Punny title has puns. But it is fitting. Sort of. My thoughts are rarely that organized anyway. It should be obvious since most of this blog (collectively, not this post alone) is ranting and raving. Indubitably.
So for those who may be unaware, (okay, that is likely a vast majority of the world but the small collective of people who've read this blog are likely more aware) my Myers-Briggs personality typology classifies me as INFJ (the J portion is so gray that INFP also fits me just as much). That is to say...
I am introverted, meaning I am usually more interested in ideas than on what's going on around me ("I"). I learn in a more abstract manner than from concrete facts ("N"). I make decisions based on how I believe myself and others are affected personally rather than being supported by impersonal cause and effect ("F"). And I very slightly prefer order and planning when it comes to others than I do leaving things to spontaneity ("J"). (That last bit is undoubtedly true, especially when it comes to other people making decisions for me--which I truly loathe, I wish to be consulted with due notice on most accounts unless it is utterly urgent, like life-or-death).
The fact I am introverted does alienate me a lot in regards to my grandfather, who constantly expresses his want for me to "get out and socialize" which is just something that never was my interest. Honestly, I prefer to sit, indoors, reading most of the day, sometimes talking with friends and that is about it... it's enough to offer me a small degree of contentedness. Yet this is so foreign to him that he always berates me for my lack of desire to do much and often threatens to cut me off from doing so just to coerce me into seeking alternative outlets. I AM NOT YOU! (to grandfather) I don't like talking to every random person I happen to know when passing them in public, the way you do. I don't enjoy "get togethers", and I do not enjoy divulging my private life to anyone other than me and the persons involved. (this is a reference to his past history of eavesdropping on my phone conversations, even those with my mother, no less) I am not attending counseling to "change my ways", it's so someone can listen to me in the way you seem entirely incapable of doing. Unbiased, yet willing out of concern. Honest and fair if they need to be, never forceful. It's no wonder I find most aggression such a turn off because you yell at me so easily for the most minor of grievances. I don't hate you, but you make it very difficult for me to live in happiness to the point I can barely go through a holiday without crying over your STUPID, ASININE STUBBORNNESS.
... I really needed to vent that, my apologies to the readers.
A fair portion of my friends are introverted but it is not necessarily a precursor for my basis of relationships. Of the three people I have (up to the present) felt intimately attached to and wanted in a complete sense, the first was introverted, the second was borderline (more extroverted than me but similar in other aspects) and the third, current one is probably extroverted (he seems so). And I am fine with that. Because, in the present and any future case, I will do everything to make my partner feel like they are the most important thing in the world. I may not hit one over the head with it, (it's okay if we don't talk every day) but it is my desire. To me, they are (excluding my own life, not me personally, but I will not die for anyone, in simple words). I am able to exert a degree of dominance when I deem it necessary but honestly, as long as you don't give in to promiscuity nor do anything to harm yourself or others, you can do pretty much anything you would want in a relationship with me. Because I value freedom, especially emotional freedoms. To feel like your heart is free, to grow and continuously give love where it's due is really one of the few ideals that keeps me sane and mildly optimistic. I would like to think that's something my boyfriend likes about me, since he's said he does feel like I truly care about him (which is one of the best compliments one can receive, in my opinion). Yes.
SH2
Thursday, December 26, 2013
Thursday, October 24, 2013
Bored Now...
Yeah, really...
+2 respect points if you realized this post's title is a quote and +3 more if you correctly guess what it's from.
It's sorta half-true, though. Jerod returned to speak with me again. My inner reaction to this can be summarized as follows: "F*king Yes! YES!!!" Pretty much.
It was hard because I went well over a month without hearing from him and I just... love him so much. I tend to jinx myself everytime I say that about someone but each time I meant it, so ya know what? I don't care!
He's doing better it seems, he has a job. So, I'm happy about that. I should think about either applying more or *shudder* driving. It's hard to get behind the idea of the latter. Had a few close calls early on when I was riding with my mom early on in life, but nothing too serious, I think. I only vaguely remember the events anyway. It just bores me so (driving). I'm not much of an outgoing sort as well. But I would go most anywhere with Jerod. I want to spend as much time as I can in his company when I have the chances. ^^
So I know I mainly want to drive uh, in case of real emergency and to see him sooner. Despite that, I have limited income for now so that's a less tempting option. Work's always been slack in my immediate area, too. Hmm, well maybe I'll just keep an extra eye out for openings (mostly small store positions if anything).
I should preface that I don't like going out by myself. It really depends on who is with me (solo, yeah probably not going to anything). I enjoy being with friends but I haven't had many, even fewer that lived in my neighborhood. I try to reach out online though.
I saw this posted on someone's tumblr, but let's be real here.
Hmm, I think this is all I wish to say for now~.
+2 respect points if you realized this post's title is a quote and +3 more if you correctly guess what it's from.
It's sorta half-true, though. Jerod returned to speak with me again. My inner reaction to this can be summarized as follows: "F*king Yes! YES!!!" Pretty much.
It was hard because I went well over a month without hearing from him and I just... love him so much. I tend to jinx myself everytime I say that about someone but each time I meant it, so ya know what? I don't care!
He's doing better it seems, he has a job. So, I'm happy about that. I should think about either applying more or *shudder* driving. It's hard to get behind the idea of the latter. Had a few close calls early on when I was riding with my mom early on in life, but nothing too serious, I think. I only vaguely remember the events anyway. It just bores me so (driving). I'm not much of an outgoing sort as well. But I would go most anywhere with Jerod. I want to spend as much time as I can in his company when I have the chances. ^^
So I know I mainly want to drive uh, in case of real emergency and to see him sooner. Despite that, I have limited income for now so that's a less tempting option. Work's always been slack in my immediate area, too. Hmm, well maybe I'll just keep an extra eye out for openings (mostly small store positions if anything).
I should preface that I don't like going out by myself. It really depends on who is with me (solo, yeah probably not going to anything). I enjoy being with friends but I haven't had many, even fewer that lived in my neighborhood. I try to reach out online though.
I saw this posted on someone's tumblr, but let's be real here.
what girls think guys do at sleepovers:(what kinda guys are these? only the last one is even remotely realistic, ho!)
what guys really do at sleepovers:
- play xbox
- rate girls at their school
- smoke weed
- gay sex
- anal fisting
- make out sessions
what RB does at sleepovers:
- play xbox (or whatever videogames are available)
- gaze longingly at the boyfriend and more or less cuddle him into a coma ('cause no way I'm going to any sleepover otherwise)
- eat everyone's leftovers lest its things I don't like (lol, my childhood and early teens right there)
Hmm, I think this is all I wish to say for now~.
Thursday, September 26, 2013
I Answer Some Questions; and stuff~
Have to say, I always love answering questions. Well, particularly personal questions that don't offend me (most don't). And so I will. All of these particular ones are from Tab Kimpton's kickstarter project which ultimately will lead him to continuing the story of his popular(?) webcomic: Khaos. It's pretty good; centers around teenage/young adult gay, trans and people in general. 'Course they could all be straight and it'd hardly change anything, just how things turn out because you can't really change their personality and history without drastically altering the series as it is. Pretty much though, most of the characters aren't that... outspoken except perhaps Tom (who's honestly a jerk but frequently made aware of it, lol).
I haven't heard from Jer still; I do hope he's okay and I'm wondering--if he is around, why isn't he trying to really talk to me? Did I do something wrong? I don't have any reason to hate him, even if (heaven forbid) he was disloyal to me, so what? That doesn't mean I love him any less. I'm pretty much at the point where... yeah, if I'm sorta going with someone and they cheat on me, I'll hardly care. I'll be disappointed but so what? As long as I never hurt them, I don't really see why they should turn from me. What hurts is simply not knowing... not hearing from a person you're genuinely happy to be around. It's like a hug with no squeeze, a sandwich with no cheese, it's just... empty. I wish he would even try to call me or something... his voice was really nice, judging by what little I've heard of it, at least.
So anywhose... questionnes!
Are catboys hot? Y/N?
Who do you think you're talking to? Of course they are; cats are pretty cool irl and so men acting like cats--always rather adorable. Give or take some habits. I generally prefer them over catgirls just because catgirls tend to be done to death. But what bothers me are when people who really don't suit them play them anyway. Some people just suit other animals more and there's nothing more grating than pretending to be what you're not.
Food sex? Y/N?
Okay, it depends on what it is. Like pizza toppings, you could work them into foreplay. So my answer is, uh, sure--as long as I can clean up in between. And naturally he and I would need to pre-approve whatever's involved. (Never spring this on me or I will be livid).
What's the coolest outfit you imagine your favorite original character in? (this was limited to Khaos by the ask-er but I thought to expand it for my own sanity; all Khaos characters belong to Tab anyway)
This one will be a while... *now calculating... now calculating...*
Well I'll go with the OC closest to me (Ran) even though I don't truly treat them as a self-insert (even then, I pretty much pick at all my flaws regularly with them) soo... typically a Beret (the hat), some type of vest or sweater, simple pants (possibly leather) and some black leather boots so polished they shine... lol. Idk, I like simple designs, call me strange! What would I call it? Um... its kind of a cross between formal wear and street gang. High class punk? No clue~.
Who's your favorite (fictional or not) friend(s)? Strictly platonic.
Well, that would have to be Alexander (even if he never reads this; also that is not his real name). In fact, we don't always agree on much. But he's always there to listen to me. I'll admit, it hurts sometimes when he just doesn't get my opinion on things. But unlike many people, (as very few fit this) he's there, a lot. That really is pretty important. And unlike a few others who come close, I don't have to hold anything back. (just being able to share everything is a great boon and I can't with everyone because of making people uncomfortable with certain truths and things I like)
Ever had a crush on a friend's sibling?
Well that depends on what you define as "friend". If acquaintance counts, yes, seeing as I spoke to my first boyfriend's sister a bit before he and I truly were dating for a bit. So, only technically. (since I was going with her brother and not opposed to her as a person)
If your characters were fruit, what would they be?
God I don't like fruit as much as vegetables (which I actually did make a comparison, months ago).
But I'll try... (only going to go with my most common ones)
Ran - pineapple; tall, rather mellow, very sweet, has a starkly misleading exterior (ironically, I personally loathe pineapples!)
Boh - blueberry; bit of an acquired taste and only really speaks [to me] when baked into a dessert which speaks of his personality -- it has to grow on you and you either like it or don't and despite his "raw taste", he can surprise you (like blueberry muffins)
Alexander - lime; he can come off sour, but he compliments those he associates well (just as limes mingle well in savory and sweet dishes with other ingredients), he would be missed if he left just as you might miss the lime if taken out of anything that typically calls for it
Jeauno - grape; kinda fragile and has been known to be overextended, but even so, she comes off friendly and good company when you're down (this is a wine metaphor)
Mica - pumpkin; cute, but unpredictable just as there are many shapes and sizes of the pumpkin; his true self is just as playful and wholesome as his outside; pumpkins also make great sweet dishes (and he likes to bake, how fitting~)
If someone gives you flowers, what kind would they be?
Oh, I would love hyacinth, because they have a mythological story behind their name that I like (the story). And they're purple! But any flower would be fine. ^^
What's the best tea you ever tasted?
That would be "none" because the taste of tea, and hot drinks in general, is not something I like much at all. I don't really like iced tea either.
Have you ever had the 'fireworks' feeling in romance novels of old?
Well, not quite. Close, probably. But I hope to, eventually.
If you had a biographical profile written on you, what would be your "likes and dislikes"? Up to three of each.
Likes: jRPGs, shades of purple, open communication
Dislikes: hot drinks, "kinks", competing
Given no money constraints and pain receptions, what body modification would you have done?
You want an honest answer? Possibly liposuction. But really, just get rid of half my body fat and fit my skin to match and I would be pretty darn content. I'm not into tattoos or piercings enough to seriously consider any for myself. : |
What's your least favorite body part?
Quick answer--genitals. Otherwise... I don't believe I have anything I dislike or as easily repulsed by (man or woman).
Do you prefer Summer or Winter, and why?
Winter. I hate being hot and its easier for me to compensate if I do feel too cold. And its a much better time for cuddling... which I want~.
What's the sexiest national clothing to you?
Clothes... this is a hard question because I don't have much of an interest in fashion. I just don't care, truly.
What's the best present you ever received?
Computers are pretty darn important, so I'll say those, even if only my grandfather gave me the majority of presents I ever received.
Favorite sport? How about your least favorite?
I like to watch tennis a lot actually (not that I often do though). I really don't care for football or wrestling though. It's hard to think of which I dislike more.
Can you chill in just your underwear, even around other people?
Easily actually, I do so a lot. But I dress in a bit more around less personal company (usually I'm left to myself on most days and I've answered the door in just boxers before, I don't do this intentionally though, it depends how harried I am). I dislike being totally bare though.
What's your favorite color of underwear?
I don't have one. Not fond of most reds and pink though.
What's the nicest place for hair to be on the body?
Not counting the head? Eh, I don't really care as long as its not too thick (not fond of beards or shag in general)
Do you have an inner-self that says all the horrible/perverted things you can't?
I would say no; I'm pretty much the same offline as I type hear. I just won't talk that much unless I choose to/feel up to it. I can be as honest as I need to be and generally speaking, I'm not that perverted, not compared to many other people I'm aware of.
Bye for now, people!
I haven't heard from Jer still; I do hope he's okay and I'm wondering--if he is around, why isn't he trying to really talk to me? Did I do something wrong? I don't have any reason to hate him, even if (heaven forbid) he was disloyal to me, so what? That doesn't mean I love him any less. I'm pretty much at the point where... yeah, if I'm sorta going with someone and they cheat on me, I'll hardly care. I'll be disappointed but so what? As long as I never hurt them, I don't really see why they should turn from me. What hurts is simply not knowing... not hearing from a person you're genuinely happy to be around. It's like a hug with no squeeze, a sandwich with no cheese, it's just... empty. I wish he would even try to call me or something... his voice was really nice, judging by what little I've heard of it, at least.
So anywhose... questionnes!
Are catboys hot? Y/N?
Who do you think you're talking to? Of course they are; cats are pretty cool irl and so men acting like cats--always rather adorable. Give or take some habits. I generally prefer them over catgirls just because catgirls tend to be done to death. But what bothers me are when people who really don't suit them play them anyway. Some people just suit other animals more and there's nothing more grating than pretending to be what you're not.
Food sex? Y/N?
Okay, it depends on what it is. Like pizza toppings, you could work them into foreplay. So my answer is, uh, sure--as long as I can clean up in between. And naturally he and I would need to pre-approve whatever's involved. (Never spring this on me or I will be livid).
What's the coolest outfit you imagine your favorite original character in? (this was limited to Khaos by the ask-er but I thought to expand it for my own sanity; all Khaos characters belong to Tab anyway)
This one will be a while... *now calculating... now calculating...*
Well I'll go with the OC closest to me (Ran) even though I don't truly treat them as a self-insert (even then, I pretty much pick at all my flaws regularly with them) soo... typically a Beret (the hat), some type of vest or sweater, simple pants (possibly leather) and some black leather boots so polished they shine... lol. Idk, I like simple designs, call me strange! What would I call it? Um... its kind of a cross between formal wear and street gang. High class punk? No clue~.
Who's your favorite (fictional or not) friend(s)? Strictly platonic.
Well, that would have to be Alexander (even if he never reads this; also that is not his real name). In fact, we don't always agree on much. But he's always there to listen to me. I'll admit, it hurts sometimes when he just doesn't get my opinion on things. But unlike many people, (as very few fit this) he's there, a lot. That really is pretty important. And unlike a few others who come close, I don't have to hold anything back. (just being able to share everything is a great boon and I can't with everyone because of making people uncomfortable with certain truths and things I like)
Ever had a crush on a friend's sibling?
Well that depends on what you define as "friend". If acquaintance counts, yes, seeing as I spoke to my first boyfriend's sister a bit before he and I truly were dating for a bit. So, only technically. (since I was going with her brother and not opposed to her as a person)
If your characters were fruit, what would they be?
God I don't like fruit as much as vegetables (which I actually did make a comparison, months ago).
But I'll try... (only going to go with my most common ones)
Ran - pineapple; tall, rather mellow, very sweet, has a starkly misleading exterior (ironically, I personally loathe pineapples!)
Boh - blueberry; bit of an acquired taste and only really speaks [to me] when baked into a dessert which speaks of his personality -- it has to grow on you and you either like it or don't and despite his "raw taste", he can surprise you (like blueberry muffins)
Alexander - lime; he can come off sour, but he compliments those he associates well (just as limes mingle well in savory and sweet dishes with other ingredients), he would be missed if he left just as you might miss the lime if taken out of anything that typically calls for it
Jeauno - grape; kinda fragile and has been known to be overextended, but even so, she comes off friendly and good company when you're down (this is a wine metaphor)
Mica - pumpkin; cute, but unpredictable just as there are many shapes and sizes of the pumpkin; his true self is just as playful and wholesome as his outside; pumpkins also make great sweet dishes (and he likes to bake, how fitting~)
If someone gives you flowers, what kind would they be?
Oh, I would love hyacinth, because they have a mythological story behind their name that I like (the story). And they're purple! But any flower would be fine. ^^
What's the best tea you ever tasted?
That would be "none" because the taste of tea, and hot drinks in general, is not something I like much at all. I don't really like iced tea either.
Have you ever had the 'fireworks' feeling in romance novels of old?
Well, not quite. Close, probably. But I hope to, eventually.
If you had a biographical profile written on you, what would be your "likes and dislikes"? Up to three of each.
Likes: jRPGs, shades of purple, open communication
Dislikes: hot drinks, "kinks", competing
Given no money constraints and pain receptions, what body modification would you have done?
You want an honest answer? Possibly liposuction. But really, just get rid of half my body fat and fit my skin to match and I would be pretty darn content. I'm not into tattoos or piercings enough to seriously consider any for myself. : |
What's your least favorite body part?
Quick answer--genitals. Otherwise... I don't believe I have anything I dislike or as easily repulsed by (man or woman).
Do you prefer Summer or Winter, and why?
Winter. I hate being hot and its easier for me to compensate if I do feel too cold. And its a much better time for cuddling... which I want~.
What's the sexiest national clothing to you?
Clothes... this is a hard question because I don't have much of an interest in fashion. I just don't care, truly.
What's the best present you ever received?
Computers are pretty darn important, so I'll say those, even if only my grandfather gave me the majority of presents I ever received.
Favorite sport? How about your least favorite?
I like to watch tennis a lot actually (not that I often do though). I really don't care for football or wrestling though. It's hard to think of which I dislike more.
Can you chill in just your underwear, even around other people?
Easily actually, I do so a lot. But I dress in a bit more around less personal company (usually I'm left to myself on most days and I've answered the door in just boxers before, I don't do this intentionally though, it depends how harried I am). I dislike being totally bare though.
What's your favorite color of underwear?
I don't have one. Not fond of most reds and pink though.
What's the nicest place for hair to be on the body?
Not counting the head? Eh, I don't really care as long as its not too thick (not fond of beards or shag in general)
Do you have an inner-self that says all the horrible/perverted things you can't?
I would say no; I'm pretty much the same offline as I type hear. I just won't talk that much unless I choose to/feel up to it. I can be as honest as I need to be and generally speaking, I'm not that perverted, not compared to many other people I'm aware of.
Bye for now, people!
Thursday, September 12, 2013
Saccharine-Induced Headache
Maybe. It really hurts... okay its not the worst I've had but it won't... bloody... go... away; AAAAAGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Dammit I miss Jerod, like I miss him so much I wonder if that's part of why my head hurts. Possibly. The past few nights its hard to think of anything else because um, well I haven't heard from him in roughly 3 weeks now. Idk, it feels like ages. Y'know, when you get used to a daily habit and it just goes *poof*. No wonder people get so hooked on drugs, sort of. On one hand, I'm kind of glad he's not coming on to me right now... I am in no position to refuse, well, at least if the pain stops entirely first. And of course I'm not really looking for any replacements either... I can hold out a while for people, its one of my better qualities, I am patient. I also am a big procrastinator anyway, kinda need to be patient... with myself, lol.
I think I am way overstressed for a person who actually does so little. You could say its the fervor and depth of what little I do that is so draining on my physique and psyche that yeah, I do tire easily for a person not doing much. I have some stamina but boy does it get wracked on a daily basis. The emotional torment I have to endure every damn time my grandfather talks about my weight and appearance with utterly no tact, it could break a lesser man. I don't hate him, I hate how he chooses to express himself with such crass and biggotry. And do not talk to me about his personal health which seems to be failing him lately. Pot calling kettles black is what he's amounting to, pretty much.
It's not even him that's the sole cause of my stress. I was utterly livid when I read a comment on the aesthetic design of a fictional character where some Imbecile called out a character on having "nigger lips" (direct quote) and that being unappealing to that commentator. Oh my loving God, someone, SMITE this person. Please? Pretty please? I would be eternally grateful. You don't say such stupid things, AAAAAGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! *headdesk*
Small update: pain's a little less significant at the moment, venting might be helping pass the time of recovery.
In other news, I am having way too much enjoyment picking up Exit Fate and raising most of the army's levels to obscene numbers. I don't think you can feasibly hit lv99 without excessive grinding (to the simple point of tedious) but dang if it isn't fun getting everyone up to 85+ (which is all you need to finish everything including the completely optional content). I really like running theme parties based on the relation boosts (which is why Daniel works so well with Jovian and Angel) but its hard to get a diverse party with significant boosts as many mages favor other mages and you really don't need more than two (or one if their really solid like Midian, Myst or Mai) dedicated spell-slingers on your team; and warriors tend to enjoy each others' company; that said, a Matrech-themed group of Erin, Jasper, Carson, Merrick, Charles Ryan and Beau is very sound and balanced even if its hard to determine who to place up front with Erin (probably Merrick, second best physical defense of them which is all that matters for people in the vanguard). I wish the game had a few more female characters though, I don't like the ratio even if people are namby-pamby about women in combat, hey their are plenty of women in the armed forces nowdays, you're allowed to cast them in fictional combat, too! Stupid sexist imbeciles. Every straight male is such a spineless scrod around the concept of female dominance, and people wonder why I prefer homo/bisexual friends to converse with. They aren't following all your nonsensical rules. Rules that prevent people that love each other from being treated as humanely and justly (as in, with equal rights and privileges) as everyone else ARE ASININE. Now I don't mean you should be allowed to marry any little thing, but two consenting adults should be entitled as long as they are clearly in sound mind and intent.
Oh, right. IF you like a man or woman, then it does not matter what's going on downstairs. You either like men, women, both, or none at all. It's that simple. TRANS MEN ARE MEN. TRANS WOMEN ARE WOMEN. Never think you are suddenly straight, bi or pan because you, a primarily gay male, thought a trans man was hot. He's a MAN you IMBECILE! (obviously this was bugging me a lot because some loser dared suggest they were anything but gay when they found a guy they were attracted to wasn't always a guy on the outside; it's what's inside that matters! ugh, I hate shallow people, so, SO much!)
I'll share with you another sweet dream, next night.
(Vampire Knight 4 Lyfe; YUS!!!)
Dammit I miss Jerod, like I miss him so much I wonder if that's part of why my head hurts. Possibly. The past few nights its hard to think of anything else because um, well I haven't heard from him in roughly 3 weeks now. Idk, it feels like ages. Y'know, when you get used to a daily habit and it just goes *poof*. No wonder people get so hooked on drugs, sort of. On one hand, I'm kind of glad he's not coming on to me right now... I am in no position to refuse, well, at least if the pain stops entirely first. And of course I'm not really looking for any replacements either... I can hold out a while for people, its one of my better qualities, I am patient. I also am a big procrastinator anyway, kinda need to be patient... with myself, lol.
I think I am way overstressed for a person who actually does so little. You could say its the fervor and depth of what little I do that is so draining on my physique and psyche that yeah, I do tire easily for a person not doing much. I have some stamina but boy does it get wracked on a daily basis. The emotional torment I have to endure every damn time my grandfather talks about my weight and appearance with utterly no tact, it could break a lesser man. I don't hate him, I hate how he chooses to express himself with such crass and biggotry. And do not talk to me about his personal health which seems to be failing him lately. Pot calling kettles black is what he's amounting to, pretty much.
It's not even him that's the sole cause of my stress. I was utterly livid when I read a comment on the aesthetic design of a fictional character where some Imbecile called out a character on having "nigger lips" (direct quote) and that being unappealing to that commentator. Oh my loving God, someone, SMITE this person. Please? Pretty please? I would be eternally grateful. You don't say such stupid things, AAAAAGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! *headdesk*
Small update: pain's a little less significant at the moment, venting might be helping pass the time of recovery.
In other news, I am having way too much enjoyment picking up Exit Fate and raising most of the army's levels to obscene numbers. I don't think you can feasibly hit lv99 without excessive grinding (to the simple point of tedious) but dang if it isn't fun getting everyone up to 85+ (which is all you need to finish everything including the completely optional content). I really like running theme parties based on the relation boosts (which is why Daniel works so well with Jovian and Angel) but its hard to get a diverse party with significant boosts as many mages favor other mages and you really don't need more than two (or one if their really solid like Midian, Myst or Mai) dedicated spell-slingers on your team; and warriors tend to enjoy each others' company; that said, a Matrech-themed group of Erin, Jasper, Carson, Merrick, Charles Ryan and Beau is very sound and balanced even if its hard to determine who to place up front with Erin (probably Merrick, second best physical defense of them which is all that matters for people in the vanguard). I wish the game had a few more female characters though, I don't like the ratio even if people are namby-pamby about women in combat, hey their are plenty of women in the armed forces nowdays, you're allowed to cast them in fictional combat, too! Stupid sexist imbeciles. Every straight male is such a spineless scrod around the concept of female dominance, and people wonder why I prefer homo/bisexual friends to converse with. They aren't following all your nonsensical rules. Rules that prevent people that love each other from being treated as humanely and justly (as in, with equal rights and privileges) as everyone else ARE ASININE. Now I don't mean you should be allowed to marry any little thing, but two consenting adults should be entitled as long as they are clearly in sound mind and intent.
Oh, right. IF you like a man or woman, then it does not matter what's going on downstairs. You either like men, women, both, or none at all. It's that simple. TRANS MEN ARE MEN. TRANS WOMEN ARE WOMEN. Never think you are suddenly straight, bi or pan because you, a primarily gay male, thought a trans man was hot. He's a MAN you IMBECILE! (obviously this was bugging me a lot because some loser dared suggest they were anything but gay when they found a guy they were attracted to wasn't always a guy on the outside; it's what's inside that matters! ugh, I hate shallow people, so, SO much!)
I'll share with you another sweet dream, next night.
(Vampire Knight 4 Lyfe; YUS!!!)
Thursday, August 29, 2013
Absolute Truths (may contain contradictions)
-cannot stand the slash pairing of Emmeryn/Gangrel; totally copacetic with Emmeryn/Aversa
-Vaike/everyone is personal head-canon; Male Robin/all males also works
-everyone who states they'd be okay with Chrom/Lissa should just go sleep with their own sibling already
-does not like being fat; perfectly fine with concept of male pregnancy
-would utterly break all your teeth if self (re: me) were impregnated
-everyone who likes RPGs should play Exit Fate... Now.
-would be fine with just a single, particular order of chinese cuisine (tends to re-order same takeout a lot), water, and raw broccolli everyday for the rest of life
-now honestly considering the above statement
-more people need to be open to frot/scissoring (same concept really)
-you want to know what I want? just an honest, hard-working (strongly preferred) male who doesn't smoke, nor uses drugs and is employed; why is that SO HARD for some of you!? (hah, pun... unintended at first)
-truth is, most lesbians are fine by me, I just get bored very quickly trying to watch them do it; I can watch most straight porn if dick is prominent in 75% of the shots
-yet, I don't really like dick photos... or most art of them if they're too realistic... honestly gross
-needs more ass, preferably tight arse
-stop equating sex parts to food items, people; if you're that hungry, go loving eat already!
-needs more virgins in their 30s (where I'm likely headed, lawl)
-you know what's stupid? people barking like a dog; if you do, I'm slapping a collar on you and getting your shots, 'k?
-wishes I could stop ranting so much
-realizes I probably won't, because I care too much
-more of you need to recognize how rare a person that cares as much as I is and loving get with the program already!
-seriously, stretch your bum and think about having someone as warm and tender and utterly lovely as I as a part of you... sometimes I'm amazed I'm not swarming in offers
-gets flustered easily from too much attention; still really shy
-definitely a top, gentle, but a top, beyond any reasonable doubt
Hmm... that's better~. Yay, venting! Later, anons.
-Vaike/everyone is personal head-canon; Male Robin/all males also works
-everyone who states they'd be okay with Chrom/Lissa should just go sleep with their own sibling already
-does not like being fat; perfectly fine with concept of male pregnancy
-would utterly break all your teeth if self (re: me) were impregnated
-everyone who likes RPGs should play Exit Fate... Now.
-would be fine with just a single, particular order of chinese cuisine (tends to re-order same takeout a lot), water, and raw broccolli everyday for the rest of life
-now honestly considering the above statement
-more people need to be open to frot/scissoring (same concept really)
-you want to know what I want? just an honest, hard-working (strongly preferred) male who doesn't smoke, nor uses drugs and is employed; why is that SO HARD for some of you!? (hah, pun... unintended at first)
-truth is, most lesbians are fine by me, I just get bored very quickly trying to watch them do it; I can watch most straight porn if dick is prominent in 75% of the shots
-yet, I don't really like dick photos... or most art of them if they're too realistic... honestly gross
-needs more ass, preferably tight arse
-stop equating sex parts to food items, people; if you're that hungry, go loving eat already!
-needs more virgins in their 30s (where I'm likely headed, lawl)
-you know what's stupid? people barking like a dog; if you do, I'm slapping a collar on you and getting your shots, 'k?
-wishes I could stop ranting so much
-realizes I probably won't, because I care too much
-more of you need to recognize how rare a person that cares as much as I is and loving get with the program already!
-seriously, stretch your bum and think about having someone as warm and tender and utterly lovely as I as a part of you... sometimes I'm amazed I'm not swarming in offers
-gets flustered easily from too much attention; still really shy
-definitely a top, gentle, but a top, beyond any reasonable doubt
Hmm... that's better~. Yay, venting! Later, anons.
Friday, August 23, 2013
A Completely Necessary and Totally Nonsencial Table of Acceptable Weight Ranges
Yes, that title is also completely, necessarily long. Deal with it.
Fact 1: Being overweight is not unhealthy, so long as you are not overfat. (ask your medical doctor or dietician, if you're seeing one, for confirmation on healthy fat ranges which are % based of your total weight)
Fact 2: Your weight has to account for water, bones, muscle fibers and fat. In that precise order, that is what primarily composes your total weight.
Fact 3: Obese is being defined as having enough weight that your risk level for heart and circulatory problems increase to a degree. How much so and how much weight you truly can bare is completely up to your family's medical history.
Okay, so with those things out of the way, on to the very simple table. This table assumes that one is at least 23 years old, after which one would be approximately 97% complete with their physical growth. (In other words, when you truly cease getting taller)
Men Women
Height Lbs Height Lbs
6'8" 267 6'5" 223
6'7" 260 6'4" 216
6'6" 253 6'3" 210
6'5" 246 6'2" 204
6'4" 239 6'1" 198
6'3" 232 6'0" 192
6'2" 225 5'11" 186
6'1" 218 5'10" 180
6'0" 211 5'9" 174
5'11" 204 5'8" 168
5'10" 197 5'7" 163
5'9" 190 5'6" 158
5'8" 183 5'5" 153
5'7" 176 5'4" 148
5'6" 169 5'3" 143
5'5" 162 5'2" 138
5'4" 155 5'1" 133
5'3 148 5'0" 128
5'2" 141 4'11" 123
5'1" 134 4'10" 118
Alright, now if you look up all of those according to the BMI (body mass index) bylaws, most of these will register as overweight or close, or even normal. As I said, these weights are nonsense yet acceptable. In other words, its pretty much my personal bias (I prefer hefty but healthy people). On the other hand, the majority are also completely reasonable and certainly not out-of-the-question. For the really critical though, I'd say you could feasibly be between 16 lbs lighter and 20 lbs heavier for each target and still be fine. Convert to metric if you must.
Fact 1: Being overweight is not unhealthy, so long as you are not overfat. (ask your medical doctor or dietician, if you're seeing one, for confirmation on healthy fat ranges which are % based of your total weight)
Fact 2: Your weight has to account for water, bones, muscle fibers and fat. In that precise order, that is what primarily composes your total weight.
Fact 3: Obese is being defined as having enough weight that your risk level for heart and circulatory problems increase to a degree. How much so and how much weight you truly can bare is completely up to your family's medical history.
Okay, so with those things out of the way, on to the very simple table. This table assumes that one is at least 23 years old, after which one would be approximately 97% complete with their physical growth. (In other words, when you truly cease getting taller)
Men Women
Height Lbs Height Lbs
6'8" 267 6'5" 223
6'7" 260 6'4" 216
6'6" 253 6'3" 210
6'5" 246 6'2" 204
6'4" 239 6'1" 198
6'3" 232 6'0" 192
6'2" 225 5'11" 186
6'1" 218 5'10" 180
6'0" 211 5'9" 174
5'11" 204 5'8" 168
5'10" 197 5'7" 163
5'9" 190 5'6" 158
5'8" 183 5'5" 153
5'7" 176 5'4" 148
5'6" 169 5'3" 143
5'5" 162 5'2" 138
5'4" 155 5'1" 133
5'3 148 5'0" 128
5'2" 141 4'11" 123
5'1" 134 4'10" 118
Alright, now if you look up all of those according to the BMI (body mass index) bylaws, most of these will register as overweight or close, or even normal. As I said, these weights are nonsense yet acceptable. In other words, its pretty much my personal bias (I prefer hefty but healthy people). On the other hand, the majority are also completely reasonable and certainly not out-of-the-question. For the really critical though, I'd say you could feasibly be between 16 lbs lighter and 20 lbs heavier for each target and still be fine. Convert to metric if you must.
Monday, August 5, 2013
Stuff (An Update)
If you want to call it that.
Anyway, Jer is still awesome (I mean c'mon, I'm not really a person who changes their opinions that quickly on others). But damn does he have terrible luck. Like I partially want to just lock him away so shit stops happening to trouble him, lol, something like that. I mean I am not a pet person so that idea is rather moot. And he wouldn't agree to that, lest I locked myself away with him, lol, then maybe xD.
Tumblr is such a time-sink, forget tvtropes. Its like Blogger but on massive roids, and way more likely to invoke triggers because people are dumb as dirt on there.
I see so many cases of reverse racism that it literally makes me sick to my stomach. Hell, no, its just racism. Whether you're white, black, red, blue, green or shining gold; if a third of your personal rants revolve around complaining about a group of people that boils down to "color-of-person_word-for-person", then by Jove, do you have loads of free time! And what a waste of time and energy you're expending to inform the masses of your exceedingly asinine views and simply foolish tangents ping-ponging around your cranium.
Allow me to enlighten you. First black guy I ever thought was attractive was pretty average looking, toned but kind of thin, and his equipment was pretty much average (like 6 or 7 in, which is not unreasonable). Why did I like him? Well, just the way he carried his self. I won't lie that this was in a porno so meh, it just does make me mad people assume white men just want someone for their dick, especially generalizing that's their reason for being attracted to dark skinned people. ESPECIALLY because I prefer ass. There. Race doesn't matter. It's having a nice trunk and confidence, and not being a total moron that matters most to me. Hell, I generally like people who seem smart and aren't afraid to show their emotions, their weaknesses, so that I can hopefully make them feel more understood, more normal, more loved.
Not to mention, I do not want to bottom, well, very rarely, and only for some people. Like my one friend, he's okay and all even if he acts really stupid a lot and he's also a top; still, I'd NEVER bottom for him because he's too selfish. I mean whenever I'd hypothetically bring up sleeping with him, that jackass would constantly insist I'd bottom for him first. Makes me irrate. And I refuse to acknowledge people who make me that mad. So, no spooning with him, ever.
You want to turn me on? Dick won't do it. Ass helps, but its really just how you express yourself that I care about. I'd rather have sex with someone who actually appears to be in love and happy and longing to be with me than someone who is confident but not a douche. I'm really more of a sentimental person when it boils down to it... so all the hate and suspicion so many people harbor truly depresses me. : |
Few months ago I tried to both greet someone who was on my contact/friend list on a site and say I thought they were cute, and even added that I'm not really looking for sex, that what I said above is more the sort of guy I am. And they responded by calling me a creep AND blocking me, not even letting me try to apologize for upsetting them : [. It's not like I even hit on them; I really can't understand his thought process at all.
I try talking to Jer at times lately, and well, I wish I could always be in a good conversation-crafting mood. Mostly its just a quick exchange. Which honestly is okay, I hope. I don't want him to feel unloved because... its a terrible feeling. I would know.
Anyway, Jer is still awesome (I mean c'mon, I'm not really a person who changes their opinions that quickly on others). But damn does he have terrible luck. Like I partially want to just lock him away so shit stops happening to trouble him, lol, something like that. I mean I am not a pet person so that idea is rather moot. And he wouldn't agree to that, lest I locked myself away with him, lol, then maybe xD.
Tumblr is such a time-sink, forget tvtropes. Its like Blogger but on massive roids, and way more likely to invoke triggers because people are dumb as dirt on there.
I see so many cases of reverse racism that it literally makes me sick to my stomach. Hell, no, its just racism. Whether you're white, black, red, blue, green or shining gold; if a third of your personal rants revolve around complaining about a group of people that boils down to "color-of-person_word-for-person", then by Jove, do you have loads of free time! And what a waste of time and energy you're expending to inform the masses of your exceedingly asinine views and simply foolish tangents ping-ponging around your cranium.
Allow me to enlighten you. First black guy I ever thought was attractive was pretty average looking, toned but kind of thin, and his equipment was pretty much average (like 6 or 7 in, which is not unreasonable). Why did I like him? Well, just the way he carried his self. I won't lie that this was in a porno so meh, it just does make me mad people assume white men just want someone for their dick, especially generalizing that's their reason for being attracted to dark skinned people. ESPECIALLY because I prefer ass. There. Race doesn't matter. It's having a nice trunk and confidence, and not being a total moron that matters most to me. Hell, I generally like people who seem smart and aren't afraid to show their emotions, their weaknesses, so that I can hopefully make them feel more understood, more normal, more loved.
Not to mention, I do not want to bottom, well, very rarely, and only for some people. Like my one friend, he's okay and all even if he acts really stupid a lot and he's also a top; still, I'd NEVER bottom for him because he's too selfish. I mean whenever I'd hypothetically bring up sleeping with him, that jackass would constantly insist I'd bottom for him first. Makes me irrate. And I refuse to acknowledge people who make me that mad. So, no spooning with him, ever.
You want to turn me on? Dick won't do it. Ass helps, but its really just how you express yourself that I care about. I'd rather have sex with someone who actually appears to be in love and happy and longing to be with me than someone who is confident but not a douche. I'm really more of a sentimental person when it boils down to it... so all the hate and suspicion so many people harbor truly depresses me. : |
Few months ago I tried to both greet someone who was on my contact/friend list on a site and say I thought they were cute, and even added that I'm not really looking for sex, that what I said above is more the sort of guy I am. And they responded by calling me a creep AND blocking me, not even letting me try to apologize for upsetting them : [. It's not like I even hit on them; I really can't understand his thought process at all.
I try talking to Jer at times lately, and well, I wish I could always be in a good conversation-crafting mood. Mostly its just a quick exchange. Which honestly is okay, I hope. I don't want him to feel unloved because... its a terrible feeling. I would know.
Saturday, July 20, 2013
The Expected and Unexpected
Welp, long story short, the last two weeks have been rather... strange. In that, a lot of unexpected things have happened and a few expected ones, too.
The Expected:
-SSI Appeal officially turned down; re-filing ensues (this is just a big headache because I'm only doing this to keep the only insurance I got, which requires me to file for SSI in order to qualify; it's convoluted as all heck)
-found a fun game to play which re-ignited my general interest in making a game of similar quality (probably won't seriously advance on mine too soon though); admittedly only semi-expected, lol
The Unexpected:
-apparently I have a boyfriend now, met online like my last official one (that is, counting people I have or strongly plan to meet/see in person)
And... it's the unexpected I really ought to talk about now. Dis guy... just, dis guy!! He's like, practically everything I want from looks (cute as all get out), his ethnicity (okay, I always have thought dark skinned people were awesome, this I can't honestly deny), his energy (which is up there, a plus because I often need coaxing or just a counterbalance) and besides all that he's sensitive and caring enough that you just want to be with him a lot of the time since he's really sweet. But not only that, but he very recently admitted he feels he does love me, ME of all people, and says that its because he feels that I truly care about him (of course I do, I care easily for people who don't say stupid/jerkish stuff, lolol). So, dang, I guess I have my work cut out for me. Got to get myself to up and see him (he's not that far away, lives in my state). Of course, I do like him a lot, I think I'm ready to love again, I mean, I did wait what, 4 years basically?
I just want to commit, because I'm so ready. I know we can get along because we talk almost everyday and he doesn't really make me feel unwanted. So, I'm hoping it all turns out well. Jerod, if you're reading this, know that I not only have been moved by your kindness, heck, your everything, but that I really want to stay with you as long as you need. I know it'll still be a bit before I can physically act on all I've said, but I TRULY INTEND to make good on 95% of my word. (I leave 5% for error because c'mon, nobody's perfect). I wish I could refer you to the last guy I ever dated in earnest, just because the proof's there. We had met in February but finally saw one another in person on his birthday in May. That was my first kiss I then had with a man. ^_^ While him and I did get distanced sometime thereafter, I also want you to know, I will ALWAYS care about you, even if something should ever happen to us, too. Of course, I will hope only for good things but hey, you gotta do what feels right to you. I know I really like ya. I know you really care for me, so here's to good tidings ahead. *clinks glass* xD
Other than Jer rocking my world over the past week, not a whole lot else been happening. I was... a bit unsure of how he'd even react to me deciding to message him afore, at which point I resolved to tell him I did think he was cute; it's just, far too many nice-looking people can be really self-absorbed or just rude to people who, simply put, are just kinda plain (such as myself). But he wasn't... I just want to reward his kindness with my body, mind and soul because he honestly earned it by matching my uncommon kindness with his own. I'm so moved, I'm seriously not even thinking about past fixations like Casey, or Joshua, or other people. I haven't felt this way in YEARS! -peace, out
The Expected:
-SSI Appeal officially turned down; re-filing ensues (this is just a big headache because I'm only doing this to keep the only insurance I got, which requires me to file for SSI in order to qualify; it's convoluted as all heck)
-found a fun game to play which re-ignited my general interest in making a game of similar quality (probably won't seriously advance on mine too soon though); admittedly only semi-expected, lol
The Unexpected:
-apparently I have a boyfriend now, met online like my last official one (that is, counting people I have or strongly plan to meet/see in person)
And... it's the unexpected I really ought to talk about now. Dis guy... just, dis guy!! He's like, practically everything I want from looks (cute as all get out), his ethnicity (okay, I always have thought dark skinned people were awesome, this I can't honestly deny), his energy (which is up there, a plus because I often need coaxing or just a counterbalance) and besides all that he's sensitive and caring enough that you just want to be with him a lot of the time since he's really sweet. But not only that, but he very recently admitted he feels he does love me, ME of all people, and says that its because he feels that I truly care about him (of course I do, I care easily for people who don't say stupid/jerkish stuff, lolol). So, dang, I guess I have my work cut out for me. Got to get myself to up and see him (he's not that far away, lives in my state). Of course, I do like him a lot, I think I'm ready to love again, I mean, I did wait what, 4 years basically?
I just want to commit, because I'm so ready. I know we can get along because we talk almost everyday and he doesn't really make me feel unwanted. So, I'm hoping it all turns out well. Jerod, if you're reading this, know that I not only have been moved by your kindness, heck, your everything, but that I really want to stay with you as long as you need. I know it'll still be a bit before I can physically act on all I've said, but I TRULY INTEND to make good on 95% of my word. (I leave 5% for error because c'mon, nobody's perfect). I wish I could refer you to the last guy I ever dated in earnest, just because the proof's there. We had met in February but finally saw one another in person on his birthday in May. That was my first kiss I then had with a man. ^_^ While him and I did get distanced sometime thereafter, I also want you to know, I will ALWAYS care about you, even if something should ever happen to us, too. Of course, I will hope only for good things but hey, you gotta do what feels right to you. I know I really like ya. I know you really care for me, so here's to good tidings ahead. *clinks glass* xD
Other than Jer rocking my world over the past week, not a whole lot else been happening. I was... a bit unsure of how he'd even react to me deciding to message him afore, at which point I resolved to tell him I did think he was cute; it's just, far too many nice-looking people can be really self-absorbed or just rude to people who, simply put, are just kinda plain (such as myself). But he wasn't... I just want to reward his kindness with my body, mind and soul because he honestly earned it by matching my uncommon kindness with his own. I'm so moved, I'm seriously not even thinking about past fixations like Casey, or Joshua, or other people. I haven't felt this way in YEARS! -peace, out
Thursday, July 4, 2013
Random Survey I found on Tumblr
Why the heck not?
1. What is your middle name?
James
2. Are you wearing makeup?
I'm not currently doing a stage play, so no.
3. What colour is your toothbrush?
It's green, white and blue.
4. Approximately how many posters are hung up in your room?
Less than 3.
5. What does your hair product smell like?
I don't smell my shampoo unless it reeks enough.
6. Where would rather be right now?
In your ass. (unless you're a chick, okay but really, I don't care about "where" I am or want to be much)
7. What is the temperature outside?
about 70 degrees Fahrenheit
8. Have you ever dyed your hair? If so what colour?
yes, Orange
9. What is the funniest word you know?
I don't know... (I don't usually find words funny)
10. Name your favourite band starting with the letter 'M'
Magnum Opus
11. What is your favourite pick up line? And has anyone ever used it on you?
Oh crap... *thinks* It was something like, "I don't drink, I don't smoke, I don't do drugs; so gimme sex!" yes it's really lame and goofy and creepy but so what? at least it's honest
12. Describe your first icon using only verbs
I don't understand this question...
13. What is the most expensive thing you have ever bought with your own money?
my Xbox360, which alone was $300 bucks; most of my stuff is gifts
14. State your favourite letter of the alphabet
it's K
15. What is your favourite accent?
I like most accents, really
16. How did you celebrate the new year?
I haven't for quite a while and probably won't until I'm in a relationship
17. What do you call a brown fizzy drink that usually comes in a can?
... I say, "why's this shit brown? it's supposed to be darker!"
18. Do you like fish?
Sure do
19. What is your most used tag?
I don't use tags much
20. Would you rather ask someone out or be asked out?
I'd rather be asked out
21. What is your favourite Olympic sport to watch?
Gymnastics are cool I guess; but usually I don't watch them
22. Have you ever dumped anyone?
hmmm... not technically
23. What do you want to be when you grow up?
I still don't know, in honest, I just want a family, a simple job that I can come home from most evenings, or w/e
24. Have you ever been to the United States? If so, where?
I reside in the US, I've been in a few different states but mostly stay in Pennsylvania a lot
25. What instrument have you always wanted to play?
I know how to play the Oboe and a few others; I wish I could play the piano better
26. Describe your dream partner's eye colour
I like green eyes most, I guess, but I don't care
27. What do you order at diners?
usually pasta dishes
28. Coffee or espressos?
I hate them both equally
29. What is the most annoying song on the radio at the moment?
wouldn't know, I don't listen to the radio much
30. How many contacts do you have on your phone?
I don't own a mobile phone
31. What type of music player do you own?
since most are broken, my PC is the closest thing
32. Describe your favourite painting
I like um, drawings more than paintings, usually of people/characters
33. What was the best present you have ever received?
I guess some computers I've used
34. Spring or Fall? Why?
Fall, because Summer is over and not approaching (I hate heat)
35. What was the last text you received? Who was it from?
I don't remember the last text; but my last IM was a friend sharing a random fact/meme pic and saying good night
36. Would you ever paint your room pink?
No
37. What colour is your underwear?
most of my underwear is navy blue
38. Favourite perfume scent?
don't like perfume/not around enough to know
39. What celebrity do you think needs to drop off a cliff?
don't really care much, but if Lady Gaga did, most people would think it's the greatest thing ever (just because it's her diving or w/e; I'm not being a jerk here)
40. Do blue eyes turn you on?
Well, Tyler W. from TheSpeedGamers does have really gorgeous eyes, so I suppose they can
41. What meat do you prefer in a sandwich?
my favorite sandwich is a BLT, but I usually eat tuna submarine sandwiches lately
42. Would you ever wear a sweater to school?
I have several times
43. What is the name of your current ringtone?
don't have one; my preference is toward Chopin's Funeral March
44. Glasses or contacts?
glasses
45. What shoes do you normally wear to school?
I usually wore sneakers, white, but black in the last year or two
46. Where is your nearest television?
it's about 3 feet away from my PC, in my room, where I currently am
47. What is your favourite vegetable?
I really like edamame in stir-fry, otherwise, broccoli, raw please
48. When was the last time you drank milk?
yesterday, I drink milk almost daily
49. What was your lowest grade in school?
for a yearly grade, I think I got a 49 in German III during senior year, I really didn't like the teacher, and some other issues that were going on
50. Are you using Google chrome?
no, I use Firefox
1. What is your middle name?
James
2. Are you wearing makeup?
I'm not currently doing a stage play, so no.
3. What colour is your toothbrush?
It's green, white and blue.
4. Approximately how many posters are hung up in your room?
Less than 3.
5. What does your hair product smell like?
I don't smell my shampoo unless it reeks enough.
6. Where would rather be right now?
In your ass. (unless you're a chick, okay but really, I don't care about "where" I am or want to be much)
7. What is the temperature outside?
about 70 degrees Fahrenheit
8. Have you ever dyed your hair? If so what colour?
yes, Orange
9. What is the funniest word you know?
I don't know... (I don't usually find words funny)
10. Name your favourite band starting with the letter 'M'
Magnum Opus
11. What is your favourite pick up line? And has anyone ever used it on you?
Oh crap... *thinks* It was something like, "I don't drink, I don't smoke, I don't do drugs; so gimme sex!" yes it's really lame and goofy and creepy but so what? at least it's honest
12. Describe your first icon using only verbs
I don't understand this question...
13. What is the most expensive thing you have ever bought with your own money?
my Xbox360, which alone was $300 bucks; most of my stuff is gifts
14. State your favourite letter of the alphabet
it's K
15. What is your favourite accent?
I like most accents, really
16. How did you celebrate the new year?
I haven't for quite a while and probably won't until I'm in a relationship
17. What do you call a brown fizzy drink that usually comes in a can?
... I say, "why's this shit brown? it's supposed to be darker!"
18. Do you like fish?
Sure do
19. What is your most used tag?
I don't use tags much
20. Would you rather ask someone out or be asked out?
I'd rather be asked out
21. What is your favourite Olympic sport to watch?
Gymnastics are cool I guess; but usually I don't watch them
22. Have you ever dumped anyone?
hmmm... not technically
23. What do you want to be when you grow up?
I still don't know, in honest, I just want a family, a simple job that I can come home from most evenings, or w/e
24. Have you ever been to the United States? If so, where?
I reside in the US, I've been in a few different states but mostly stay in Pennsylvania a lot
25. What instrument have you always wanted to play?
I know how to play the Oboe and a few others; I wish I could play the piano better
26. Describe your dream partner's eye colour
I like green eyes most, I guess, but I don't care
27. What do you order at diners?
usually pasta dishes
28. Coffee or espressos?
I hate them both equally
29. What is the most annoying song on the radio at the moment?
wouldn't know, I don't listen to the radio much
30. How many contacts do you have on your phone?
I don't own a mobile phone
31. What type of music player do you own?
since most are broken, my PC is the closest thing
32. Describe your favourite painting
I like um, drawings more than paintings, usually of people/characters
33. What was the best present you have ever received?
I guess some computers I've used
34. Spring or Fall? Why?
Fall, because Summer is over and not approaching (I hate heat)
35. What was the last text you received? Who was it from?
I don't remember the last text; but my last IM was a friend sharing a random fact/meme pic and saying good night
36. Would you ever paint your room pink?
No
37. What colour is your underwear?
most of my underwear is navy blue
38. Favourite perfume scent?
don't like perfume/not around enough to know
39. What celebrity do you think needs to drop off a cliff?
don't really care much, but if Lady Gaga did, most people would think it's the greatest thing ever (just because it's her diving or w/e; I'm not being a jerk here)
40. Do blue eyes turn you on?
Well, Tyler W. from TheSpeedGamers does have really gorgeous eyes, so I suppose they can
41. What meat do you prefer in a sandwich?
my favorite sandwich is a BLT, but I usually eat tuna submarine sandwiches lately
42. Would you ever wear a sweater to school?
I have several times
43. What is the name of your current ringtone?
don't have one; my preference is toward Chopin's Funeral March
44. Glasses or contacts?
glasses
45. What shoes do you normally wear to school?
I usually wore sneakers, white, but black in the last year or two
46. Where is your nearest television?
it's about 3 feet away from my PC, in my room, where I currently am
47. What is your favourite vegetable?
I really like edamame in stir-fry, otherwise, broccoli, raw please
48. When was the last time you drank milk?
yesterday, I drink milk almost daily
49. What was your lowest grade in school?
for a yearly grade, I think I got a 49 in German III during senior year, I really didn't like the teacher, and some other issues that were going on
50. Are you using Google chrome?
no, I use Firefox
Sunday, June 30, 2013
An Attempt to Explain my Aesthetic Sense
Or
A Futile Attempt at Expanding Minds
Lol. Well, when people ask, "what's your type?" in regards to what sort of physical features attract me--I don't usually know what to tell them. I don't usually think about a persons' looks. But that doesn't mean I like looking at just any and everything on the exterior anatomy of someone. I guess the best way to explain it would be to list and break down as many things as I can think of that I would (or at some point could) see on a person and say if I like it or not. So that's what I shall now do. You can expect some things that would equate to "too much information" on this list, if you're sensitive about those things, I apologize for ruffling your feathers.
visible, external things/qualities on any person that I find...
Attractive or Interesting: (basically stuff that I like)
breasts/pectorals
derriere (the butt)
eyes
facial stubble
lips
people shorter than (or equal to) 5'11"
short hair (the hair on your scalp)
small tattoos (~9 inches or less in diameter)
thighs
Neither Attractive nor Unattractive: (stuff I generally don't mind nor give excess thought to)
arms
ears
facial piercings (anything above the chin)
fat/overweight
hands
large tattoos
neck
muscle tone
mustaches
people taller than (or equal to) 6'
shoulders and back of torso
scrotum (the ballsack)
thin/average weight
Generally Unattractive or Uninteresting: (stuff I don't really like or usually won't ask to see)
beards
body hair
considerably overweight
excess tattoos (more than 7 small ones or 2 large ones)
feet
legs
long hair (the hair on your scalp)
nails (fingers/toes)
non-facial piercings
nipples
penis
underweight
vagina
I probably expect most of those things to be unsurprising to people who've thoroughly inspected this journal-ish blog of mine. And some may raise further questions. OH WELL!!! I can't please everyone, hurr.
I can say that hair color is probably the last thing I care about, except maybe gray-ing hair. If you're below age 48 and most of your hair has lost color, I'm sorry for you and would probably find you a bit unattractive (just being honest). It does happen eventually though. I'd rather be bald than have a full head of mostly gray/white hair when I'm age 45 or so, lol. Baldness doesn't bug me as long as your scalp is generally healthy *nod*.
Skin color... well, in earnest, I LIKE darker tones just more by default. On other people. On myself?? Well I'm white but I guess I wouldn't be that much different if I had been born black, tan, brown or w/e. In fact at times I wish I weren't (white) so I could be excused from my grandfather's exceptionally biased views and just overall maybe have fewer headaches during a day. That's a pretty steep maybe though. If my family was the same but black, then grandfather would probably just hate all white people and use racial slurs I've never even heard of (in the present reality). The grass is never greener on the other side, it's just either more wet or dry, hah!
Later, losers~. (I'll show you! *shot*) xD
A Futile Attempt at Expanding Minds
Lol. Well, when people ask, "what's your type?" in regards to what sort of physical features attract me--I don't usually know what to tell them. I don't usually think about a persons' looks. But that doesn't mean I like looking at just any and everything on the exterior anatomy of someone. I guess the best way to explain it would be to list and break down as many things as I can think of that I would (or at some point could) see on a person and say if I like it or not. So that's what I shall now do. You can expect some things that would equate to "too much information" on this list, if you're sensitive about those things, I apologize for ruffling your feathers.
visible, external things/qualities on any person that I find...
Attractive or Interesting: (basically stuff that I like)
breasts/pectorals
derriere (the butt)
eyes
facial stubble
lips
people shorter than (or equal to) 5'11"
short hair (the hair on your scalp)
small tattoos (~9 inches or less in diameter)
thighs
Neither Attractive nor Unattractive: (stuff I generally don't mind nor give excess thought to)
arms
ears
facial piercings (anything above the chin)
fat/overweight
hands
large tattoos
neck
muscle tone
mustaches
people taller than (or equal to) 6'
shoulders and back of torso
scrotum (the ballsack)
thin/average weight
Generally Unattractive or Uninteresting: (stuff I don't really like or usually won't ask to see)
beards
body hair
considerably overweight
excess tattoos (more than 7 small ones or 2 large ones)
feet
legs
long hair (the hair on your scalp)
nails (fingers/toes)
non-facial piercings
nipples
penis
underweight
vagina
I probably expect most of those things to be unsurprising to people who've thoroughly inspected this journal-ish blog of mine. And some may raise further questions. OH WELL!!! I can't please everyone, hurr.
I can say that hair color is probably the last thing I care about, except maybe gray-ing hair. If you're below age 48 and most of your hair has lost color, I'm sorry for you and would probably find you a bit unattractive (just being honest). It does happen eventually though. I'd rather be bald than have a full head of mostly gray/white hair when I'm age 45 or so, lol. Baldness doesn't bug me as long as your scalp is generally healthy *nod*.
Skin color... well, in earnest, I LIKE darker tones just more by default. On other people. On myself?? Well I'm white but I guess I wouldn't be that much different if I had been born black, tan, brown or w/e. In fact at times I wish I weren't (white) so I could be excused from my grandfather's exceptionally biased views and just overall maybe have fewer headaches during a day. That's a pretty steep maybe though. If my family was the same but black, then grandfather would probably just hate all white people and use racial slurs I've never even heard of (in the present reality). The grass is never greener on the other side, it's just either more wet or dry, hah!
Later, losers~. (I'll show you! *shot*) xD
Wednesday, June 19, 2013
Log of Thoughts and Delusions
Log Date: June, Almost Summer, 2013
(Not Entirely) Random List of Things I WILL NOT Do
-state something false on purpose
-(profusely) curse
-eat string beans, beets, lima beans, nor the stalks of broccoli (among other foods I purely dislike)
-tolerate cigarette smoke, tobacco, nor any non-prescription
-tolerate breaches of security including but not limited to eavesdropping, rummaging through others' property, extraneous invasions of personal space under any circumstances, etc.; nor will I be privy to such activities
-tolerate unsafe vehicle driving practices
-tolerate criticism on anyone's appearance without constructive, earnest advice on how to improve the points so criticized
-negotiate on any of the above terms, lest I choose to discuss one willingly
There are more things, probably, but eh, those are among my biggest deal-breakers, if you will. I very likely mentioned some of those points before (because they all rather irritate me) but some things are worth repeating. If anything, at least I won't forget about these if they should ever come up and I need any convincing of things (y'know, concerning private matters only; I'd never let my biases interfere with impartial scenarios like jury duty or similar venues).
I'm okay otherwise, I guess... lately I seem to be getting more random attention from newer people. I really don't care for being complimented as the first thing from someone. At least, not on superficial things like looks... because seriously, seriously--how am I supposed to know if you're judging by me by my appearance OR if you've actually bothered to read the spiel I post on my pages (of which are public but never heavily advertised) and find me attractive by my personality, if all you're saying is, "you're cute(sexy/beautiful/some-empty-overused-word-here)". I mean, you haven't even talked to me yet... at least show some interest in me as a person BEYOND what you can see. What I care about is what you feel in your heart... blagh, but try telling that to anyone nowadays and they'll assume you're mental. I don't hate the attention but some guys... really bug me with it. Others not at much, at least not those who actively respond when I talk, and I do at least offer thanks for the compliments, in general. Just sayin'.
That's all for now, I suppose. Farewell.
(Not Entirely) Random List of Things I WILL NOT Do
-state something false on purpose
-(profusely) curse
-eat string beans, beets, lima beans, nor the stalks of broccoli (among other foods I purely dislike)
-tolerate cigarette smoke, tobacco, nor any non-prescription
-tolerate breaches of security including but not limited to eavesdropping, rummaging through others' property, extraneous invasions of personal space under any circumstances, etc.; nor will I be privy to such activities
-tolerate unsafe vehicle driving practices
-tolerate criticism on anyone's appearance without constructive, earnest advice on how to improve the points so criticized
-negotiate on any of the above terms, lest I choose to discuss one willingly
There are more things, probably, but eh, those are among my biggest deal-breakers, if you will. I very likely mentioned some of those points before (because they all rather irritate me) but some things are worth repeating. If anything, at least I won't forget about these if they should ever come up and I need any convincing of things (y'know, concerning private matters only; I'd never let my biases interfere with impartial scenarios like jury duty or similar venues).
I'm okay otherwise, I guess... lately I seem to be getting more random attention from newer people. I really don't care for being complimented as the first thing from someone. At least, not on superficial things like looks... because seriously, seriously--how am I supposed to know if you're judging by me by my appearance OR if you've actually bothered to read the spiel I post on my pages (of which are public but never heavily advertised) and find me attractive by my personality, if all you're saying is, "you're cute(sexy/beautiful/some-empty-overused-word-here)". I mean, you haven't even talked to me yet... at least show some interest in me as a person BEYOND what you can see. What I care about is what you feel in your heart... blagh, but try telling that to anyone nowadays and they'll assume you're mental. I don't hate the attention but some guys... really bug me with it. Others not at much, at least not those who actively respond when I talk, and I do at least offer thanks for the compliments, in general. Just sayin'.
That's all for now, I suppose. Farewell.
Wednesday, April 10, 2013
Uhh... Stuff~
That does happen to be a pretty common reply of my own when acquaintances or friends ask me of what I'm doing at the time of conversation. That question does annoy me a little. Seriously, why do you need to know? If you don't wish to know, then why are you asking? Surely you have something better to ask about... I guess it's supposed to be polite or something, so I too ask it at times, usually near the start or after a significant period of time (approximately 90 minutes or more) passes between the last notable exchange of words between us. No, I'm not really trying to sound especially smart when I'm typing this. But, I do expect whoever reads this to at least appreciate my partial attempts at sounding educated... being too informal can be kinda annoying. Like this one person published a book which basically was a very realistic if not downright true diary of a 30 year old, hetero American male and MY GOD was it full of stuff I'd never say. Seriously, the guy thinks about sex at least 10 times a day, has a girlfriend, hardly connects with her at all emotionally beyond trying to listen what he implies is the equivalent of mindless rabble from her. It's just... the person narrating, though at least honest, is a total stereotype. And comes off downright bastardly as a result. (Apparently, "bastardly" is not a word; and I do not care the slightest).
But you know what bugs me most? Stubborn people who refuse to admit they're wrong or have wronged other people. Nothing to do with that prior tangent; this refers to... well I guess friend is appropriate, I don't dislike them that much and we talk on a frequent enough basis. More than what I'd consider an acquaintance to be. This guy is a total piece of work. He's honest and well-meaning, but a total clingy dog of a person. And I don't mean "dog" as an insult either... he's really that friendly most of the time if he likes someone. Oh, but don't get me started on the people he likes. Because it makes me embarrassed that he chose to associate me with a certain "stereotype" as well. Which by the way, is more society's fault than any other. They had to come up with words to show disapproval for other people's body types. Anyway, this person has wronged me. In the sense that they have dishonored me with their asinine level of ignorance, and that's not the only strike against them. But I am a very patient person and, with the best of intentions, do not hesitate to tell them of how foolish they behave. As I've told them, "I may have to be mean, but I do only because I truly care about you." I do earnestly mean that, as well.
The way they wronged me was, well... we were talking and when I bring up my own wishes and regards for well, intimacy, this imbecile has the unmitigated gall to tell me to go sleep with a woman. It's just... wrong. Because they theirself are quickly offended if someone so much as tries to pass of their own sexuality (he's gay) as a "choice". SO! How dare he act like I can just choose to sleep with a female because I first and foremost want to be the giving partner in the terms of intimacy and have very limited desires to receive?! I am still entirely flummoxed as to how he can think its okay to even joke about it when he knows of my aversion to the appearance of female genitalia (no offense intended). THEN, oh how very foolish he is, he follows up at a later point, trying to clarify, that oh, there's men who may want to be women and it's just... I am entirely at a loss. Whenever I think back on these facts, I just feel conflicted. Should I really be so mad at him for being a dunce as he clearly is? Y'know, besides other reasons I have to be upset with him. Is it really his fault? I don't believe so, personally, but it still makes me just... feel more empty when people refuse to accept that some people are different and just aren't able to want to be more flexible (in multiple facets of the word) when they haven't experienced what they truly want at first.
As a guy who has not had sex, I just... feel distanced from other people who exhibit such closed-minded thoughts or ideals. Let us be serious for a moment. Do you need to have sex to want to ask someone out, and not only that, but hope that, maybe in your future you would reach a level of intimacy with them? Well I personally say no, sex does not determine a person's sexuality nor their preferences in other people. It can persuade them but hey, if you, as a male, never have been intimate with a woman, even on just an emotional level, then how can you say with complete confidence that you are not "straight"? Unlike my friend, I have been intimate with women, emotionally, not physically and I can say that I'm not really a physical-seeking person. I can also say that as far as physical context and anatomical gender are concerned, I prefer men. I know this because when I engage in personal activities... without meaning to sound crude, I orgasm more completely when my mind, which is receiving physical and mental stimulation, places myself with another male. That is why I know I'm gay. Not because I ever needed someone else to confirm this with their body. Of course if you want to offer me your body and you are a man, more power to you! Hah, have to end on a brighter note.
Other positive things to note of late are:
-several video games I would like to purchase are receiving localizations in my country soon
-thanks to the dunce's meddling, I did meet a new person to talk to who I do like, and that is all (for now)
-I found a diet soda that I actually like to drink; thing is, I abhor Splenda because for me, it gives me this really unsettling aftertaste whenever I consume something it's in; the soda I discovered now uses "good ol'" aspartame as one of its components
-I finally got around to finishing a full playthrough of Magna Carta 2; its a good game, despite its flaws I find a number of things I liked in it (voice acting was also loaded with big names in the US department)
I'll be seeing you, anonymous reader.
But you know what bugs me most? Stubborn people who refuse to admit they're wrong or have wronged other people. Nothing to do with that prior tangent; this refers to... well I guess friend is appropriate, I don't dislike them that much and we talk on a frequent enough basis. More than what I'd consider an acquaintance to be. This guy is a total piece of work. He's honest and well-meaning, but a total clingy dog of a person. And I don't mean "dog" as an insult either... he's really that friendly most of the time if he likes someone. Oh, but don't get me started on the people he likes. Because it makes me embarrassed that he chose to associate me with a certain "stereotype" as well. Which by the way, is more society's fault than any other. They had to come up with words to show disapproval for other people's body types. Anyway, this person has wronged me. In the sense that they have dishonored me with their asinine level of ignorance, and that's not the only strike against them. But I am a very patient person and, with the best of intentions, do not hesitate to tell them of how foolish they behave. As I've told them, "I may have to be mean, but I do only because I truly care about you." I do earnestly mean that, as well.
The way they wronged me was, well... we were talking and when I bring up my own wishes and regards for well, intimacy, this imbecile has the unmitigated gall to tell me to go sleep with a woman. It's just... wrong. Because they theirself are quickly offended if someone so much as tries to pass of their own sexuality (he's gay) as a "choice". SO! How dare he act like I can just choose to sleep with a female because I first and foremost want to be the giving partner in the terms of intimacy and have very limited desires to receive?! I am still entirely flummoxed as to how he can think its okay to even joke about it when he knows of my aversion to the appearance of female genitalia (no offense intended). THEN, oh how very foolish he is, he follows up at a later point, trying to clarify, that oh, there's men who may want to be women and it's just... I am entirely at a loss. Whenever I think back on these facts, I just feel conflicted. Should I really be so mad at him for being a dunce as he clearly is? Y'know, besides other reasons I have to be upset with him. Is it really his fault? I don't believe so, personally, but it still makes me just... feel more empty when people refuse to accept that some people are different and just aren't able to want to be more flexible (in multiple facets of the word) when they haven't experienced what they truly want at first.
As a guy who has not had sex, I just... feel distanced from other people who exhibit such closed-minded thoughts or ideals. Let us be serious for a moment. Do you need to have sex to want to ask someone out, and not only that, but hope that, maybe in your future you would reach a level of intimacy with them? Well I personally say no, sex does not determine a person's sexuality nor their preferences in other people. It can persuade them but hey, if you, as a male, never have been intimate with a woman, even on just an emotional level, then how can you say with complete confidence that you are not "straight"? Unlike my friend, I have been intimate with women, emotionally, not physically and I can say that I'm not really a physical-seeking person. I can also say that as far as physical context and anatomical gender are concerned, I prefer men. I know this because when I engage in personal activities... without meaning to sound crude, I orgasm more completely when my mind, which is receiving physical and mental stimulation, places myself with another male. That is why I know I'm gay. Not because I ever needed someone else to confirm this with their body. Of course if you want to offer me your body and you are a man, more power to you! Hah, have to end on a brighter note.
Other positive things to note of late are:
-several video games I would like to purchase are receiving localizations in my country soon
-thanks to the dunce's meddling, I did meet a new person to talk to who I do like, and that is all (for now)
-I found a diet soda that I actually like to drink; thing is, I abhor Splenda because for me, it gives me this really unsettling aftertaste whenever I consume something it's in; the soda I discovered now uses "good ol'" aspartame as one of its components
-I finally got around to finishing a full playthrough of Magna Carta 2; its a good game, despite its flaws I find a number of things I liked in it (voice acting was also loaded with big names in the US department)
I'll be seeing you, anonymous reader.
Tuesday, February 19, 2013
In which I offer rebuttal to various (but valid) criticisms on FE13
Fire Emblem: Awakening is the latest entry in the Fire Emblem franchise, as many people likely have heard of by now. Heck, it's one of the few Fire Emblem titles to receive televised commercial advertisements in America (a very rare phenomena for non SquareEnix RPGs, in comparison to the genre in general). So, I was reading a more-or-less rant by some tool who was displeased with the game, so much as to label the game bad. But, how bad is or isn't it? With only my general knowledge of the game, I will offer counterpoints on all of their incessant whining.
(any spoiler-ish content will be omitted as much as possible)
1. "The story. ... The charming simplicity of past games' stories has been replaced by a wonky Sci-Fi/fantasy hybrid that aims for epic and ends up cluttered, confused, and strangely uninteresting."
If one reads the articles pertaining to the game developers' thoughts and original drafts for this entry, this is actually what we nearly ended up with -- "Fire Emblem IN SPACE!". Obviously IS wanted a new spin on their old formula and they went with it which is why you'll find elements of science-fiction in the plot of FE13. If this really unnerves you, play Radiant Dawn and tell me which game feels more "confused and uninteresting". Also, does the fanbase really want a title that ONCE AGAIN deals strictly with political conflicts that only stem from social hiccups? Oh yes, Awakening has that but at least they're daring enough to add more, which seems to one as me as the entire focal point of this title--it's Fire Emblem... and more.
--their second complaint was entirely a spoiler element, skipping--
3. "Support conversations. ... While there's plenty of character development, the characterization is never particularly good. There's a more nuanced conversation to be had here, but a quick example should explain what I mean: compare Erk, from FE7, to Ricken. Erk is a young mage like Ricken, but also ambitious and fiercely intelligent, often to a fault; he's got a quick wit, a sharp tongue, and a short temper. He's bad with women. Despite his cool outer appearance, he fatigues easily and obsesses over his master. He feels like a believable and complex human being despite his limited screen time. Ricken feels like a generic anime stereotype with a bit of backstory."
The fault here is the characterization is entirely the choice of the original developers who are based in Japan and thus, cater essentially to themes of escapism that appeal to the audience in the east. A lot of the so-called personality the plaintiff claims to be present in Erk (who btw is only 15 years old and sounds like he has the persona of a 25 year old easily) is entirely the result of the localization team grasping at straws. In the case of FE13, the characters ARE anime stereotypes and whether or not one can feel endeared by this is solely up to the player's discretion. Personally, Erk is way too developed for an individual who hasn't even finished puberty--and there is beauty to be found in simplicity. If you want a believable ~13 year old boy, who actually shows profound maturity (if still naivety) at occasional moments (especially his introductory chapter), Ricken is your man. You will also find a few characters who were polished up a little for the western audience though; Olivia can be a bit too "soft" in the source material (intentional, her trope is "moe") and clearly shows a more proactive mindset in her support conversations with the Avatar/My Unit.
4. "Balance. Or more specifically, the lack of balance. Nosferatu is broken. MU is broken. Frederick is broken. SpotPass content, DLC, and Renown items can trivialize any difficulty mode. You can elect not to take advantage of this imbalance, as I've tried to do recently, but this leads to two sub-problems..."
4a. "Children characters. The children acquire the growths and skills of their parents, making them exceptionally good units. To compensate, they're hidden in difficulty-curve-botching Paralogue maps, which means recruiting most of them on any mode above Normal a practical impossibility. When a typical non-grinding run sees only one or two children characters recruited, you know you've implemented a feature poorly."
4b. "Challenge runs. I remained optimistic as long as I could, but this Lunatic run I've been trying out proves that the game is not designed around challenge runs. If you don't take advantage of broken options, you're left with an under-leveled and outmatched team that demands favorable RNG rolls on the later maps. This leads to an infuriating paradox: the higher difficulties can't be reasonably completed without broken options, but broken options (unsurprisingly) break the game completely. It is impossible to enjoy Lunatic for this reason, and cripples the game's replay ability."
Nosferatu has been nerfed from its first iterations in Western Fire Emblems to half-drain efficacy (originally was 1:1 damage to recovery ratio). The Avatar is hardly broken. Remove Veteran (possible as soon as the preparation menu shows up) and the Avatar levels at the same speed as every other unit. Remove Ignis and the Avatar's damage output goes from above average to below average as their strength and magic will always fall below more specialized classes. Don't want to reclass a bazillion times? Then don't. Frederick is entirely fair for difficulties above Normal and his internal level for starting promoted, in tandem with his crap bases is enough to hurt his longevity (while ensuring you don't explode in one turn on Lunatic/L+). Children paralogues are all optional and the reward of very potent characters certainly justifies the means. I wonder if the plaintiff understands the definition of the word "Lunatic". And are they perhaps aware that most of the development team do not personally advocate playing Lunatic (heck, one man found Hard too challenging for his self)? Lunatic is meant for the ultimate challenge and there are plenty of people who will enjoy it because it forces them to plan their moves many turns in advance (plenty of people love chess, this is a fact).
--their fifth complaint was further rants of "Lunatic+ is unfair!" and thus, skipping--
6. "Inconsistent tone. In places, this is a very dark game. People kill themselves. Thousands are lost in war. The game takes place on the backdrop of past cruelty and oppression. The future is condemned to death and fire. Yet there's plenty of goofy romance, fourth-wall breaking, fanservice, swimsuit scenes, and even awkward slapstick to take whatever serious tone exists and undermine it completely."
"A spoonful of sugar makes the medicine go down." This is clearly a sentiment the game presents to help keep its audience invested in "the very dark game," its developers created. If one has an honest problem with this, then maybe you should murder every light-hearted individual on the planet. Then you can have your constant grim-dark plots 24/7.
7. "Lacking map design. The open maps are devoid of interesting design, made worse by the lack of meaningful secondary objectives. The Paralogues are better, but still a mixed bag. Nothing says "bleh" like an escort mission with high-level, same-turn reinforcements. The map locations are nicely varied (mountains, plains, waterfalls, giant trees, even a dragon's back), but the design beneath the aesthetic is drab and samey. Awakening really could have used the multiple mission objectives of games like FE5 and FE7."
I do not completely disagree with this. But it would have likely been more trouble than it was worth to implement. They have to cut corners in places to compete with the speed of other games' developments nowadays and so I find the "lack" of variety here as moot since everything else in the game screams, "OMG! Choices!". Reclassing, children, scathes of supports returning to the beloved formula of FE6~9. Honestly I think some people are nigh impossible to please.
Well, that's how I feel. The plaintiff isn't truly wrong, nor without sympathies. But my god, they have a lot of free time to have typed all that spazz. Some people, I tell ya, too much free time!! Lol.
Ciao~.
(any spoiler-ish content will be omitted as much as possible)
1. "The story. ... The charming simplicity of past games' stories has been replaced by a wonky Sci-Fi/fantasy hybrid that aims for epic and ends up cluttered, confused, and strangely uninteresting."
If one reads the articles pertaining to the game developers' thoughts and original drafts for this entry, this is actually what we nearly ended up with -- "Fire Emblem IN SPACE!". Obviously IS wanted a new spin on their old formula and they went with it which is why you'll find elements of science-fiction in the plot of FE13. If this really unnerves you, play Radiant Dawn and tell me which game feels more "confused and uninteresting". Also, does the fanbase really want a title that ONCE AGAIN deals strictly with political conflicts that only stem from social hiccups? Oh yes, Awakening has that but at least they're daring enough to add more, which seems to one as me as the entire focal point of this title--it's Fire Emblem... and more.
--their second complaint was entirely a spoiler element, skipping--
3. "Support conversations. ... While there's plenty of character development, the characterization is never particularly good. There's a more nuanced conversation to be had here, but a quick example should explain what I mean: compare Erk, from FE7, to Ricken. Erk is a young mage like Ricken, but also ambitious and fiercely intelligent, often to a fault; he's got a quick wit, a sharp tongue, and a short temper. He's bad with women. Despite his cool outer appearance, he fatigues easily and obsesses over his master. He feels like a believable and complex human being despite his limited screen time. Ricken feels like a generic anime stereotype with a bit of backstory."
The fault here is the characterization is entirely the choice of the original developers who are based in Japan and thus, cater essentially to themes of escapism that appeal to the audience in the east. A lot of the so-called personality the plaintiff claims to be present in Erk (who btw is only 15 years old and sounds like he has the persona of a 25 year old easily) is entirely the result of the localization team grasping at straws. In the case of FE13, the characters ARE anime stereotypes and whether or not one can feel endeared by this is solely up to the player's discretion. Personally, Erk is way too developed for an individual who hasn't even finished puberty--and there is beauty to be found in simplicity. If you want a believable ~13 year old boy, who actually shows profound maturity (if still naivety) at occasional moments (especially his introductory chapter), Ricken is your man. You will also find a few characters who were polished up a little for the western audience though; Olivia can be a bit too "soft" in the source material (intentional, her trope is "moe") and clearly shows a more proactive mindset in her support conversations with the Avatar/My Unit.
4. "Balance. Or more specifically, the lack of balance. Nosferatu is broken. MU is broken. Frederick is broken. SpotPass content, DLC, and Renown items can trivialize any difficulty mode. You can elect not to take advantage of this imbalance, as I've tried to do recently, but this leads to two sub-problems..."
4a. "Children characters. The children acquire the growths and skills of their parents, making them exceptionally good units. To compensate, they're hidden in difficulty-curve-botching Paralogue maps, which means recruiting most of them on any mode above Normal a practical impossibility. When a typical non-grinding run sees only one or two children characters recruited, you know you've implemented a feature poorly."
4b. "Challenge runs. I remained optimistic as long as I could, but this Lunatic run I've been trying out proves that the game is not designed around challenge runs. If you don't take advantage of broken options, you're left with an under-leveled and outmatched team that demands favorable RNG rolls on the later maps. This leads to an infuriating paradox: the higher difficulties can't be reasonably completed without broken options, but broken options (unsurprisingly) break the game completely. It is impossible to enjoy Lunatic for this reason, and cripples the game's replay ability."
Nosferatu has been nerfed from its first iterations in Western Fire Emblems to half-drain efficacy (originally was 1:1 damage to recovery ratio). The Avatar is hardly broken. Remove Veteran (possible as soon as the preparation menu shows up) and the Avatar levels at the same speed as every other unit. Remove Ignis and the Avatar's damage output goes from above average to below average as their strength and magic will always fall below more specialized classes. Don't want to reclass a bazillion times? Then don't. Frederick is entirely fair for difficulties above Normal and his internal level for starting promoted, in tandem with his crap bases is enough to hurt his longevity (while ensuring you don't explode in one turn on Lunatic/L+). Children paralogues are all optional and the reward of very potent characters certainly justifies the means. I wonder if the plaintiff understands the definition of the word "Lunatic". And are they perhaps aware that most of the development team do not personally advocate playing Lunatic (heck, one man found Hard too challenging for his self)? Lunatic is meant for the ultimate challenge and there are plenty of people who will enjoy it because it forces them to plan their moves many turns in advance (plenty of people love chess, this is a fact).
--their fifth complaint was further rants of "Lunatic+ is unfair!" and thus, skipping--
6. "Inconsistent tone. In places, this is a very dark game. People kill themselves. Thousands are lost in war. The game takes place on the backdrop of past cruelty and oppression. The future is condemned to death and fire. Yet there's plenty of goofy romance, fourth-wall breaking, fanservice, swimsuit scenes, and even awkward slapstick to take whatever serious tone exists and undermine it completely."
"A spoonful of sugar makes the medicine go down." This is clearly a sentiment the game presents to help keep its audience invested in "the very dark game," its developers created. If one has an honest problem with this, then maybe you should murder every light-hearted individual on the planet. Then you can have your constant grim-dark plots 24/7.
7. "Lacking map design. The open maps are devoid of interesting design, made worse by the lack of meaningful secondary objectives. The Paralogues are better, but still a mixed bag. Nothing says "bleh" like an escort mission with high-level, same-turn reinforcements. The map locations are nicely varied (mountains, plains, waterfalls, giant trees, even a dragon's back), but the design beneath the aesthetic is drab and samey. Awakening really could have used the multiple mission objectives of games like FE5 and FE7."
I do not completely disagree with this. But it would have likely been more trouble than it was worth to implement. They have to cut corners in places to compete with the speed of other games' developments nowadays and so I find the "lack" of variety here as moot since everything else in the game screams, "OMG! Choices!". Reclassing, children, scathes of supports returning to the beloved formula of FE6~9. Honestly I think some people are nigh impossible to please.
Well, that's how I feel. The plaintiff isn't truly wrong, nor without sympathies. But my god, they have a lot of free time to have typed all that spazz. Some people, I tell ya, too much free time!! Lol.
Ciao~.
List of Current Peeves
Things about myself:
-I care way more than I should
-I really need to lose weight
-well, I don't like the way I look and it mostly coincides with--I need to lose weight
-I'm way too shy, and as a result, awkward
-I'm way too honest, and apparently can come off as a "creep" to some people
Things about other people:
-misogynists
-my mother's air-headedness
-my mother and grandfather's doormat-like behavior in regards to their peers
-my mother needs to tell ____ to get the hell out of her house so she CAN LIVE IN HER LEGALLY OWNED PROPERTY (no hate to ____, it's just the principal of the matter)
-my grandfather needs to tell people off when they say dumb/rude things instead of constantly confiding/taking out his hatred on me
-people that think average = undesirable
-promiscuity (I mean MY GOD, reading someone say they'd do their best friend if said friend swings their way is just SCARY)
-prudes (ok, so I want to be able to talk about sex openly)
-people who don't talk much (re: people who give too many single-word responses or take incessantly long to reply)
-people who say they "can't live" because "so and so..."
-anyone who gives me orders or tells me what to do in a commanding/demanding manner
-also, people who don't shut up (re: asking me "what are you up to?" 3 times in 3.5 hours is A BIT INVASIVE)
some of those I've likely shared already, and I don't care, they still annoy me, hah!
take care, randoms~
-I care way more than I should
-I really need to lose weight
-well, I don't like the way I look and it mostly coincides with--I need to lose weight
-I'm way too shy, and as a result, awkward
-I'm way too honest, and apparently can come off as a "creep" to some people
Things about other people:
-misogynists
-my mother's air-headedness
-my mother and grandfather's doormat-like behavior in regards to their peers
-my mother needs to tell ____ to get the hell out of her house so she CAN LIVE IN HER LEGALLY OWNED PROPERTY (no hate to ____, it's just the principal of the matter)
-my grandfather needs to tell people off when they say dumb/rude things instead of constantly confiding/taking out his hatred on me
-people that think average = undesirable
-promiscuity (I mean MY GOD, reading someone say they'd do their best friend if said friend swings their way is just SCARY)
-prudes (ok, so I want to be able to talk about sex openly)
-people who don't talk much (re: people who give too many single-word responses or take incessantly long to reply)
-people who say they "can't live" because "so and so..."
-anyone who gives me orders or tells me what to do in a commanding/demanding manner
-also, people who don't shut up (re: asking me "what are you up to?" 3 times in 3.5 hours is A BIT INVASIVE)
some of those I've likely shared already, and I don't care, they still annoy me, hah!
take care, randoms~
Monday, February 4, 2013
Words
They say actions speak louder than them; but what if you can't see the person's actions? Aren't those actions then rendered useless? And what about our thoughts? A lot of people think in words. No, not everyone but anyone who's ever read a book will in turn have been affected by words alone. Especially any book with no illustrations.
Lately I've been thinking about... well, let's not mince words here. Casey. ♥ Oh... lol. It's weird I guess. I mean, it's been 4 years since I last heard from him (or about that long). And still I miss him. I try to get over it. I try to welcome new people and possibilities, shifting as much energy and affection as I can to those things. But I still just want to see, well, talk with him again as the case may be. I never saw him directly. I found his Myspace page around the time the site was mostly dead anyway and I did try to contact him nonetheless. I'm *fairly* sure I got no reply. Oh well, that'd be too easy.
I guess I'm in love with him to a degree. I can go weeks without thinking much of him at all but he's always there. I guess I want someone that fits most of the things I liked about him--well, he was giving and open but never overtly so. We'd spend a lot of time spooning in cyberspace but we'd also talk just about our lives and the joy of being free to live together. It wasn't that we had any particular goals in anything, we just seemed more alive with one another. I don't know about you, whoever reads this, but that sounds like a rather positive thing to me.
I never really knew the him outside his words though as I more or less meant by "never saw". No real looks to go by. But I trusted him. I did get a glimpse of something physical and I'm fairly sure (though I don't have the image any longer--deleted for sanity's sake) that wasn't a lie. There'd be no point in that. Besides, I liked him too and though I mostly showed it by wanting to spend an hour or so with intimate exchange, I was pretty honest with him. It was my own fault for mistaking such displays as genuine attraction from people though. It led to our falling out if you want to call it. But we were able to talk a little after it and mostly I was just elated to have time with him again, though that turned out brief.
He was sensitive in some regards, kinda enjoyed humor, and needed me to a degree. I like those things in people... I don't like feeling unneeded or without being able to laugh. As it turns out I apparently laugh easily when I'm amused/feeling happy in general. It might be that since I cry easily, I also laugh easily? Not unsurprising, I suppose. I may just feel a bit lackluster since he felt he could leave so easily. It's positive I was able to show him that he could be loved (his words mostly) but I can't help but wish he was still around.
I think I'm able to love most people. Or, that I simply try to really know and appreciate people just for being there. Just for their words, as it appears. Oh sure, I could probably find some things to not like about him. I just wasn't quite given that chance, lol. I guess it feels incomplete, so I'm still in love with him, at least a little. Sometimes more than a little. But, I will earnestly try, when it's more than a little, to remember to love whoever is trying to love me. At least, when they truly want to. I'm at least, not out of love just yet.
And one more thing... he never made me choose. Oh sure we both hadn't had sex before and I still haven't as of this entry. But that was a big thing. He let me do as I wanted. Hell, he encouraged me to be the assertive/aggressive partner and for that I was thrilled. Sure my text implied I would be open to taking turns with him, but he didn't need that. There are few things hotter than the person you love (y'know, not to leave out you boring straight folk) asking you to go inside them. Pfft, I don't care if I ever did get to penetrate him or not, I'd even be content with my fingers. And there I go... bad me.
Later, randoms.
Lately I've been thinking about... well, let's not mince words here. Casey. ♥ Oh... lol. It's weird I guess. I mean, it's been 4 years since I last heard from him (or about that long). And still I miss him. I try to get over it. I try to welcome new people and possibilities, shifting as much energy and affection as I can to those things. But I still just want to see, well, talk with him again as the case may be. I never saw him directly. I found his Myspace page around the time the site was mostly dead anyway and I did try to contact him nonetheless. I'm *fairly* sure I got no reply. Oh well, that'd be too easy.
I guess I'm in love with him to a degree. I can go weeks without thinking much of him at all but he's always there. I guess I want someone that fits most of the things I liked about him--well, he was giving and open but never overtly so. We'd spend a lot of time spooning in cyberspace but we'd also talk just about our lives and the joy of being free to live together. It wasn't that we had any particular goals in anything, we just seemed more alive with one another. I don't know about you, whoever reads this, but that sounds like a rather positive thing to me.
I never really knew the him outside his words though as I more or less meant by "never saw". No real looks to go by. But I trusted him. I did get a glimpse of something physical and I'm fairly sure (though I don't have the image any longer--deleted for sanity's sake) that wasn't a lie. There'd be no point in that. Besides, I liked him too and though I mostly showed it by wanting to spend an hour or so with intimate exchange, I was pretty honest with him. It was my own fault for mistaking such displays as genuine attraction from people though. It led to our falling out if you want to call it. But we were able to talk a little after it and mostly I was just elated to have time with him again, though that turned out brief.
He was sensitive in some regards, kinda enjoyed humor, and needed me to a degree. I like those things in people... I don't like feeling unneeded or without being able to laugh. As it turns out I apparently laugh easily when I'm amused/feeling happy in general. It might be that since I cry easily, I also laugh easily? Not unsurprising, I suppose. I may just feel a bit lackluster since he felt he could leave so easily. It's positive I was able to show him that he could be loved (his words mostly) but I can't help but wish he was still around.
I think I'm able to love most people. Or, that I simply try to really know and appreciate people just for being there. Just for their words, as it appears. Oh sure, I could probably find some things to not like about him. I just wasn't quite given that chance, lol. I guess it feels incomplete, so I'm still in love with him, at least a little. Sometimes more than a little. But, I will earnestly try, when it's more than a little, to remember to love whoever is trying to love me. At least, when they truly want to. I'm at least, not out of love just yet.
And one more thing... he never made me choose. Oh sure we both hadn't had sex before and I still haven't as of this entry. But that was a big thing. He let me do as I wanted. Hell, he encouraged me to be the assertive/aggressive partner and for that I was thrilled. Sure my text implied I would be open to taking turns with him, but he didn't need that. There are few things hotter than the person you love (y'know, not to leave out you boring straight folk) asking you to go inside them. Pfft, I don't care if I ever did get to penetrate him or not, I'd even be content with my fingers. And there I go... bad me.
Later, randoms.
Thursday, January 10, 2013
This Post is all about... S-E-X (part 1)
I was inspired to fill out my own "yes-no-maybe" list after the "true end" of a webcomic series I love dearly was presented today. It's going to be very detailed, so let it be know that YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED. Anyway, some preface notes:
1). I am a virgin, so all my answers will be as close as I can accurately give based solely on what I want/don't want.
2). In all questions referring to a partner, I will be under the assumption that my partner is either:
A - a homosexual and biological male
or
B - a biological female who identifies as a homosexual male and prefers a homosexual male as his sex partner with the verbal agreement that no attention will be paid to the birth parts between his front legs
No offense to anyone, I just really don't feel comfortable thinking physical intimacy with women at all. And if it matters to anyone, I'd prefer my partner be no more than 4 years younger or 12 years older than me, regardless of how old I end up before truly having intercourse on a semi-regular basis.
All answers are for me, mind you. So, let it begin!
Body Boundaries
Q - Having a partner touch me affectionately without asking first
A - yes
Q - Touching a partner affectionately without asking first
A - yes; sometimes at least
Q - Having a partner touch me sexually without asking first
A - maybe; moreso if we already have had sex once already
Q - Touching a partner sexually without asking first
A - maybe; but I'd prefer to ask first, usually
Q - Having a partner touch me affectionately in public
A - yes (please)
Q - Touching a partner affectionately in public
A - yes; if they tell me so
Q - Having a partner touch me sexually in public
A - maybe; probably yes, though I hope its at least semi-discreet
Q - Touching a partner sexually in public
A - maybe; if they ask me to or heavily hint at it?
Q - Having my shirt/top off with a partner
Having a partner's shirt/top off
Having my pants/bottoms off with a partner
Having a partner's pants/bottoms off
A - yes to all
Q - Being completely naked with a partner with the lights off or low
Having a partner be completely naked with the lights off or low
Having a partner be completely naked with the lights on
A - yes to these, but...
Q - Being completely naked with a partner with the lights on
A - maybe~leaning no on this one
Q - Direct eye contact
A - yes; unless they tell me of a personal problem w/ it
Q - Being looked at directly, overall, when I am naked
A - maybe; I'm shy about my body
Q - Grooming or toileting in front of a partner
A - maybe; if they say they're ok w/ it
Q - Having a partner groom/use the toilet in front of me
A - no thanks
Q - Having my genitals looked at directly
A - yes
Q - Having a partner talk about my body
A - maybe; if they feel like it, though I don't prefer it
Q - Talking about a partner's body
A - no; unless they ask me to
Q - Having some or all of a disability, identity or difference I have be specifically made part of sex, sexualized or objectified
Having some or all of a disability, identity or difference a partner has be specifically made part of sex,
sexualized or objectified
A - no to both
Q - Seeing or being exposed to other kinds of body fluids
(like semen, sweat or urine)
A - maybe; yes on semen and sweat; NO to the third one
Q - Shaving/trimming/removing my own pubic hair
A - yes
Q - Shaving/trimming/removing a partner's pubic hair
A - maybe; though I wouldn't ask to sit in on it but if they need my help, I guess
Some parts of my body are just off-limits. Those are: I don't think there are any. But I'm Very, VERY ticklish in most places. (Like, can't-stop-kicking level of ticklish).
I am not comfortable looking at, touching or feeling some parts of another person's body. Those are: I pretty much mentioned this in my intro~.
What helps me feel most comfortable being naked with someone? What are ways a partner does or may talk about my body make or could make me feel uncomfortable? What do I "count" as sexual touching and what do I consider affectionate touching?
Um, when you (my partner) talk about things you like about me besides my body, like while we're naked. And then between your points, kiss me in various places. Like, show that you notice things most people probably take for granted (it's the little things, people!). Basically I don't ever like my weight or size of things ever being talked about by other people asides myself. Period. So just avoid that and we're cool. I like when people appreciate my ideas and overall effort I put into things--recognize how passionate I am and I could hardly be happier! Sexual touching is basically any touch of my backside, privates or upper chest around the nipples and I don't prefer that unless you are really in the mood. I'm pretty much as turned on as my partner is or isn't at the time. Take that as you want~.
Words & Terms
I prefer the following gender/sexual identity or role words (like man, woman, boi, femme, butch, top, etc.) to be used for me: Man, Sir
I prefer my chest or breasts be referred to as: Chest (maybe "moobs", in jokes only)
I prefer my genitals to be referred to as: Penis/Cock/Stick
I prefer my sexual orientation and/or identity to be referred to as: Homo/Queer/"Nine-Tenths Gay"
Some words I am not okay with to refer to me, my identity, my body, or which I am uncomfortable using or hearing about, with or during any kind of sex are: Fag; being called a girl or having any part of my body called by a part normally belonging to females (i.e. "pussy", "breasts", etc.)
Are certain words okay in some settings or situations but not in others? How flexible am I with what a partner might want to call something I like calling something else?
I will be flexible depending on how long I've known you and we've talked. In short, expect me to be very inflexible for the first month or two of knowing you, even if we've started on sex by then. I hope that's reasonable.
Stay tuned when next I cover subjects such as: relationship models, safe sex and sexual responses~!
Lol, as if anyone really reads my blog seriously. See ya, weirdos! xD
1). I am a virgin, so all my answers will be as close as I can accurately give based solely on what I want/don't want.
2). In all questions referring to a partner, I will be under the assumption that my partner is either:
A - a homosexual and biological male
or
B - a biological female who identifies as a homosexual male and prefers a homosexual male as his sex partner with the verbal agreement that no attention will be paid to the birth parts between his front legs
No offense to anyone, I just really don't feel comfortable thinking physical intimacy with women at all. And if it matters to anyone, I'd prefer my partner be no more than 4 years younger or 12 years older than me, regardless of how old I end up before truly having intercourse on a semi-regular basis.
All answers are for me, mind you. So, let it begin!
Body Boundaries
Q - Having a partner touch me affectionately without asking first
A - yes
Q - Touching a partner affectionately without asking first
A - yes; sometimes at least
Q - Having a partner touch me sexually without asking first
A - maybe; moreso if we already have had sex once already
Q - Touching a partner sexually without asking first
A - maybe; but I'd prefer to ask first, usually
Q - Having a partner touch me affectionately in public
A - yes (please)
Q - Touching a partner affectionately in public
A - yes; if they tell me so
Q - Having a partner touch me sexually in public
A - maybe; probably yes, though I hope its at least semi-discreet
Q - Touching a partner sexually in public
A - maybe; if they ask me to or heavily hint at it?
Q - Having my shirt/top off with a partner
Having a partner's shirt/top off
Having my pants/bottoms off with a partner
Having a partner's pants/bottoms off
A - yes to all
Q - Being completely naked with a partner with the lights off or low
Having a partner be completely naked with the lights off or low
Having a partner be completely naked with the lights on
A - yes to these, but...
Q - Being completely naked with a partner with the lights on
A - maybe~leaning no on this one
Q - Direct eye contact
A - yes; unless they tell me of a personal problem w/ it
Q - Being looked at directly, overall, when I am naked
A - maybe; I'm shy about my body
Q - Grooming or toileting in front of a partner
A - maybe; if they say they're ok w/ it
Q - Having a partner groom/use the toilet in front of me
A - no thanks
Q - Having my genitals looked at directly
A - yes
Q - Having a partner talk about my body
A - maybe; if they feel like it, though I don't prefer it
Q - Talking about a partner's body
A - no; unless they ask me to
Q - Having some or all of a disability, identity or difference I have be specifically made part of sex, sexualized or objectified
Having some or all of a disability, identity or difference a partner has be specifically made part of sex,
sexualized or objectified
A - no to both
Q - Seeing or being exposed to other kinds of body fluids
(like semen, sweat or urine)
A - maybe; yes on semen and sweat; NO to the third one
Q - Shaving/trimming/removing my own pubic hair
A - yes
Q - Shaving/trimming/removing a partner's pubic hair
A - maybe; though I wouldn't ask to sit in on it but if they need my help, I guess
Some parts of my body are just off-limits. Those are: I don't think there are any. But I'm Very, VERY ticklish in most places. (Like, can't-stop-kicking level of ticklish).
I am not comfortable looking at, touching or feeling some parts of another person's body. Those are: I pretty much mentioned this in my intro~.
What helps me feel most comfortable being naked with someone? What are ways a partner does or may talk about my body make or could make me feel uncomfortable? What do I "count" as sexual touching and what do I consider affectionate touching?
Um, when you (my partner) talk about things you like about me besides my body, like while we're naked. And then between your points, kiss me in various places. Like, show that you notice things most people probably take for granted (it's the little things, people!). Basically I don't ever like my weight or size of things ever being talked about by other people asides myself. Period. So just avoid that and we're cool. I like when people appreciate my ideas and overall effort I put into things--recognize how passionate I am and I could hardly be happier! Sexual touching is basically any touch of my backside, privates or upper chest around the nipples and I don't prefer that unless you are really in the mood. I'm pretty much as turned on as my partner is or isn't at the time. Take that as you want~.
Words & Terms
I prefer the following gender/sexual identity or role words (like man, woman, boi, femme, butch, top, etc.) to be used for me: Man, Sir
I prefer my chest or breasts be referred to as: Chest (maybe "moobs", in jokes only)
I prefer my genitals to be referred to as: Penis/Cock/Stick
I prefer my sexual orientation and/or identity to be referred to as: Homo/Queer/"Nine-Tenths Gay"
Some words I am not okay with to refer to me, my identity, my body, or which I am uncomfortable using or hearing about, with or during any kind of sex are: Fag; being called a girl or having any part of my body called by a part normally belonging to females (i.e. "pussy", "breasts", etc.)
Are certain words okay in some settings or situations but not in others? How flexible am I with what a partner might want to call something I like calling something else?
I will be flexible depending on how long I've known you and we've talked. In short, expect me to be very inflexible for the first month or two of knowing you, even if we've started on sex by then. I hope that's reasonable.
Stay tuned when next I cover subjects such as: relationship models, safe sex and sexual responses~!
Lol, as if anyone really reads my blog seriously. See ya, weirdos! xD
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