... or twilight, I mean the sun isn't up yet and its in the AM as I'm forming these thoughts. Yep.
-I didn't know what "YOLO" meant until last Sunday, I feel semi-enlightened but honestly disappointed, it seems dumb to capitalize on "only living once so I can do dumb shit", as it essentially supports that; maybe I'm just anti-fun when I'm single, or maybe I don't care to be reminded of my morality, your pick
-I miss Grape Fanta (or other brands of the soda flavor); *sigh* it's probably my favorite just because I can't have it everyday (though if I could, I'd be tempted)
-I feel somewhat awkward when people talk about like chain restaurants I never heard of like it should be common knowledge to the entire planet; just reminds me of how isolated I usually am .-.; like, Chipotle sounds nice, I like spicy things and chili peppers but what the heck do they even serve besides I presume latin/hispanic cuisines? is that even what they offer? UGH!
-sometimes I'm happy after eating a meatless salad; but often I miss it; oh I do mean the red meats of course, since those are what I prefer to have sparingly... though I worry about possibly stressing any vegetarian friends if they're truly opposed to my eating land animal meat (not giving up fish for anyone, nope, never)
-will I ever find employment? gainful employment that I don't mind sticking with? staying tied to one thing (strictly metaphorically) can be difficult for me; that and well, Idk, I think some employers in retail have ass-backwards priorities when scouting for workers; I would really like to be proven wrong on that someday
-it's not just the alcohol content (and assorted health issues exacerbated by its consumption) that turns me off cocktails and whatnot, its the flavors, textures of mixed drinks and honestly just not being inhibited that I can't physically nor mentally bring myself to appreciating (just want to be clear on that... if I need to tell someone ever)
-I think if I had to break it down, I'm uh, predominantly homosexual, genderqueer (to be specific I usually feel I lack a particular gender identity when breaking down my habits and mannerisms, but I don't consider myself lacking a gender either, its hard because its more of a social thing than something I can just clarify myself), also demisexual and panromantic (those I can attest to)
-why can't people just be green and purple, then mate to have wicked (i.e. cool) striped skin babies? and save us from all the racial issues the world thinks it has
-I don't really feel "white" most of the time, if that makes sense, but I don't feel like any ethnicity in particular either, I'm not sure why that is or if I should be concerned about it
*yawn* welp, starting to feel sleepy now; at least some good is coming from my silly ranting, lol, may just cure insomnia yet!
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