'Kay, so I have a tumblr now. It's far less stuffy than this zone of long text. For anyone mildly interested or if you just need way less things to read, go here: if you dare. lol
If I need a serious vent, this shall always be reserved for such. Though I feel I've gotten better at managing my emotions through simple outlets like music, or taking my mind off it with pictures and video. I like to read way more than I enjoy writing anyway. Well, take care all of you.
SH2
Friday, April 3, 2015
Saturday, March 28, 2015
Old Habits Do Die Hard
I came to think a little about my past loves recently and realized that I've mostly been the same, when I'm in love. I've only dated three people (you could say three and a half as of last month but I don't quite count it since we have not once established a definite relationship) but each time... I've only been myself. The first two persons came to me in mutual interests, that is--we were friends first. And I'm not fully clear on my second relationship's beginnings, but the first was entirely the two of us realizing we wanted to go further. We were each other's first loves, despite being children. At age 11, we acted much like any other couple truly in love -- we spoke a lot with each other, laughed a lot, discovered things we never quite thought of before, we even had our own take on romantic excursions (which got me in so much trouble, haha, private school~). I suppose I take my feelings and others' so seriously because of this very strong, passionate start I had when it comes to matters of the heart. And I probably have a fondness for cute, simple things because one of my happiest memories is when my partner compared us to two magnetic kissing bear plushies they had received (from their parent, I believe, but its possible they bought them personally). The only true reason we separated was simply due to circumstance; at the end of that year, I was persuaded to leave that school due to personal issues affecting my ability to cope and function. Some of which, I'm happy to report, have mostly resolved as of late! But yeah... things could have been different, extensively so, if I never left.
But I did, and after some more odd circumstances culminating in my mother choosing to move to TX and me choosing to stay with my grandfather (since he seemed like the one who wanted me around the most out of my family over the previous 8 years of school life), I actually ended up in another relationship. This one began fairly similar, I think. I recall being friends before the fact and this one was more of a surprise when, I think, they asked me. I may have asked them though, after all, my past experience proved that friends could make fond lovers if both wanted it. And so I got to have a romantic kiss or two with a second person. I do recall liking it, but at the time, it couldn't shake the large weight that was bearing down on me. I think... part of me blames myself for my grandfather's health degradation and part of me feels my mother left me behind because she just didn't care enough about me, or that's how I used to feel, that much has (thankfully) improved. This relationship ended sooner than the last but we were able to remain at least amicable acquaintances after the fact, and that, I'm always happy to remember.
Relationship number 3... ahhhh.... I miss dis one a lot. Because the way it started was just me, looking for someone to talk to, and possibly to make a new friend. I had only gotten internet access at home about a year and a few months before randomly going on Quizilla (yeah, really) to take some quizzes in my spare time. And in doing so, I met this amazingly cute person. The funny thing is their skin (their face I recall most) was kinda funky, a few blemishes I suppose from acne perhaps but I did not once feel it detracted from their beauty. We spoke regularly for a few weeks, then formally asked if we'd like to date and both agreed. A few weeks after that, I met them on their 18th birthday, face to face, and had arguably the most amazing kiss I've ever experienced result from it. With that one kiss, I felt that this person cared for and truly wanted me, as they were (to my surprise) just ever so slightly assertive during it. Naturally, I liked it, they really knew I was there for them and let me know, "hey, I'm glad to have you, now take my tongue you big lug," hahaha (they were about 10 inches shorter than me, how adorable). You know, I should have followed this example and done so with the next person I had kissed... shhhh.... you heard nothing!
That relationship ended on some miscommunication but, going away, I don't think I did much wrong, I know I certainly intended no harm. I think I tend to reach out to people who make me think and really appreciate them as a friend before going all way. And I may run my mouth, but you know, a pure heart and a caring mind are behind it all. May the one who chooses me for their ever after, or even just until they've given me one honest try... may you know how much I want to love you, as your significant other, but still, as your friend, too.
Happiest wishes, readers. -R.B.
But I did, and after some more odd circumstances culminating in my mother choosing to move to TX and me choosing to stay with my grandfather (since he seemed like the one who wanted me around the most out of my family over the previous 8 years of school life), I actually ended up in another relationship. This one began fairly similar, I think. I recall being friends before the fact and this one was more of a surprise when, I think, they asked me. I may have asked them though, after all, my past experience proved that friends could make fond lovers if both wanted it. And so I got to have a romantic kiss or two with a second person. I do recall liking it, but at the time, it couldn't shake the large weight that was bearing down on me. I think... part of me blames myself for my grandfather's health degradation and part of me feels my mother left me behind because she just didn't care enough about me, or that's how I used to feel, that much has (thankfully) improved. This relationship ended sooner than the last but we were able to remain at least amicable acquaintances after the fact, and that, I'm always happy to remember.
Relationship number 3... ahhhh.... I miss dis one a lot. Because the way it started was just me, looking for someone to talk to, and possibly to make a new friend. I had only gotten internet access at home about a year and a few months before randomly going on Quizilla (yeah, really) to take some quizzes in my spare time. And in doing so, I met this amazingly cute person. The funny thing is their skin (their face I recall most) was kinda funky, a few blemishes I suppose from acne perhaps but I did not once feel it detracted from their beauty. We spoke regularly for a few weeks, then formally asked if we'd like to date and both agreed. A few weeks after that, I met them on their 18th birthday, face to face, and had arguably the most amazing kiss I've ever experienced result from it. With that one kiss, I felt that this person cared for and truly wanted me, as they were (to my surprise) just ever so slightly assertive during it. Naturally, I liked it, they really knew I was there for them and let me know, "hey, I'm glad to have you, now take my tongue you big lug," hahaha (they were about 10 inches shorter than me, how adorable). You know, I should have followed this example and done so with the next person I had kissed... shhhh.... you heard nothing!
That relationship ended on some miscommunication but, going away, I don't think I did much wrong, I know I certainly intended no harm. I think I tend to reach out to people who make me think and really appreciate them as a friend before going all way. And I may run my mouth, but you know, a pure heart and a caring mind are behind it all. May the one who chooses me for their ever after, or even just until they've given me one honest try... may you know how much I want to love you, as your significant other, but still, as your friend, too.
Happiest wishes, readers. -R.B.
Friday, March 20, 2015
The Hardest Thing to Do...
Is to keep smiling. To be positive so others don't feel more pain than they already have.
Each day, it's hard to keep smiling when...
-I'm given verbal grief and abuse due to my lack of money and my grandfather's stress over paying various expenses.
-I'm threatened to be isolated from my only source of stable socialization and open information (grandfather makes some empty, but no less harsh threat to stop paying for my internet).
-I feel lonely when no one is actively making an effort to talk to me.
-When trying to talk to anyone, I pray to high heaven that I'm not speaking at a bad time or saying the wrong thing.
-I don't really have a true family to speak of, not in the way I feel inside, and I just wish I had one, even if it might be with people to whom I'm not related. Family is just... the people that care about you without rhyme nor reason.
But I want to smile...
-to make it easier on the people I at least think I care about
-to stay receptive to positive and constructive feedback so I can keep improving
-to better realize that things aren't always as bad as they seem
-to accept change with better dignity
-because it may just encourage others to smile, too, and genuine smiles are beautiful
Yeah... I should just try to think of nice, beautiful things, that will help my mood, such as....
-kittens
-baby otters
-D____'s eyes
-his smile and a few other friend's smiles, too
-hyacinth in bloom
-loving, sickly sweet couples
-violin music
-singing songs to myself when I'm in a great mood
-singing songs for... someone I may just love
-when my mom seems happy and is actually around, making an effort to talk to me
-knowing I am worth smiling about
I'll be okay, yeah... I will. ^~^
Each day, it's hard to keep smiling when...
-I'm given verbal grief and abuse due to my lack of money and my grandfather's stress over paying various expenses.
-I'm threatened to be isolated from my only source of stable socialization and open information (grandfather makes some empty, but no less harsh threat to stop paying for my internet).
-I feel lonely when no one is actively making an effort to talk to me.
-When trying to talk to anyone, I pray to high heaven that I'm not speaking at a bad time or saying the wrong thing.
-I don't really have a true family to speak of, not in the way I feel inside, and I just wish I had one, even if it might be with people to whom I'm not related. Family is just... the people that care about you without rhyme nor reason.
But I want to smile...
-to make it easier on the people I at least think I care about
-to stay receptive to positive and constructive feedback so I can keep improving
-to better realize that things aren't always as bad as they seem
-to accept change with better dignity
-because it may just encourage others to smile, too, and genuine smiles are beautiful
Yeah... I should just try to think of nice, beautiful things, that will help my mood, such as....
-kittens
-baby otters
-D____'s eyes
-his smile and a few other friend's smiles, too
-hyacinth in bloom
-loving, sickly sweet couples
-violin music
-singing songs to myself when I'm in a great mood
-singing songs for... someone I may just love
-when my mom seems happy and is actually around, making an effort to talk to me
-knowing I am worth smiling about
I'll be okay, yeah... I will. ^~^
Sunday, March 15, 2015
Happy Tears
I shed some today. It's odd, it doesn't happen a lot even (for me to shed tears over sheer joy and relief) but it did this time. As I told a friend... the newest influence in my life is so kind, and really appears to care about me. After all my ranting and worrying... he still says he wants me to talk to him. Dis guy, dis guy!!!! (those are happy exclamations) I can live with his faults, very easily in fact, if this kindness, so rare and unexpected to find in this strange of a place as where I live and the surrounding towns... if it is his true self. Which it seems to be. And if he becomes accustomed to making eye contact with me as time goes on... dat's it, I'm committing to the guy then. Hahaha. ^w^
And he's so mature when it comes down to it. He really wants to do better for himself (jobs, education, etc.) and I am so proud, as a friend can be, I suppose. He wants this, even if it means not having too much time to spend time with me and it's so nice to hear how focused he is on it. I can deal with that, in fact I did offer to just be one more reason for him to smile if he feels overwhelmed from all the possible stress of his goals. I think that's the best I can do for now. In the coming summer months I personally hope to make a few small advancements on such things for myself, as it were. Its hard being semi-dependent (I say "semi" because I could handle being on my own if it were entirely necessary, I'd just be a bit dependent on some support until I secure employment, but my mom wants to help me on that, its my own personal contract that when and if I move to TX, I will try my best to get a job ASAP in the area and the location my mother lives at is very ripe with opportunities over all, far better than these sticks.) still, for now I must mostly endure. And perhaps give a special friend due kindness and support, in turn, I feel my life can only get better from where it has been (stifled for a while).
I can probably at least secure a driver's license before I think of moving. And hopefully a temporary job, lol, it would be nice to have some money for once. That I earned on my own merits alone. Further education for me can wait, I'm quite knowledgeable already to secure a job I'd at least like (c'mon, video game retail! *blows dice*). I'm not very interested in driving... but I do have another reason at least to pursue the option, for my sake and his, of course. Better than just for me, let me tell you! xD By myself, I just withdraw and settle being an indoor person, but I don't hate going places... especially with company that makes me feel all fuzzy, lolol.
I'm glad... I think I really did meet someone who can care about me for my kindness... and most other weird aspects of my personality. It was really worth the effort to talk to him over two months before now and continues to be. ^^ My enthusiasm will probably fizzle out in the long run... but the happiness I feel right now is irreplaceable. Thank you... I hope I can just give some of this back to you, dear friend.
And this calls for music, I feel. Time for a pretty, if dramatic song... haha.
Translated Lyrics:
I sway in the scarlet crimson red,
towards the end of my dream.
I cannot detach myself from you.
For countless times, I give up my progress and kill off my emotions.
With no place to go, my emotions are slowly awakening.
I understand very well that your unsullied smile
is an entity too cruelly distant from me.
Although my incurable wound keeps on gnawing away my heart,
even now I can't completely suppress my thoughts that dwell in the darkness.
I sway in the scarlet crimson red,
towards the end of my dream.
The destiny of our encounter begins to turn.
With this secret known to no one,
I keep falling deeper and deeper down.
With no doubt, I can no longer return to before, even if I atoned for my sins.
As I was walking in the abyss of loneliness, I was rescued
by a pair of real and never-changing eyes.
However, the brighter the light is,
the darker the shadow will be when it creeps up on me.
The two beating hearts are like a pair of mirrors facing each other;
their similar but different pains continue on endlessly.
Burning in a scarlet crimson red
and purging everything,
that unrivaled mirage is now in motion.
Transcending firmly
one transient night after another,
without a doubt, I cannot escape, even if I were to drown in my sins.
I sway in the scarlet crimson red,
towards the end of my dream.
The destiny of our encounter begins to turn.
With this secret known to no one,
I keep falling deeper and deeper down.
With no doubt, I can no longer return to before, even if I atoned for my sins.
And he's so mature when it comes down to it. He really wants to do better for himself (jobs, education, etc.) and I am so proud, as a friend can be, I suppose. He wants this, even if it means not having too much time to spend time with me and it's so nice to hear how focused he is on it. I can deal with that, in fact I did offer to just be one more reason for him to smile if he feels overwhelmed from all the possible stress of his goals. I think that's the best I can do for now. In the coming summer months I personally hope to make a few small advancements on such things for myself, as it were. Its hard being semi-dependent (I say "semi" because I could handle being on my own if it were entirely necessary, I'd just be a bit dependent on some support until I secure employment, but my mom wants to help me on that, its my own personal contract that when and if I move to TX, I will try my best to get a job ASAP in the area and the location my mother lives at is very ripe with opportunities over all, far better than these sticks.) still, for now I must mostly endure. And perhaps give a special friend due kindness and support, in turn, I feel my life can only get better from where it has been (stifled for a while).
I can probably at least secure a driver's license before I think of moving. And hopefully a temporary job, lol, it would be nice to have some money for once. That I earned on my own merits alone. Further education for me can wait, I'm quite knowledgeable already to secure a job I'd at least like (c'mon, video game retail! *blows dice*). I'm not very interested in driving... but I do have another reason at least to pursue the option, for my sake and his, of course. Better than just for me, let me tell you! xD By myself, I just withdraw and settle being an indoor person, but I don't hate going places... especially with company that makes me feel all fuzzy, lolol.
I'm glad... I think I really did meet someone who can care about me for my kindness... and most other weird aspects of my personality. It was really worth the effort to talk to him over two months before now and continues to be. ^^ My enthusiasm will probably fizzle out in the long run... but the happiness I feel right now is irreplaceable. Thank you... I hope I can just give some of this back to you, dear friend.
And this calls for music, I feel. Time for a pretty, if dramatic song... haha.
Translated Lyrics:
I sway in the scarlet crimson red,
towards the end of my dream.
I cannot detach myself from you.
For countless times, I give up my progress and kill off my emotions.
With no place to go, my emotions are slowly awakening.
I understand very well that your unsullied smile
is an entity too cruelly distant from me.
Although my incurable wound keeps on gnawing away my heart,
even now I can't completely suppress my thoughts that dwell in the darkness.
I sway in the scarlet crimson red,
towards the end of my dream.
The destiny of our encounter begins to turn.
With this secret known to no one,
I keep falling deeper and deeper down.
With no doubt, I can no longer return to before, even if I atoned for my sins.
As I was walking in the abyss of loneliness, I was rescued
by a pair of real and never-changing eyes.
However, the brighter the light is,
the darker the shadow will be when it creeps up on me.
The two beating hearts are like a pair of mirrors facing each other;
their similar but different pains continue on endlessly.
Burning in a scarlet crimson red
and purging everything,
that unrivaled mirage is now in motion.
Transcending firmly
one transient night after another,
without a doubt, I cannot escape, even if I were to drown in my sins.
I sway in the scarlet crimson red,
towards the end of my dream.
The destiny of our encounter begins to turn.
With this secret known to no one,
I keep falling deeper and deeper down.
With no doubt, I can no longer return to before, even if I atoned for my sins.
Thursday, March 12, 2015
Lil' Update in the Big Woods
Classic reference be stylin'. (Yeah I like the Little House books, more than the tv show adaptation but maybe that's just due to my love of books?)
-So, I seem to attract attention from people I have little interest in and can barely hold the attention of people I long to just open up and spend hours with sharing my mind and heart with and its really irking me. Whatever. I think I have a stalker, idk, I just try to ignore them and they aren't aggressive, just persistent. They keep "admiring" me on this one site so I automatically "skip" the notice when I see them pop up. This has gone on for a few months now but I don't hate the guy, I just don't know what to do. Get myself off the market? I can't be bothered to confront them though, too much hassle.
-In much, much lighter news... I'm resuming work on my on-going, constantly revised and never released FE rom hack (probably of Blazing Sword, but if Sacred Stones support expands enough, I wouldn't hate to use that as the base). Its mostly the roster that changes as sometimes I want to change people around whether it be altering their class or using new friends as the inspiration behind some characters. That's also why I tend to come up with so many possible ideas for actual games, period. Regardless, the inspirations are mostly just subtle nods to personality quirks at best, appearance rarely matches well, sprite limitations aside, I don't associate with the most aesthetically pleasing of people all the time and hell, I think I'm usually bland as heck to look at. Still, the look I give to characters, no matter the circumstance, tends to match their inspiration's spirit and what they impart in me... so they all look great in my eyes regardless if they're tall, short, fat, thin, muscular or what have you.
-The friend whom kinda left, kinda didn't; kinda hurt me, but probably didn't mean much by it... well, we're talking a little. I'm feeling okay enough but... he's still a bit quiet and I only wish I knew what I should do to help. I hope my current choice to just be quieter, not as over-sharing and patiently wait for responses is the right thing. I really like seeing them around... his smile is just... warmer than the sun in Summer. And it doesn't even hurt like the latter half, haha. ^w^ Although my sleep schedule is pretty normal lately and I don't really "see" them much. I get that I'm not a top priority, lol, but can I be at least number 108 on the list of 1000 priorities? xD Just saying. : 3
I hope things continue to get better for me, him, well, everything in general. ^^
-So, I seem to attract attention from people I have little interest in and can barely hold the attention of people I long to just open up and spend hours with sharing my mind and heart with and its really irking me. Whatever. I think I have a stalker, idk, I just try to ignore them and they aren't aggressive, just persistent. They keep "admiring" me on this one site so I automatically "skip" the notice when I see them pop up. This has gone on for a few months now but I don't hate the guy, I just don't know what to do. Get myself off the market? I can't be bothered to confront them though, too much hassle.
-In much, much lighter news... I'm resuming work on my on-going, constantly revised and never released FE rom hack (probably of Blazing Sword, but if Sacred Stones support expands enough, I wouldn't hate to use that as the base). Its mostly the roster that changes as sometimes I want to change people around whether it be altering their class or using new friends as the inspiration behind some characters. That's also why I tend to come up with so many possible ideas for actual games, period. Regardless, the inspirations are mostly just subtle nods to personality quirks at best, appearance rarely matches well, sprite limitations aside, I don't associate with the most aesthetically pleasing of people all the time and hell, I think I'm usually bland as heck to look at. Still, the look I give to characters, no matter the circumstance, tends to match their inspiration's spirit and what they impart in me... so they all look great in my eyes regardless if they're tall, short, fat, thin, muscular or what have you.
-The friend whom kinda left, kinda didn't; kinda hurt me, but probably didn't mean much by it... well, we're talking a little. I'm feeling okay enough but... he's still a bit quiet and I only wish I knew what I should do to help. I hope my current choice to just be quieter, not as over-sharing and patiently wait for responses is the right thing. I really like seeing them around... his smile is just... warmer than the sun in Summer. And it doesn't even hurt like the latter half, haha. ^w^ Although my sleep schedule is pretty normal lately and I don't really "see" them much. I get that I'm not a top priority, lol, but can I be at least number 108 on the list of 1000 priorities? xD Just saying. : 3
I hope things continue to get better for me, him, well, everything in general. ^^
Sunday, March 8, 2015
While You're Away (and more music, whee~)
I'll keep trying, to be kind and loving to people, so when you come back... it'll be as though you never left.
What I felt when I could talk to you freely was mostly relief, freedom, mutual understanding and so I was happy.
I'm very sorry if I've caused you any stress as it was never my intention... I just wanted to be a friend, true and constant. Taking interest in your life and feelings and trying to bring you happiness, because I was happy, too.
All you ever need do is tell me when you need me to "shut the hell up," and I'll gladly clam it. To deny me of that basic respect feels... cold, alien, like I've done something wrong. Why is it so hard to just be honest with me? If you're afraid I'll think lesser of you... stop. I won't. All I've ever done is be kind. So return a little, you stubborn twit. (Hah, that's a harsh joke though. You are stubborn but... I like you. You are your own person and you don't listen to reason very well, for better or worse, lolol.)
Okay then! With all that mellow-drama aired out, I'd like to lighten the mood. For the rest of you fearless readers, here's some music to listen to if you'd care to. ^^
Demetori - The Capital City of Flowers in the Sky ~ Bridge of the Lotus (arrangement)
Queen of Rose (Blazblue Calamity Trigger/Continuum Shift OST - Rachel's theme)
Raid of Redemption / Azrael (Drakengand 3 OST - Three's theme)
Take care, everyone.
What I felt when I could talk to you freely was mostly relief, freedom, mutual understanding and so I was happy.
I'm very sorry if I've caused you any stress as it was never my intention... I just wanted to be a friend, true and constant. Taking interest in your life and feelings and trying to bring you happiness, because I was happy, too.
All you ever need do is tell me when you need me to "shut the hell up," and I'll gladly clam it. To deny me of that basic respect feels... cold, alien, like I've done something wrong. Why is it so hard to just be honest with me? If you're afraid I'll think lesser of you... stop. I won't. All I've ever done is be kind. So return a little, you stubborn twit. (Hah, that's a harsh joke though. You are stubborn but... I like you. You are your own person and you don't listen to reason very well, for better or worse, lolol.)
Okay then! With all that mellow-drama aired out, I'd like to lighten the mood. For the rest of you fearless readers, here's some music to listen to if you'd care to. ^^
Demetori - The Capital City of Flowers in the Sky ~ Bridge of the Lotus (arrangement)
Queen of Rose (Blazblue Calamity Trigger/Continuum Shift OST - Rachel's theme)
Raid of Redemption / Azrael (Drakengand 3 OST - Three's theme)
Take care, everyone.
Saturday, March 7, 2015
Completely Hypothetical Ideas for a remake of FF VIII
So, if I were given an opportunity to remake this game (which is a great game in its own right, props to Square and the team that worked on it as you guys were the big reason I ever bought a Playstation and got into japanese-style role playing video games), it would be that... a near total remake from the ground up.
Mostly new/re-imagined game-play mechanics, an expanded (less confusing) story and a bit more character depth (in addition to fully playable Xu(!!) and possibly the Disciplinary Committee (less exciting for me, I am biased though). One big idea I thought of was what to do with the Draw system. Whilst I am fine with keeping GFs (Guardian Forces) mostly as they are (with major retooling of their skill system), I think drawing "magic" from enemies is dumb and way, Way too exploitable. In addition, the classic system essentially makes casting magic nearly useless in battle (though that is also due to most foes having an inflated Spirit stat as their levels climb) so I think it really has to be done away with for the sake of player sanity and overall game challenge (a game needn't be balls-hard, but it should still put up a real test at times, in my opinion).
So, my idea is to remove "Draw" (and Draw Points by association). And (in theory) do the the following...
1). Characters will automatically learn traditional spells (in tune with FF series lore) as they level up, creating a pseudo job-system of character roles between them, further reinforced by their limit breaks.
2). Instead of accruing AP, defeating (and only by defeating) enemies will earn the player "elemental essences" which can be stored and redeemed (using GFs as the intermediary) for various passive bonuses and perks. (such as "No Encounters")
3). The elements gained are based on the enemy type and strength. Enemies will no longer scale in level with the player (and player characters grow in a more standard fashion with other PS2/3-era games) so it is not advisable to waste time "grinding" off weaker enemies just to get more abilities sooner, game progression is encouraged.
4). Only up to 3 GFs can be equipped per character and GFs no longer have "health" (so players are at minor risk when summoning one in battle) but will be ever more helpful. As the GF's level increases, they will automatically grant passive bonuses to the equipped character (beyond what the character can equip once enough points have been tallied).
As you can see.... that's a pretty big change. But I feel it offers a good deal of freedom still and encourages much experimentation which the whole draw/junction system of yore also did. There's way, way more things that can be given new life in this game, but for now, I'm content even just imagining how it would play just with the above in effect.... not bad, eh? ^w^
Mostly new/re-imagined game-play mechanics, an expanded (less confusing) story and a bit more character depth (in addition to fully playable Xu(!!) and possibly the Disciplinary Committee (less exciting for me, I am biased though). One big idea I thought of was what to do with the Draw system. Whilst I am fine with keeping GFs (Guardian Forces) mostly as they are (with major retooling of their skill system), I think drawing "magic" from enemies is dumb and way, Way too exploitable. In addition, the classic system essentially makes casting magic nearly useless in battle (though that is also due to most foes having an inflated Spirit stat as their levels climb) so I think it really has to be done away with for the sake of player sanity and overall game challenge (a game needn't be balls-hard, but it should still put up a real test at times, in my opinion).
So, my idea is to remove "Draw" (and Draw Points by association). And (in theory) do the the following...
1). Characters will automatically learn traditional spells (in tune with FF series lore) as they level up, creating a pseudo job-system of character roles between them, further reinforced by their limit breaks.
2). Instead of accruing AP, defeating (and only by defeating) enemies will earn the player "elemental essences" which can be stored and redeemed (using GFs as the intermediary) for various passive bonuses and perks. (such as "No Encounters")
3). The elements gained are based on the enemy type and strength. Enemies will no longer scale in level with the player (and player characters grow in a more standard fashion with other PS2/3-era games) so it is not advisable to waste time "grinding" off weaker enemies just to get more abilities sooner, game progression is encouraged.
4). Only up to 3 GFs can be equipped per character and GFs no longer have "health" (so players are at minor risk when summoning one in battle) but will be ever more helpful. As the GF's level increases, they will automatically grant passive bonuses to the equipped character (beyond what the character can equip once enough points have been tallied).
As you can see.... that's a pretty big change. But I feel it offers a good deal of freedom still and encourages much experimentation which the whole draw/junction system of yore also did. There's way, way more things that can be given new life in this game, but for now, I'm content even just imagining how it would play just with the above in effect.... not bad, eh? ^w^
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)