I need a real mood stabilizer right now. I spoke to a friend explaining my circumstances, though summarized it very tightly (left out how hurt I am feeling) and then they started to put their own self down. So I pointed out the simple things they have going for them and stated, "I wasted my time... but I think I would have mostly done the same," regarding the big punch to the gullet I received today. My friend felt better and agreed with me that what's important is to just keep trying to make better choices and things will balance out. I hope so, I truly do.
Anyway, I started to read some general statements pertaining to my star sign, and many I do agree with in regards to, "yeah, I see this in me," and wanted to share some, so...
-statement (my thoughts go here)
[Gemini]
-likes to cook for the one they adore (and how!)
-is a protector of those they love
-isn't one to plan most things; they like to wing it (this can annoy people, lol, but yeah)
-can get jealous but prefers to be indifferent (I think? I would say jealousy won't happen unless I'm not over lingering feelings and stuff)
-has a lot of heart and shows it readily to friends (maybe too much? x.x I wish I could restrain it s'more)
-puts it all on the line for the right person (so true, even if you're not "right", if I care, its a force of habit)
-loves to hold hands more than they're willing to admit (I do! I think hands can be the third prettiest feature of a person, usually after eyes and lips, hah ^^)
-doesn't often splurge on gifts... the true gift from Gemini is time spent together (eat that, you punk-ass bitch! I may have been a blabbermouth but you have hard evidence of the time I spent thinking of you and wanting to share my feelings and stuff all the time... it mattered to me ;_;)
-needs an energetic someone to keep them moving (I do, motivation is a huge lacking facet of mine, its hard without a push, for me)
-has a naughty thought from time to time... but seldom acts on it (I wonder if gemini's tend to stay virgins longer than others? might just be me though, lol)
-is a dreamer with the dream of a perfect relationship (well nobody IS perfect but I just want to make one relationship work eventually, I really do)
-gets silly around that special someone (I'm sorry for talking so much, I didn't know it bothered you so much, if it did... I just, was so happy with your friendship)
-when depressed, is a non-stop eating machine (gods, yes, but lately its reversed, I can barely eat at all, I just want to sleep : |)
-can be a pain in the ass when they're bored (shit, now you tell me... I just hoped my thoughts could at least show that I was more happy than bored and annoying x.x no wonder my mom ignored me as a kid (hah... not funny, sorry))
-gives others the opportunity to make up for past mistakes (yeah! in case... you do change your mind or its just a big mood whiplash, I don't want to be mad at you : |)
-harbors no ill will long-term, although resentment may linger (I resent how I'm being treated most... I still want to be his friend, if nothing else)
-gets easily excited when things are looking up (well my blog can attest to that! I wish... it would extend to others though : |)
-gives you time to explain your side before making a judgement ('tis why the silent treatment is pure torture x.x)
-backs you up even when you don't think you don't need it (just a good point of mine, I think ^^)
-gets worried that loved ones will leave them after a while (... yeah : |)
-is sometimes afraid of change, but will take the chance (maybe this is why I try to reach even people who do stuff I can't stand; its tough, but just want my loved ones to be happy)
-is not a worry wart, but will worry if the subject warrants it (hint, hint!)
-is more likely to give others the benefit of the doubt than other signs would (pains of being "the nice guy" I suppose)
-is most likely to speak up to defend others in their time of need (I will... I know I'm upset and all, but no one is allowed to make you cry, no one, not even me... even though I can't stop from crying over people, darnit x.x)
-has no problem with telling you exactly what issues they have with you (eyup... but I don't try to pick too much, I'd rather focus on the good, there's good in everyone!)
-takes both compliments and insults to heart (explains why I can even cry still... though currently I'm too sick to do so, stupid bowels...)
-isn't always honest, but tries to be as much as possible (sure do!)
-enjoys spending time with family and friends just hanging about (haha, yep, I'm lazy :p)
-likes to forget the past and move forward with a clean slate (honestly in a few weeks if this mood of yours persists, I just want to start over; I do want to be in your life and have you in mine but boy, are you fussy! xD)
-finds that love is worth all the effort and arguing (... I like to hope so, can't say I know for sure x.x)
-believes small gestures are very meaningful in themselves (they are : ) you... were mostly kind towards me, lol, sorry I keep referring to "you" bleh, need a reprogramming of my harddrive, haha)
-has had a hard life enduring the harsh personalities of others (I suppose my grandfather is a culprit here x.x and some people I've tried to talk to, as well)
Well, that's more than enough... I feel a smidge better from venting out these thoughts. Hope I can sleep some, now. Until next time...
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