Some music for your thoughts?

*deep breath*

Ugh, what a day...  you ever get that overly nervous, "sitting on pins and needles" feeling after you try something completely impromptu yet really, you're hoping you get something good out of it?  Yet, you're so disillusioned from prior disappointments that you just have a hard time relaxing despite knowing that whatever you're trying is really what you want, hence the hope for that something good?  Yeah, that's today for me.

I'm such a wreck after trying to introduce myself to new people, especially via social networking sites, because when it comes after weeding through people after a search for "well, um, maybe I can find someone actually in my area-ish to date", I feel like such a floozy.  I say hi but like, I gotta explain why I'm saying hi so then I start rambling a bit and just... hope like heck some of my sincerity made it through.

But I complained and worried enough about my stupidity already to some friends.  So, I'm just going to wait to see if I do get a response, then maybe just try another message later to let them know I was really sincere about wanting to talk to them and maybe get to know the dude.  As for their cuteness, well, I'll try to control my rude but sensually aggressive nature; try to let my own kindness and such carry me through, yeah?

So, music helps me relax and cope at times, I do believe I'll just share a few ones I really like, add a bit more than just word babble to this blog, eh?

An awesome remix of an awesome Touhou theme.  Thinking of Yuyuko w/ this awesome metal remix reminds me that, like her, I'm a food nut.  Y'know, I'm really content watching stuff on Food Network almost all the time because it's just, so cool to learn stuff about food and cooking as whole is something I like doing and talking about.  But, I wouldn't enjoy a serious job in the restaurant business since I'm eh, a bit clutzy and I'm not good with a lot of intricate work.  And, it's a really tough and stressful atmosphere in a professional kitchen.  I'd like something that challenges my knowledge but without quite that level of pressure.  Just cooking with a significant other someday and to enjoy life like people such as the Neelys do... I'm really romantic I guess, heh.

... Law & Order: SVU  Marathon ( <3 ) sapping up the rest of my night;  oh well, more later