Stuff (An Update)

If you want to call it that.

Anyway, Jer is still awesome (I mean c'mon, I'm not really a person who changes their opinions that quickly on others).  But damn does he have terrible luck.  Like I partially want to just lock him away so shit stops happening to trouble him, lol, something like that.  I mean I am not a pet person so that idea is rather moot.  And he wouldn't agree to that, lest I locked myself away with him, lol, then maybe xD.

Tumblr is such a time-sink, forget tvtropes.  Its like Blogger but on massive roids, and way more likely to invoke triggers because people are dumb as dirt on there.

I see so many cases of reverse racism that it literally makes me sick to my stomach.  Hell, no, its just racism.  Whether you're white, black, red, blue, green or shining gold; if a third of your personal rants revolve around complaining about a group of people that boils down to "color-of-person_word-for-person", then by Jove, do you have loads of free time!  And what a waste of time and energy you're expending to inform the masses of your exceedingly asinine views and simply foolish tangents ping-ponging around your cranium.

Allow me to enlighten you.  First black guy I ever thought was attractive was pretty average looking, toned but kind of thin, and his equipment was pretty much average (like 6 or 7 in, which is not unreasonable).  Why did I like him?  Well, just the way he carried his self.  I won't lie that this was in a porno so meh, it just does make me mad people assume white men just want someone for their dick, especially generalizing that's their reason for being attracted to dark skinned people.  ESPECIALLY because I prefer ass.  There.  Race doesn't matter.  It's having a nice trunk and confidence, and not being a total moron that matters most to me.  Hell, I generally like people who seem smart and aren't afraid to show their emotions, their weaknesses, so that I can hopefully make them feel more understood, more normal, more loved.

Not to mention, I do not want to bottom, well, very rarely, and only for some people.  Like my one friend, he's okay and all even if he acts really stupid a lot and he's also a top; still, I'd NEVER bottom for him because he's too selfish.  I mean whenever I'd hypothetically bring up sleeping with him, that jackass would constantly insist I'd bottom for him first.  Makes me irrate.  And I refuse to acknowledge people who make me that mad.  So, no spooning with him, ever.

You want to turn me on?  Dick won't do it.  Ass helps, but its really just how you express yourself that I care about.  I'd rather have sex with someone who actually appears to be in love and happy and longing to be with me than someone who is confident but not a douche.  I'm really more of a sentimental person when it boils down to it... so all the hate and suspicion so many people harbor truly depresses me. : |

Few months ago I tried to both greet someone who was on my contact/friend list on a site and say I thought they were cute, and even added that I'm not really looking for sex, that what I said above is more the sort of guy I am.  And they responded by calling me a creep AND blocking me, not even letting me try to apologize for upsetting them : [.  It's not like I even hit on them; I really can't understand his thought process at all.

I try talking to Jer at times lately, and well, I wish I could always be in a good conversation-crafting mood.  Mostly its just a quick exchange.  Which honestly is okay, I hope.  I don't want him to feel unloved because... its a terrible feeling.  I would know.