Sidetrack - Addendum

Thinking it over... I'm not entirely opposed to myself receiving, I think.  I go through this every time I seriously consider the physical intimacy aspect of a relationship.  I just don't like rough housing or feeling pain, so its hard to let go of my fears.  The fear of being thought of as insignificant, if that even exists.  I think it is why I try to be so gentle and affectionate with people, even if at times I come off as over-attentive.  I can control my baser desires, because... I care enough.  I think that's the best way I can explain my feelings.  I still do plenty of stuff you'd expect from a single guy.  Well, except the no social life, no partying, lol.  Maybe I'm just a bore.  I wouldn't mind a little party now and then.  I have this dream of one day seeing most of my closest internet friends all at once at like a holiday party.  ^w^  Because I care for them, we've spent so much time talking with each other and stuff, and the good ones still respond to me.  : 3   That's probably why going days without a reply from someone really rattles me.  I don't like to be forgotten.  : /  I hope that I leave a nice impression so people can at least remember me, if only that I talk a bunch and was kind, hah.  ^^