You get a tic-tac if you correctly guess the song that phrase originates from. Well, anyway, one may infer that I have much going on in my mind. And, given my track record, that usually is the case! Blasted mental/social disease... but, I digress. (Asperger's isn't that much of a concern to me though I'm aware of how it affects me, non-the-less).
My grandfather recently fell quite ill. He caught an infection, which reacted with his diabetes and had blown his blood sugar levels to severely unstable levels (we're talking over 300, which is bad since diabetics generally want their blood sugar below 150 for general livelihood). This, as you may imagine, threw my family into a tizzy. He never asks anyone's help and him being effectively incapacitated only adds to his worrisome mind; or it would have if he weren't totally driven nutters the first couple of days. His condition was severe enough that my mother was driven to fly in here for the first time in 12 years. It was nice to see her, but I had generally very little one-on-one time with her during her stay. She pushed herself too hard and spent nearly half the time sleeping. What more concerns me is that when she called me after returning to her current residence in TX, she had been crying (you could tell because she was audibly sniffling during part of the call; she stated so plainly asides that). She didn't seem to cry though, when she was up here, besides when she first showed up, and only a little (which was several hours later than I had expected her to arrive). I thought she was okay in TX enough that she didn't miss me enough to cry about whatnot. Maybe she fears she left me to wait out my grandfather's passing if he never fully recovers (he is 70, after all). I don't know; but in positive news, grandfather seems mostly okay, if fatigued from the illness and bed-ridden days. He's able to walk, though requires a walker at present; I'm just hoping he gets well enough to go without it, like he did most of the time before (not that he had a walker before, but I at least didn't have to worry about him falling off of something just trying to sit up properly, which he did (thankfully it was just a mild spill off a couch unto the floor)). He could seriously hurt himself if he loses his balance in the bathroom because its small and there's so much one could potentially hit before the floor. Ugh, this is too much to worry about.
I'd just like to talk about this guy I recently noticed on ze internets. Assuming they are providing honest information, this particular guy lives in the area near my mother down in you-know-which-state. I'm not clear as to how they found my profile on this social networking site I use, but they did. He's a bit young (y'know, compared to me; though I'm only 25 at present) but this... honestly... may be the first person who shares most of my most prominent hobbies/interest. They very bluntly declare their self a gaymer, (!) but moreso states that their favorite genre of video games are RPGs (!!). Well, that's enough to make him want to talk to them, aside from the very real fact that I could move in with my mother in the future (she has expressed support of that precise notion) and so, if they don't move away for education, I'd have a very possible chance of seeing this person. What is more interesting is also that I'm not overly attracted to this person by their looks but more by their interests and that I do match some of their expressed desires in a romantic partner; which by my standards is very rare (in personal experience) and quite good! I mean, looks aren't everything to me; they help your case if you do stuff that I don't particularly like, but if all I feel is a physical attraction, it usually won't drive me to commit. You can blame the fact that I like slightly damaged, emotionally needy guys, because while I am partly that myself, I feel stronger, better, when I can help those sorts feel better about their self. Is he ugly? No. Is he hot? Um, I guess that depends on your definition and personal taste. I think I could really like him though, and like can always grow into love. No rush for anything, anyway; I'm just kind of happy to know he viewed my page first, so perhaps there's potential for friends at least. ^~^
My great uncles and aunts say that my grandfather seems pretty well when they visit him. He's supposed to be home again in the coming week. Hopefully all goes well with him and hopefully I don't awkwardly irk this new guy in any way when I attempt to talk to him, eheh. That about sums up how I feel before I contact everyone I spoke to first in just about ever. Yep. Now if you excuse me, I will probably try to lull myself to sleep with thoughts of doing disgustingly dorky and adorable things if I were really in a relationship with that guy, lol. (I do that, if you must be so warned.)
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