I Answer Some Questions; and stuff~

Have to say, I always love answering questions.  Well, particularly personal questions that don't offend me (most don't).  And so I will.  All of these particular ones are from Tab Kimpton's kickstarter project which ultimately will lead him to continuing the story of his popular(?) webcomic:  Khaos.  It's pretty good; centers around teenage/young adult gay, trans and people in general.  'Course they could all be straight and it'd hardly change anything, just how things turn out because you can't really change their personality and history without drastically altering the series as it is.  Pretty much though, most of the characters aren't that... outspoken except perhaps Tom (who's honestly a jerk but frequently made aware of it, lol).

I haven't heard from Jer still; I do hope he's okay and I'm wondering--if he is around, why isn't he trying to really talk to me?  Did I do something wrong?  I don't have any reason to hate him, even if (heaven forbid) he was disloyal to me, so what?  That doesn't mean I love him any less.  I'm pretty much at the point where... yeah, if I'm sorta going with someone and they cheat on me, I'll hardly care.  I'll be disappointed but so what?  As long as I never hurt them, I don't really see why they should turn from me.  What hurts is simply not knowing... not hearing from a person you're genuinely happy to be around.  It's like a hug with no squeeze, a sandwich with no cheese, it's just... empty.  I wish he would even try to call me or something... his voice was really nice, judging by what little I've heard of it, at least.

So anywhose... questionnes!

Are catboys hot?  Y/N?
Who do you think you're talking to?  Of course they are; cats are pretty cool irl and so men acting like cats--always rather adorable.  Give or take some habits.  I generally prefer them over catgirls just because catgirls tend to be done to death.  But what bothers me are when people who really don't suit them play them anyway.  Some people just suit other animals more and there's nothing more grating than pretending to be what you're not.

Food sex?  Y/N?
Okay, it depends on what it is.  Like pizza toppings, you could work them into foreplay.  So my answer is, uh, sure--as long as I can clean up in between.  And naturally he and I would need to pre-approve whatever's involved.  (Never spring this on me or I will be livid).

What's the coolest outfit you imagine your favorite original character in?  (this was limited to Khaos by the ask-er but I thought to expand it for my own sanity; all Khaos characters belong to Tab anyway)
This one will be a while... *now calculating... now calculating...*
Well I'll go with the OC closest to me (Ran) even though I don't truly treat them as a self-insert (even then, I pretty much pick at all my flaws regularly with them) soo... typically a Beret (the hat), some type of vest or sweater, simple pants (possibly leather) and some black leather boots so polished they shine... lol.  Idk, I like simple designs, call me strange!  What would I call it?  Um... its kind of a cross between formal wear and street gang.  High class punk?  No clue~.

Who's your favorite (fictional or not) friend(s)?  Strictly platonic.
 Well, that would have to be Alexander (even if he never reads this; also that is not his real name).  In fact, we don't always agree on much.  But he's always there to listen to me.  I'll admit, it hurts sometimes when he just doesn't get my opinion on things.  But unlike many people, (as very few fit this) he's there, a lot.  That really is pretty important.  And unlike a few others who come close, I don't have to hold anything back.  (just being able to share everything is a great boon and I can't with everyone because of making people uncomfortable with certain truths and things I like)

Ever had a crush on a friend's sibling?
Well that depends on what you define as "friend".  If acquaintance counts, yes, seeing as I spoke to my first boyfriend's sister a bit before he and I truly were dating for a bit.  So, only technically.  (since I was going with her brother and not opposed to her as a person)

If your characters were fruit, what would they be?
God I don't like fruit as much as vegetables (which I actually did make a comparison, months ago).
But I'll try... (only going to go with my most common ones)
Ran - pineapple; tall, rather mellow, very sweet, has a starkly misleading exterior (ironically, I personally loathe pineapples!)
Boh - blueberry; bit of an acquired taste and only really speaks [to me] when baked into a dessert which speaks of his personality -- it has to grow on you and you either like it or don't and despite his "raw taste", he can surprise you (like blueberry muffins)
Alexander - lime; he can come off sour, but he compliments those he associates well (just as limes mingle well in savory and sweet dishes with other ingredients), he would be missed if he left just as you might miss the lime if taken out of anything that typically calls for it
Jeauno - grape; kinda fragile and has been known to be overextended, but even so, she comes off friendly and good company when you're down (this is a wine metaphor)
Mica - pumpkin; cute, but unpredictable just as there are many shapes and sizes of the pumpkin; his true self is just as playful and wholesome as his outside; pumpkins also make great sweet dishes (and he likes to bake, how fitting~)

If someone gives you flowers, what kind would they be?
Oh, I would love hyacinth, because they have a mythological story behind their name that I like (the story).  And they're purple!  But any flower would be fine.  ^^

What's the best tea you ever tasted?
That would be "none" because the taste of tea, and hot drinks in general, is not something I like much at all.  I don't really like iced tea either.

Have you ever had the 'fireworks' feeling in romance novels of old?
Well, not quite.  Close, probably.  But I hope to, eventually.

If you had a biographical profile written on you, what would be your "likes and dislikes"?  Up to three of each.
Likes:  jRPGs, shades of purple, open communication
Dislikes:  hot drinks, "kinks", competing

Given no money constraints and pain receptions, what body modification would you have done?
You want an honest answer?  Possibly liposuction.  But really, just get rid of half my body fat and fit my skin to match and I would be pretty darn content.  I'm not into tattoos or piercings enough to seriously consider any for myself. : |

What's your least favorite body part?
Quick answer--genitals.  Otherwise... I don't believe I have anything I dislike or as easily repulsed by (man or woman).

Do you prefer Summer or Winter, and why?
Winter.  I hate being hot and its easier for me to compensate if I do feel too cold.  And its a much better time for cuddling... which I want~.

What's the sexiest national clothing to you?
Clothes... this is a hard question because I don't have much of an interest in fashion.  I just don't care, truly.

What's the best present you ever received?
Computers are pretty darn important, so I'll say those, even if only my grandfather gave me the majority of presents I ever received.

Favorite sport?  How about your least favorite?
I like to watch tennis a lot actually (not that I often do though).  I really don't care for football or wrestling though.  It's hard to think of which I dislike more.

Can you chill in just your underwear, even around other people?
Easily actually, I do so a lot.  But I dress in a bit more around less personal company (usually I'm left to myself on most days and I've answered the door in just boxers before, I don't do this intentionally though, it depends how harried I am).  I dislike being totally bare though.

What's your favorite color of underwear?
I don't have one.  Not fond of most reds and pink though.

What's the nicest place for hair to be on the body?
Not counting the head?  Eh, I don't really care as long as its not too thick (not fond of beards or shag in general)

Do you have an inner-self that says all the horrible/perverted things you can't?
I would say no; I'm pretty much the same offline as I type hear.  I just won't talk that much unless I choose to/feel up to it.  I can be as honest as I need to be and generally speaking, I'm not that perverted, not compared to many other people I'm aware of.


Bye for now, people!

Saccharine-Induced Headache

Maybe.  It really hurts... okay its not the worst I've had but it won't... bloody... go... away; AAAAAGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Dammit I miss Jerod, like I miss him so much I wonder if that's part of why my head hurts.  Possibly.  The past few nights its hard to think of anything else because um, well I haven't heard from him in roughly 3 weeks now.  Idk, it feels like ages.  Y'know, when you get used to a daily habit and it just goes *poof*.  No wonder people get so hooked on drugs, sort of.  On one hand, I'm kind of glad he's not coming on to me right now... I am in no position to refuse, well, at least if the pain stops entirely first.  And of course I'm not really looking for any replacements either... I can hold out a while for people, its one of my better qualities, I am patient.  I also am a big procrastinator anyway, kinda need to be patient... with myself, lol.

I think I am way overstressed for a person who actually does so little.  You could say its the fervor and depth of what little I do that is so draining on my physique and psyche that yeah, I do tire easily for a person not doing much.  I have some stamina but boy does it get wracked on a daily basis.  The emotional torment I have to endure every damn time my grandfather talks about my weight and appearance with utterly no tact, it could break a lesser man.  I don't hate him, I hate how he chooses to express himself with such crass and biggotry.  And do not talk to me about his personal health which seems to be failing him lately.  Pot calling kettles black is what he's amounting to, pretty much.

It's not even him that's the sole cause of my stress.  I was utterly livid when I read a comment on the aesthetic design of a fictional character where some Imbecile called out a character on having "nigger lips" (direct quote) and that being unappealing to that commentator.  Oh my loving God, someone, SMITE this person.  Please?  Pretty please?  I would be eternally grateful.  You don't say such stupid things, AAAAAGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!  *headdesk*

Small update: pain's a little less significant at the moment, venting might be helping pass the time of recovery.

In other news, I am having way too much enjoyment picking up Exit Fate and raising most of the army's levels to obscene numbers.  I don't think you can feasibly hit lv99 without excessive grinding (to the simple point of tedious) but dang if it isn't fun getting everyone up to 85+ (which is all you need to finish everything including the completely optional content).  I really like running theme parties based on the relation boosts (which is why Daniel works so well with Jovian and Angel) but its hard to get a diverse party with significant boosts as many mages favor other mages and you really don't need more than two (or one if their really solid like Midian, Myst or Mai) dedicated spell-slingers on your team; and warriors tend to enjoy each others' company;  that said, a Matrech-themed group of Erin, Jasper, Carson, Merrick, Charles Ryan and Beau is very sound and balanced even if its hard to determine who to place up front with Erin (probably Merrick, second best physical defense of them which is all that matters for people in the vanguard).  I wish the game had a few more female characters though, I don't like the ratio even if people are namby-pamby about women in combat, hey their are plenty of women in the armed forces nowdays, you're allowed to cast them in fictional combat, too!  Stupid sexist imbeciles.  Every straight male is such a spineless scrod around the concept of female dominance, and people wonder why I prefer homo/bisexual friends to converse with.  They aren't following all your nonsensical rules.  Rules that prevent people that love each other from being treated as humanely and justly (as in, with equal rights and privileges) as everyone else ARE ASININE.  Now I don't mean you should be allowed to marry any little thing, but two consenting adults should be entitled as long as they are clearly in sound mind and intent.


Oh, right.  IF you like a man or woman, then it does not matter what's going on downstairs.  You either like men, women, both, or none at all.  It's that simple. TRANS MEN ARE MEN.  TRANS WOMEN ARE WOMEN.  Never think you are suddenly straight, bi or pan because you, a primarily gay male, thought a trans man was hot.  He's a MAN you IMBECILE!   (obviously this was bugging me a lot because some loser dared suggest they were anything but gay when they found a guy they were attracted to wasn't always a guy on the outside; it's what's inside that matters!  ugh, I hate shallow people, so, SO much!)


I'll share with you another sweet dream, next night.
(Vampire Knight 4 Lyfe; YUS!!!)