Welp, long story short, the last two weeks have been rather... strange. In that, a lot of unexpected things have happened and a few expected ones, too.
The Expected:
-SSI Appeal officially turned down; re-filing ensues (this is just a big headache because I'm only doing this to keep the only insurance I got, which requires me to file for SSI in order to qualify; it's convoluted as all heck)
-found a fun game to play which re-ignited my general interest in making a game of similar quality (probably won't seriously advance on mine too soon though); admittedly only semi-expected, lol
The Unexpected:
-apparently I have a boyfriend now, met online like my last official one (that is, counting people I have or strongly plan to meet/see in person)
And... it's the unexpected I really ought to talk about now. Dis guy... just, dis guy!! He's like, practically everything I want from looks (cute as all get out), his ethnicity (okay, I always have thought dark skinned people were awesome, this I can't honestly deny), his energy (which is up there, a plus because I often need coaxing or just a counterbalance) and besides all that he's sensitive and caring enough that you just want to be with him a lot of the time since he's really sweet. But not only that, but he very recently admitted he feels he does love me, ME of all people, and says that its because he feels that I truly care about him (of course I do, I care easily for people who don't say stupid/jerkish stuff, lolol). So, dang, I guess I have my work cut out for me. Got to get myself to up and see him (he's not that far away, lives in my state). Of course, I do like him a lot, I think I'm ready to love again, I mean, I did wait what, 4 years basically?
I just want to commit, because I'm so ready. I know we can get along because we talk almost everyday and he doesn't really make me feel unwanted. So, I'm hoping it all turns out well. Jerod, if you're reading this, know that I not only have been moved by your kindness, heck, your everything, but that I really want to stay with you as long as you need. I know it'll still be a bit before I can physically act on all I've said, but I TRULY INTEND to make good on 95% of my word. (I leave 5% for error because c'mon, nobody's perfect). I wish I could refer you to the last guy I ever dated in earnest, just because the proof's there. We had met in February but finally saw one another in person on his birthday in May. That was my first kiss I then had with a man. ^_^ While him and I did get distanced sometime thereafter, I also want you to know, I will ALWAYS care about you, even if something should ever happen to us, too. Of course, I will hope only for good things but hey, you gotta do what feels right to you. I know I really like ya. I know you really care for me, so here's to good tidings ahead. *clinks glass* xD
Other than Jer rocking my world over the past week, not a whole lot else been happening. I was... a bit unsure of how he'd even react to me deciding to message him afore, at which point I resolved to tell him I did think he was cute; it's just, far too many nice-looking people can be really self-absorbed or just rude to people who, simply put, are just kinda plain (such as myself). But he wasn't... I just want to reward his kindness with my body, mind and soul because he honestly earned it by matching my uncommon kindness with his own. I'm so moved, I'm seriously not even thinking about past fixations like Casey, or Joshua, or other people. I haven't felt this way in YEARS! -peace, out
SH2
Saturday, July 20, 2013
Thursday, July 4, 2013
Random Survey I found on Tumblr
Why the heck not?
1. What is your middle name?
James
2. Are you wearing makeup?
I'm not currently doing a stage play, so no.
3. What colour is your toothbrush?
It's green, white and blue.
4. Approximately how many posters are hung up in your room?
Less than 3.
5. What does your hair product smell like?
I don't smell my shampoo unless it reeks enough.
6. Where would rather be right now?
In your ass. (unless you're a chick, okay but really, I don't care about "where" I am or want to be much)
7. What is the temperature outside?
about 70 degrees Fahrenheit
8. Have you ever dyed your hair? If so what colour?
yes, Orange
9. What is the funniest word you know?
I don't know... (I don't usually find words funny)
10. Name your favourite band starting with the letter 'M'
Magnum Opus
11. What is your favourite pick up line? And has anyone ever used it on you?
Oh crap... *thinks* It was something like, "I don't drink, I don't smoke, I don't do drugs; so gimme sex!" yes it's really lame and goofy and creepy but so what? at least it's honest
12. Describe your first icon using only verbs
I don't understand this question...
13. What is the most expensive thing you have ever bought with your own money?
my Xbox360, which alone was $300 bucks; most of my stuff is gifts
14. State your favourite letter of the alphabet
it's K
15. What is your favourite accent?
I like most accents, really
16. How did you celebrate the new year?
I haven't for quite a while and probably won't until I'm in a relationship
17. What do you call a brown fizzy drink that usually comes in a can?
... I say, "why's this shit brown? it's supposed to be darker!"
18. Do you like fish?
Sure do
19. What is your most used tag?
I don't use tags much
20. Would you rather ask someone out or be asked out?
I'd rather be asked out
21. What is your favourite Olympic sport to watch?
Gymnastics are cool I guess; but usually I don't watch them
22. Have you ever dumped anyone?
hmmm... not technically
23. What do you want to be when you grow up?
I still don't know, in honest, I just want a family, a simple job that I can come home from most evenings, or w/e
24. Have you ever been to the United States? If so, where?
I reside in the US, I've been in a few different states but mostly stay in Pennsylvania a lot
25. What instrument have you always wanted to play?
I know how to play the Oboe and a few others; I wish I could play the piano better
26. Describe your dream partner's eye colour
I like green eyes most, I guess, but I don't care
27. What do you order at diners?
usually pasta dishes
28. Coffee or espressos?
I hate them both equally
29. What is the most annoying song on the radio at the moment?
wouldn't know, I don't listen to the radio much
30. How many contacts do you have on your phone?
I don't own a mobile phone
31. What type of music player do you own?
since most are broken, my PC is the closest thing
32. Describe your favourite painting
I like um, drawings more than paintings, usually of people/characters
33. What was the best present you have ever received?
I guess some computers I've used
34. Spring or Fall? Why?
Fall, because Summer is over and not approaching (I hate heat)
35. What was the last text you received? Who was it from?
I don't remember the last text; but my last IM was a friend sharing a random fact/meme pic and saying good night
36. Would you ever paint your room pink?
No
37. What colour is your underwear?
most of my underwear is navy blue
38. Favourite perfume scent?
don't like perfume/not around enough to know
39. What celebrity do you think needs to drop off a cliff?
don't really care much, but if Lady Gaga did, most people would think it's the greatest thing ever (just because it's her diving or w/e; I'm not being a jerk here)
40. Do blue eyes turn you on?
Well, Tyler W. from TheSpeedGamers does have really gorgeous eyes, so I suppose they can
41. What meat do you prefer in a sandwich?
my favorite sandwich is a BLT, but I usually eat tuna submarine sandwiches lately
42. Would you ever wear a sweater to school?
I have several times
43. What is the name of your current ringtone?
don't have one; my preference is toward Chopin's Funeral March
44. Glasses or contacts?
glasses
45. What shoes do you normally wear to school?
I usually wore sneakers, white, but black in the last year or two
46. Where is your nearest television?
it's about 3 feet away from my PC, in my room, where I currently am
47. What is your favourite vegetable?
I really like edamame in stir-fry, otherwise, broccoli, raw please
48. When was the last time you drank milk?
yesterday, I drink milk almost daily
49. What was your lowest grade in school?
for a yearly grade, I think I got a 49 in German III during senior year, I really didn't like the teacher, and some other issues that were going on
50. Are you using Google chrome?
no, I use Firefox
1. What is your middle name?
James
2. Are you wearing makeup?
I'm not currently doing a stage play, so no.
3. What colour is your toothbrush?
It's green, white and blue.
4. Approximately how many posters are hung up in your room?
Less than 3.
5. What does your hair product smell like?
I don't smell my shampoo unless it reeks enough.
6. Where would rather be right now?
In your ass. (unless you're a chick, okay but really, I don't care about "where" I am or want to be much)
7. What is the temperature outside?
about 70 degrees Fahrenheit
8. Have you ever dyed your hair? If so what colour?
yes, Orange
9. What is the funniest word you know?
I don't know... (I don't usually find words funny)
10. Name your favourite band starting with the letter 'M'
Magnum Opus
11. What is your favourite pick up line? And has anyone ever used it on you?
Oh crap... *thinks* It was something like, "I don't drink, I don't smoke, I don't do drugs; so gimme sex!" yes it's really lame and goofy and creepy but so what? at least it's honest
12. Describe your first icon using only verbs
I don't understand this question...
13. What is the most expensive thing you have ever bought with your own money?
my Xbox360, which alone was $300 bucks; most of my stuff is gifts
14. State your favourite letter of the alphabet
it's K
15. What is your favourite accent?
I like most accents, really
16. How did you celebrate the new year?
I haven't for quite a while and probably won't until I'm in a relationship
17. What do you call a brown fizzy drink that usually comes in a can?
... I say, "why's this shit brown? it's supposed to be darker!"
18. Do you like fish?
Sure do
19. What is your most used tag?
I don't use tags much
20. Would you rather ask someone out or be asked out?
I'd rather be asked out
21. What is your favourite Olympic sport to watch?
Gymnastics are cool I guess; but usually I don't watch them
22. Have you ever dumped anyone?
hmmm... not technically
23. What do you want to be when you grow up?
I still don't know, in honest, I just want a family, a simple job that I can come home from most evenings, or w/e
24. Have you ever been to the United States? If so, where?
I reside in the US, I've been in a few different states but mostly stay in Pennsylvania a lot
25. What instrument have you always wanted to play?
I know how to play the Oboe and a few others; I wish I could play the piano better
26. Describe your dream partner's eye colour
I like green eyes most, I guess, but I don't care
27. What do you order at diners?
usually pasta dishes
28. Coffee or espressos?
I hate them both equally
29. What is the most annoying song on the radio at the moment?
wouldn't know, I don't listen to the radio much
30. How many contacts do you have on your phone?
I don't own a mobile phone
31. What type of music player do you own?
since most are broken, my PC is the closest thing
32. Describe your favourite painting
I like um, drawings more than paintings, usually of people/characters
33. What was the best present you have ever received?
I guess some computers I've used
34. Spring or Fall? Why?
Fall, because Summer is over and not approaching (I hate heat)
35. What was the last text you received? Who was it from?
I don't remember the last text; but my last IM was a friend sharing a random fact/meme pic and saying good night
36. Would you ever paint your room pink?
No
37. What colour is your underwear?
most of my underwear is navy blue
38. Favourite perfume scent?
don't like perfume/not around enough to know
39. What celebrity do you think needs to drop off a cliff?
don't really care much, but if Lady Gaga did, most people would think it's the greatest thing ever (just because it's her diving or w/e; I'm not being a jerk here)
40. Do blue eyes turn you on?
Well, Tyler W. from TheSpeedGamers does have really gorgeous eyes, so I suppose they can
41. What meat do you prefer in a sandwich?
my favorite sandwich is a BLT, but I usually eat tuna submarine sandwiches lately
42. Would you ever wear a sweater to school?
I have several times
43. What is the name of your current ringtone?
don't have one; my preference is toward Chopin's Funeral March
44. Glasses or contacts?
glasses
45. What shoes do you normally wear to school?
I usually wore sneakers, white, but black in the last year or two
46. Where is your nearest television?
it's about 3 feet away from my PC, in my room, where I currently am
47. What is your favourite vegetable?
I really like edamame in stir-fry, otherwise, broccoli, raw please
48. When was the last time you drank milk?
yesterday, I drink milk almost daily
49. What was your lowest grade in school?
for a yearly grade, I think I got a 49 in German III during senior year, I really didn't like the teacher, and some other issues that were going on
50. Are you using Google chrome?
no, I use Firefox
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