two consenting adults should be entitled as long as they are clearly in sound mind and intent.
Oh, right. IF you like a man or woman, then it does not matter what's going on downstairs. You either like men, women, both, or none at all. It's that simple. TRANS MEN ARE MEN. TRANS WOMEN ARE WOMEN. Never think you are suddenly straight, bi or pan because you, a primarily gay male, thought a trans man was hot. He's a MAN you IMBECILE! (obviously this was bugging me a lot because some loser dared suggest they were anything but gay when they found a guy they were attracted to wasn't always a guy on the outside; it's what's inside that matters! ugh, I hate shallow people, so, SO much!)
I'll share with you another sweet dream, next night.
(Vampire Knight 4 Lyfe; YUS!!!)
Thursday, August 29, 2013
Absolute Truths (may contain contradictions)
-cannot stand the slash pairing of Emmeryn/Gangrel; totally copacetic with Emmeryn/Aversa
-Vaike/everyone is personal head-canon; Male Robin/all males also works
-everyone who states they'd be okay with Chrom/Lissa should just go sleep with their own sibling already
-does not like being fat; perfectly fine with concept of male pregnancy
-would utterly break all your teeth if self (re: me) were impregnated
-everyone who likes RPGs should play Exit Fate... Now.
-would be fine with just a single, particular order of chinese cuisine (tends to re-order same takeout a lot), water, and raw broccolli everyday for the rest of life
-now honestly considering the above statement
-more people need to be open to frot/scissoring (same concept really)
-you want to know what I want? just an honest, hard-working (strongly preferred) male who doesn't smoke, nor uses drugs and is employed; why is that SO HARD for some of you!? (hah, pun... unintended at first)
-truth is, most lesbians are fine by me, I just get bored very quickly trying to watch them do it; I can watch most straight porn if dick is prominent in 75% of the shots
-yet, I don't really like dick photos... or most art of them if they're too realistic... honestly gross
-needs more ass, preferably tight arse
-stop equating sex parts to food items, people; if you're that hungry, go loving eat already!
-needs more virgins in their 30s (where I'm likely headed, lawl)
-you know what's stupid? people barking like a dog; if you do, I'm slapping a collar on you and getting your shots, 'k?
-wishes I could stop ranting so much
-realizes I probably won't, because I care too much
-more of you need to recognize how rare a person that cares as much as I is and loving get with the program already!
-seriously, stretch your bum and think about having someone as warm and tender and utterly lovely as I as a part of you... sometimes I'm amazed I'm not swarming in offers
-gets flustered easily from too much attention; still really shy
-definitely a top, gentle, but a top, beyond any reasonable doubt
Hmm... that's better~. Yay, venting! Later, anons.
-Vaike/everyone is personal head-canon; Male Robin/all males also works
-everyone who states they'd be okay with Chrom/Lissa should just go sleep with their own sibling already
-does not like being fat; perfectly fine with concept of male pregnancy
-would utterly break all your teeth if self (re: me) were impregnated
-everyone who likes RPGs should play Exit Fate... Now.
-would be fine with just a single, particular order of chinese cuisine (tends to re-order same takeout a lot), water, and raw broccolli everyday for the rest of life
-now honestly considering the above statement
-more people need to be open to frot/scissoring (same concept really)
-you want to know what I want? just an honest, hard-working (strongly preferred) male who doesn't smoke, nor uses drugs and is employed; why is that SO HARD for some of you!? (hah, pun... unintended at first)
-truth is, most lesbians are fine by me, I just get bored very quickly trying to watch them do it; I can watch most straight porn if dick is prominent in 75% of the shots
-yet, I don't really like dick photos... or most art of them if they're too realistic... honestly gross
-needs more ass, preferably tight arse
-stop equating sex parts to food items, people; if you're that hungry, go loving eat already!
-needs more virgins in their 30s (where I'm likely headed, lawl)
-you know what's stupid? people barking like a dog; if you do, I'm slapping a collar on you and getting your shots, 'k?
-wishes I could stop ranting so much
-realizes I probably won't, because I care too much
-more of you need to recognize how rare a person that cares as much as I is and loving get with the program already!
-seriously, stretch your bum and think about having someone as warm and tender and utterly lovely as I as a part of you... sometimes I'm amazed I'm not swarming in offers
-gets flustered easily from too much attention; still really shy
-definitely a top, gentle, but a top, beyond any reasonable doubt
Hmm... that's better~. Yay, venting! Later, anons.
Friday, August 23, 2013
A Completely Necessary and Totally Nonsencial Table of Acceptable Weight Ranges
Yes, that title is also completely, necessarily long. Deal with it.
Fact 1: Being overweight is not unhealthy, so long as you are not overfat. (ask your medical doctor or dietician, if you're seeing one, for confirmation on healthy fat ranges which are % based of your total weight)
Fact 2: Your weight has to account for water, bones, muscle fibers and fat. In that precise order, that is what primarily composes your total weight.
Fact 3: Obese is being defined as having enough weight that your risk level for heart and circulatory problems increase to a degree. How much so and how much weight you truly can bare is completely up to your family's medical history.
Okay, so with those things out of the way, on to the very simple table. This table assumes that one is at least 23 years old, after which one would be approximately 97% complete with their physical growth. (In other words, when you truly cease getting taller)
Men Women
Height Lbs Height Lbs
6'8" 267 6'5" 223
6'7" 260 6'4" 216
6'6" 253 6'3" 210
6'5" 246 6'2" 204
6'4" 239 6'1" 198
6'3" 232 6'0" 192
6'2" 225 5'11" 186
6'1" 218 5'10" 180
6'0" 211 5'9" 174
5'11" 204 5'8" 168
5'10" 197 5'7" 163
5'9" 190 5'6" 158
5'8" 183 5'5" 153
5'7" 176 5'4" 148
5'6" 169 5'3" 143
5'5" 162 5'2" 138
5'4" 155 5'1" 133
5'3 148 5'0" 128
5'2" 141 4'11" 123
5'1" 134 4'10" 118
Alright, now if you look up all of those according to the BMI (body mass index) bylaws, most of these will register as overweight or close, or even normal. As I said, these weights are nonsense yet acceptable. In other words, its pretty much my personal bias (I prefer hefty but healthy people). On the other hand, the majority are also completely reasonable and certainly not out-of-the-question. For the really critical though, I'd say you could feasibly be between 16 lbs lighter and 20 lbs heavier for each target and still be fine. Convert to metric if you must.
Fact 1: Being overweight is not unhealthy, so long as you are not overfat. (ask your medical doctor or dietician, if you're seeing one, for confirmation on healthy fat ranges which are % based of your total weight)
Fact 2: Your weight has to account for water, bones, muscle fibers and fat. In that precise order, that is what primarily composes your total weight.
Fact 3: Obese is being defined as having enough weight that your risk level for heart and circulatory problems increase to a degree. How much so and how much weight you truly can bare is completely up to your family's medical history.
Okay, so with those things out of the way, on to the very simple table. This table assumes that one is at least 23 years old, after which one would be approximately 97% complete with their physical growth. (In other words, when you truly cease getting taller)
Men Women
Height Lbs Height Lbs
6'8" 267 6'5" 223
6'7" 260 6'4" 216
6'6" 253 6'3" 210
6'5" 246 6'2" 204
6'4" 239 6'1" 198
6'3" 232 6'0" 192
6'2" 225 5'11" 186
6'1" 218 5'10" 180
6'0" 211 5'9" 174
5'11" 204 5'8" 168
5'10" 197 5'7" 163
5'9" 190 5'6" 158
5'8" 183 5'5" 153
5'7" 176 5'4" 148
5'6" 169 5'3" 143
5'5" 162 5'2" 138
5'4" 155 5'1" 133
5'3 148 5'0" 128
5'2" 141 4'11" 123
5'1" 134 4'10" 118
Alright, now if you look up all of those according to the BMI (body mass index) bylaws, most of these will register as overweight or close, or even normal. As I said, these weights are nonsense yet acceptable. In other words, its pretty much my personal bias (I prefer hefty but healthy people). On the other hand, the majority are also completely reasonable and certainly not out-of-the-question. For the really critical though, I'd say you could feasibly be between 16 lbs lighter and 20 lbs heavier for each target and still be fine. Convert to metric if you must.
Monday, August 5, 2013
Stuff (An Update)
If you want to call it that.
Anyway, Jer is still awesome (I mean c'mon, I'm not really a person who changes their opinions that quickly on others). But damn does he have terrible luck. Like I partially want to just lock him away so shit stops happening to trouble him, lol, something like that. I mean I am not a pet person so that idea is rather moot. And he wouldn't agree to that, lest I locked myself away with him, lol, then maybe xD.
Tumblr is such a time-sink, forget tvtropes. Its like Blogger but on massive roids, and way more likely to invoke triggers because people are dumb as dirt on there.
I see so many cases of reverse racism that it literally makes me sick to my stomach. Hell, no, its just racism. Whether you're white, black, red, blue, green or shining gold; if a third of your personal rants revolve around complaining about a group of people that boils down to "color-of-person_word-for-person", then by Jove, do you have loads of free time! And what a waste of time and energy you're expending to inform the masses of your exceedingly asinine views and simply foolish tangents ping-ponging around your cranium.
Allow me to enlighten you. First black guy I ever thought was attractive was pretty average looking, toned but kind of thin, and his equipment was pretty much average (like 6 or 7 in, which is not unreasonable). Why did I like him? Well, just the way he carried his self. I won't lie that this was in a porno so meh, it just does make me mad people assume white men just want someone for their dick, especially generalizing that's their reason for being attracted to dark skinned people. ESPECIALLY because I prefer ass. There. Race doesn't matter. It's having a nice trunk and confidence, and not being a total moron that matters most to me. Hell, I generally like people who seem smart and aren't afraid to show their emotions, their weaknesses, so that I can hopefully make them feel more understood, more normal, more loved.
Not to mention, I do not want to bottom, well, very rarely, and only for some people. Like my one friend, he's okay and all even if he acts really stupid a lot and he's also a top; still, I'd NEVER bottom for him because he's too selfish. I mean whenever I'd hypothetically bring up sleeping with him, that jackass would constantly insist I'd bottom for him first. Makes me irrate. And I refuse to acknowledge people who make me that mad. So, no spooning with him, ever.
You want to turn me on? Dick won't do it. Ass helps, but its really just how you express yourself that I care about. I'd rather have sex with someone who actually appears to be in love and happy and longing to be with me than someone who is confident but not a douche. I'm really more of a sentimental person when it boils down to it... so all the hate and suspicion so many people harbor truly depresses me. : |
Few months ago I tried to both greet someone who was on my contact/friend list on a site and say I thought they were cute, and even added that I'm not really looking for sex, that what I said above is more the sort of guy I am. And they responded by calling me a creep AND blocking me, not even letting me try to apologize for upsetting them : [. It's not like I even hit on them; I really can't understand his thought process at all.
I try talking to Jer at times lately, and well, I wish I could always be in a good conversation-crafting mood. Mostly its just a quick exchange. Which honestly is okay, I hope. I don't want him to feel unloved because... its a terrible feeling. I would know.
Anyway, Jer is still awesome (I mean c'mon, I'm not really a person who changes their opinions that quickly on others). But damn does he have terrible luck. Like I partially want to just lock him away so shit stops happening to trouble him, lol, something like that. I mean I am not a pet person so that idea is rather moot. And he wouldn't agree to that, lest I locked myself away with him, lol, then maybe xD.
Tumblr is such a time-sink, forget tvtropes. Its like Blogger but on massive roids, and way more likely to invoke triggers because people are dumb as dirt on there.
I see so many cases of reverse racism that it literally makes me sick to my stomach. Hell, no, its just racism. Whether you're white, black, red, blue, green or shining gold; if a third of your personal rants revolve around complaining about a group of people that boils down to "color-of-person_word-for-person", then by Jove, do you have loads of free time! And what a waste of time and energy you're expending to inform the masses of your exceedingly asinine views and simply foolish tangents ping-ponging around your cranium.
Allow me to enlighten you. First black guy I ever thought was attractive was pretty average looking, toned but kind of thin, and his equipment was pretty much average (like 6 or 7 in, which is not unreasonable). Why did I like him? Well, just the way he carried his self. I won't lie that this was in a porno so meh, it just does make me mad people assume white men just want someone for their dick, especially generalizing that's their reason for being attracted to dark skinned people. ESPECIALLY because I prefer ass. There. Race doesn't matter. It's having a nice trunk and confidence, and not being a total moron that matters most to me. Hell, I generally like people who seem smart and aren't afraid to show their emotions, their weaknesses, so that I can hopefully make them feel more understood, more normal, more loved.
Not to mention, I do not want to bottom, well, very rarely, and only for some people. Like my one friend, he's okay and all even if he acts really stupid a lot and he's also a top; still, I'd NEVER bottom for him because he's too selfish. I mean whenever I'd hypothetically bring up sleeping with him, that jackass would constantly insist I'd bottom for him first. Makes me irrate. And I refuse to acknowledge people who make me that mad. So, no spooning with him, ever.
You want to turn me on? Dick won't do it. Ass helps, but its really just how you express yourself that I care about. I'd rather have sex with someone who actually appears to be in love and happy and longing to be with me than someone who is confident but not a douche. I'm really more of a sentimental person when it boils down to it... so all the hate and suspicion so many people harbor truly depresses me. : |
Few months ago I tried to both greet someone who was on my contact/friend list on a site and say I thought they were cute, and even added that I'm not really looking for sex, that what I said above is more the sort of guy I am. And they responded by calling me a creep AND blocking me, not even letting me try to apologize for upsetting them : [. It's not like I even hit on them; I really can't understand his thought process at all.
I try talking to Jer at times lately, and well, I wish I could always be in a good conversation-crafting mood. Mostly its just a quick exchange. Which honestly is okay, I hope. I don't want him to feel unloved because... its a terrible feeling. I would know.
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